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The Way I Used to Be Audiobook

The Way I Used to Be

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Publisher's Summary

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved - who she once loved - she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts - freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years - this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

©2016 Amber Smith (P)2016 Simon & Schuster, Inc.

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    Amber Rae San Francisco, CA 09-10-16
    Amber Rae San Francisco, CA 09-10-16 Member Since 2014

    I'm a clinical psychology doctorate student. I love to read a good romance or ya novel to escape from the everyday stresses of life.

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    This book is not the easiest to finish due to the emotional content. I remember taking it in smaller doses when it got to be too much. Other times, I took large doses and stayed up till 6 in the morning. Overall, I was really moved by this book. It brought me back in time to when the popular, older girls would hang in the bathroom in high school and put their make-up on in the mirror. It brought back memories of being a freshman living in my first college dorm. Alas, it was hard to sit and wait for her to finally be able to tell someone she was raped, but the book was worthwhile.

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    kaija 10-05-16
    kaija 10-05-16 Member Since 2015
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    the story was utterly fascinating. couldn't stop listening. was very moved by the whole message. thankful for this book.

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    Amazon Customer 04-10-16 Member Since 2012
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    Tears, tears, tears. Good story that everyone should hear. Everyone needs to understand the fear that she felt for so long.

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    Jo Martinsville, VA, United States 04-01-16
    Jo Martinsville, VA, United States 04-01-16
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    "One of the best books I've ever read"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    If they want to understand what it means to experience sexual trauma, then yes.


    What was one of the most memorable moments of The Way I Used to Be?

    Character's description of how she tried to overcome the experience of rape by forcing herself to have sex and eventually becoming promiscuous. This made sense of a phenomenon that on the surface of it, makes no sense.


    Have you listened to any of Rebekkah Ross’s other performances before? How does this one compare?

    no


    If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

    .


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    K. Moore 03-26-16
    K. Moore 03-26-16 Member Since 2017
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    "Unbearable"
    What did you like best about The Way I Used to Be? What did you like least?

    That Eden finally told someone. The fact that it portrayed a girl of 14 having sex ,this book showed how rape can destroy. This book could have ended 3 hrs earlier.


    Has The Way I Used to Be turned you off from other books in this genre?

    not sure


    Which scene was your favorite?

    When she finally opens her mouth and tells


    Do you think The Way I Used to Be needs a follow-up book? Why or why not?

    No


    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Alanna Harju 06-23-17 Member Since 2016
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    "makes my heart hurt"

    never have I had such a hard time like a protagonist! It made it hard to enjoy!!

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    ashley 06-21-17
    ashley 06-21-17 Member Since 2017
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    "i really loved this book"

    i loved it! it was well written and its always hard to read about this topic but i enjoyed the story

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    meg 04-26-17
    meg 04-26-17 Member Since 2015
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    "great!!!"

    this book was so good, I loved every minute of it. it's just so sad what sexual assault does to someone and how it changes people. I was really happy that I got this book and hope to read more from this author

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    Noelle Villa 03-23-17 Member Since 2017
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    i can listen to this book over and over again. I was so lost in the story.

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    Jackie Womack 02-25-17
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    Thus book is just...Wow! Speaking from experiencing, it's enlightening to have a book written about a survivor of rape overcoming her depression, anxiety, and confusion without being rescued by someone (especially a man). This book is a must read!

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