Hide & Seek

There's No Truth in Fear

By: Todd Aaron Kane

Narrated by: Todd Kane

Length: 5 hrs and 7 mins

Publisher's summary

For nearly 50 year, Todd Kane played a complex and exhausting game of HIDE & SEEK with the truth. This father, veteran, entrepreneur, philanthropist, and now author hid past experiences and his sexuality for reasons he couldn’t fully explain until now.

Significant life-altering events tested an already wavering faith in a man too familiar with fear. Todd lived in the mind and eyes of others adapting his behavior to please those around him. A shapeshifter and, at times, an imposter, he found it increasingly difficult to speak and live his truth.

From our learned experiences, our choices are shaped, and yet we can be completely unaware of their effects on us. If this is the case, are our choices authentically our own? Are they made with aspirations, dreams, and a pursuit of happiness or adversely influenced by fearful experiences in our past?

Todd Kane has always been a skilled storyteller - weaving together versions of himself to fabricate a variant that everyone would love even at the expense of his authenticity.

As a teenager exploring his sexuality, Kane was overcome by fear, along with most as the AIDS epidemic shocked the world. A choice was made, and his truth suppressed that would never lose it's power, only it's voice.

Kane shares his experiences through many historical milestones in modern gay culture, beginning with the AIDS epidemic and on to Don't Ask Don't Tell, gay marriage, hook-up sites, and the introduction of PrEP. He does so from a unique perspective and candor filled with lessons we all can benefit from.

After the end of his second marriage, this time to a man, Kane comes face to face with the one thing unique to every challenge in his life - his truth.

In this book, Kane chooses to bring together the authentic pieces of himself as he beautifully weaves the truth into the tapestry of his life's story. He patches holes created by trauma, fear, and lies to reveal a work of art that is uniquely him and displays it for us all to learn from and share.

©2019 Todd Kane (P)2020 Todd Kane

Genuine and full of emotions

A journey about the internal struggles of a man navigating through family, military life, relationships and self-discovery. Todd narrates how his battles led to finding himself, to living a life of truth and authenticity. The book is genuine and full of emotions. I got the audiobook version narrated by the author himself, so in my drives to work, I often find myself musing about my personal life after listening to its chapters. The conversations of Todd with his dad are the most powerful ones for me. I recommend this book if you are looking for some inspiration and encouragement!

Discovered Fears Blocking My Truths

As Todd Kane unfolds his own story of a child that balances the personal duplicity of surviving sexual abuse with the innocent moments such as bonding with mom over the new Avon lipstick color had me memorized. The story felt slow to start, but I recommend you stick with it. Todd had an uncanny way of sharing that allowed me to see my own fears that may be blocking the truths for my own fully fulfilled life.

This book also has surprising life nuggets and provides some insight into the LGTB community and ways to support and love our fellow humans for exactly how they identify and for the path that made each of us who we are.

I’m going to listen again! As it that kind of book where one hears different perspectives depending on where life is for the reader at the time, always evolving!

Thank you Todd Kane for so graciously sharing your Fears and your Truths!