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Publisher's Summary

The heart may hide, but it never forgets. The first women’s fiction novel from New York Times and number one international best-selling author Christina Lauren (Autoboyography, Dating You/Hating You).

Macy Sorensen is settling into an ambitious if emotionally tepid routine: work hard as a new pediatrics resident, plan her wedding to an older, financially secure man, keep her head down and heart tucked away.

But when she runs into Elliot Petropoulos - the first and only love of her life - the careful bubble she’s constructed begins to dissolve. Once upon a time, Elliot was Macy’s entire world - growing from her gangly teen friend into the man who coaxed her heart open again after the loss of her mother...only to break it on the very night he declared his love for her.

Told in alternating timelines between then and now, teenage Elliot and Macy grow from friends to much more - spending weekends and lazy summers together in a house outside of San Francisco reading books, sharing favorite words, and talking through their growing pains and triumphs. As adults, they have become strangers to one another until their chance reunion. Although their memories are obscured by the agony of what happened that night so many years ago, Elliot will come to understand the truth behind Macy’s decade-long silence and will have to overcome the past and himself to revive her faith in the possibility of an all-consuming love.

©2018 Christina Lauren (P)2018 Simon & Schuster Audio

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  • Cyndi
  • Michigan
  • 04-13-18

✫✫ 4 Stars ✫✫ Great Narration

While I really enjoyed most of this book, I have to say this could have been a 5 star book except I felt like there were a few different things with these characters that were either passed by like it was inconsequential or that were just so out of character for them both. I love a friends to loves story and I love a second chance romance so this book started out perfect for me. I really enjoyed the past/present story line and I enjoyed how different Elliot and Macy were from the time they met and how it just worked for them both. Elliot was very quirky as a teen and Macy embraced his "strange" which was probably my favorite thing about this book. I was on board until almost the end. Up until then I felt like the only thing really missing was a little more connection between them as adults, 10 years is a long time to not need any time to get back where you were. Then finally we get the explanation as to why it had been 10 years and that really didn't work for me. It was a little unbelievable the explanation about New Years Eve and then Macy having to tell him about the following day was a little unbelievable too. I say this because after all the years and the connections, for him to go on clueless just didn't seem like him at all. With that being said, I think those are just issues for me and I think most people won't have the same issues. I would for definitely recommend this book but I would be sure that you didn't grab this looking for a "beautiful bastard" type of story. These authors have changed (not a bad thing, just different) since the beginning, their stories are a lot deeper now so expect that when you read this book.

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The narration for the audiobook was AMAZING!!! Erin Mallon is an incredible narrator and I have to say I was kind of excited to see she actually narrated this one alone. I say this not because I don't love dual narration because I do but because Erin doesn't need a co-narrator. She has an awesome male voice and she switches so seamlessly between the roles that you forget it's only one person. She was a GREAT casting choice for this book. She was able to narrate a teenage boy, teenage girl, 29 year old man & 29 year old women and it worked perfectly. At no point did she sound too young or too old for the characters and to me that is a great skills that most narrators do not have. I think she portrays the emotions of the characters so well that she has you convinced the situations are actually happening to her and she isn't reading someone else's words.

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What's your favorite word

Amazing! This was a really good friends to lover and second chance story. Macy and Elliot were quirky kids that started as friends and over their high school years fell in love until something happened and 11 years later they come across each other and old feelings that actually never left are right there again. I liked the way the past/present day of their story was told and as much as I loved this story I do think it should have been a little bit more at the end, but books I really enjoy always leaving me wanting more and I wanted just a little more of their story. I loved that even though there were years of separation and words unsaid that because they were friends first they were able to essentially pick their friendship up where they left off. As for narrator Erin Mallon there are not enough words to say what a spectacular job she did with this book. There aren't many narrators that transition from female to male as flawlessly as she does. I will always pick books narrated by her because you can always expect the best from her. If I could I'd give more that 5 stars.

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oh my heart

In their first venture into Women's Fiction, CLo just go for it. I could read 100 more books like this one.

Whenever I struggle with a book it's because I can't connect to the characters. But I never have that problem with CLo books. With every book you say I'm a Chloe! No, I'm a Harlow! Nope, y'all I am totally a Lorelei. Wait hold on -- Holland, definitely Holland. But along comes the story of 28 year old Macy as she struggles through reconnecting with past and how it all impacts her present -- it's all the feels.

What makes this book for me is that it's a story told from the past and the present -- and that's something I never say. If it were just a story of teenagers finding love or just a second chance romance between old friends each would be a good story but weaving the tale through the past and present makes it a great story. The different timelines add to the depth and complexities of Macy.

I saw this thing on Twitter a while ago that says "I've lost people and found them again. The second time things just made more sense. Honestly, timing has a lot to do with everything. Sometimes you aren't ready for each other yet." As soon as I finished this book this was the first thing I thought of. As much as it hurts sometimes you need that time and distance. That time that space it makes it all worth it when it finally comes together. I can't think of a better way to describe Macy's journey and her relationship with Elliot.

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Well written to draw you into the young love and adult confusion. I Loved it.



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  • Lisa L
  • Pittsburgh, PA
  • 04-20-18

Wonderful

This was so beautifully written. It has just enough tension without being too over the top. The story seamlessly transitioned between past and present - the best I have ever read. Overall, one of the best books I have read in a while.

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Intense!

What a book! What a story! A must read! Great authors and amazing narrator. C.C.

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Oh My God!!

Never have I flown through a story like I did this one. I have always been a big fan of Christina Lauren but this one had a total different feel. Each description of the most simplest things was written like a short poem. It added to the feels of this story.

Elliott had my heart from the first time he entered the story. Macy made me want to go into this book and give her a big hug. These two were torn apart from the past but glued back together by the future. This second chance love story had so many emotions wrapped up in it, I couldn’t get enough.

I live in the Bay Area and they got everything write. They went beyond the Golden Gate Bridge and talked about familiar places that local Bay Area natives would know about.

This is a very well written story that will capture not only your heart but your imagination.

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Perfect

Macy and Elliot’s story was wonderful. At first, I wasn’t sure if I was going to like the narrator, her voice sounded breathy every once in a while, but once I got used to that aspect, I enjoyed it. Lauren continues to knock it out of the park for me. I wait with eager anticipation for every new book and this one was no exception.

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Amazing

As usual... wonderful story line and characters... so hard to put down.
My heart was filled with joy and filled with pain but in the end my heart was happy!
Great story!

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Love and Other Words

Macy lost her mother at the age of ten years old. Three years later her father buys a cabin to get away for the weekends. When her father tells her to go check out her closet, Macy finds a bit reading in the corner of it. His name is Elliot, he lives next door with three other brothers. When she comes up rarely on weekends Elliot is always there within the hour to hang out and read, both enjoy reading. While the years pass she grows to love Elliot until one fateful night. Eleven years later with no seeing Elliot she runs into him at a coffee shop and the feelings come back, even though she's engaged to a man named Sean whom she has only dated for a few months. Elliot wants to know what's up with her and why she disappeared from him eleven years ago. He's upfront that he still loves her, and he always has and always will. Elliot wants to know why she disappeared eleven years ago? Will the truth haunt him? Great read couldn't put down till finished.