• If He Had Been with Me

  • By: Laura Nowlin
  • Narrated by: Gina Rogers
  • Length: 8 hrs and 37 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (249 ratings)

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If He Had Been with Me

By: Laura Nowlin
Narrated by: Gina Rogers
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Publisher's Summary

An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA best seller is perfect for fans of Kasie West, All the Bright Places, and Dear Evan Hansen.

If he had been with me, everything would have been different....

Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other. 

Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around. 

That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.

But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways....

©2013, 2019 Laura Nowlin (P)2020 Tantor

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Waste of time.

listened to this book based on the reviews, but this the story kinda sucked. There was a lot of teenage angst, and the main character was kind of a shitty person. towards the end I thought I was going to start liking it and than it was just ruined. I feel like wasted my time listening to this book.

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WHY.

Why did she do that?! Why couldn’t there be a happy ending? My heart is shattered yet full. Autumn and Finny deserved so much more

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It will not disappoint!

I would highly recommend this novel!! Its beyond engaging and the plot is very relatable! First book that Ive finished with in two days because I honestly couldn’t put it down!

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This destroyed me in the best way

This book gave me an awakening to issues i wasnt even aware i was having. It tells you what’s going to happen from the start but even bearing that knowledge in mind through the whole book it is still devastating and cruel and once it fully ended i has to just lay in silence for a while. I finished the 9 hour book in 3 days. I wish i could experience it for the first time again.

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Perfection

This is the fastest I’ve ever finished an audiobook. O finished it in 1.5 days. I listened to at work, while cooking and even in the shower. I couldn’t stop listening. Such an amazing book and so beautifully told.

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So disheartening

This book ripped me apart. I was captivated the entire time I couldn’t stop listening. Such a good read.

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Ouch

Get ready to get your heart ripped out of your chest and thrown across the room

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10 out of 10

I have no words for the ending !! Super good book , it definitely had my emotions on a roller coaster ride !

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Gripping

Loved loved loved the story.. It was believable but sad at the same time .. I wish it didn’t end where it did

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Meh….

Just like every tragedy basic teenager story. Love the narrator and some characters. But to cringy for my taste.

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  • 11-28-22

amazing

Best but most heart wrenching book of all time. So beautifully written with characters that deserved so much more. 10/10

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  • Georgia Hadcroft
  • 11-24-22

Tragically Beautiful

I loved every moment of this book, the ending was so heartbreaking but amazingly written.

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  • Loriana
  • 11-19-22

Anticlimactic

Given the length of this book the story gave a whole lot of nothing. I didn’t particularly feel any type of way about the characters. None of them had much depth if I’m being completely honest. The story was very slow paced and picked up towards the end of the book only for it to end in an anticlimactic way.

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  • 11-26-22

Predictable and rushed

Great narration. Story wasn't bad it was just ok, predictable, full of cliches and the ending was rushed. I was hoping for a sad book that stuck with me for days eg. Tads death at the end of Cujo however this book didn't deliver.

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  • 05-28-21

Ending rushed

I felt like the book was drawn out with unnecessary detail at times. Then the ending was rushed which is a shame