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Publisher's Summary
In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.
What was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved - who she once loved - she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.
Told in four parts - freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years - this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.
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- Elena S.
- 06-22-18
Tear jerking, jaw breaking, just a whole lot
I stumbled upon this book because I wanted to "read" something much more than just romance YA novels and this one caught my eye. I stayed up 3 nights to complete this book, because when I start listening to it, I can't stop even though I had to sleep. That's how good this book is. The book starts of immediately with the issue and when it happened, and it's so unsuspected and just heart wrenching to listen to. I'm going to give an absolute full review of this book, so I can help those who are interested in this book. This book also goes in 4 parts of Eden life, Freshman, Sophomore, Junior and Senior and as somebody that has just graduated high school and was a victim of sexual harassment, this book absolutely spoke to me.
What did you like or disliked?
- Hands down I ABSOLUTELY LOVED the narration by Rebekkah Ross. She gave the book so much life, and brought out the characters really well. She did an excellent job portraying Eden and had amazing voice acting. I also loved how Amber Smith written the story of what happened after than like some books which leads up to the event not after. Amber did a great job expressing Eden's struggles as she goes up to her senior year, and as well as other high school dramas. Amber also wrote in great detail to the point you can imagine every single scene in your head like a movie. I love how Eden was such a complex character and finally found self-growth and managed to safe herself. The story wise it is extremely enjoyable and gets you hooked everytime, the plot is well thought out and spread nicely. What I disliked was the ending in particular, although I am happy that she managed to take over her fear and finally told someone, including the police. I wished there was an epilogue describing the events after, including her closure with her friends, her graduation, and he reconciliation with her family. I'd like to see the final form of Eden, seeing her finally becoming the girl she was again. The ending was a bit rushed and ended abruptly once the charges were filed and Eden is "safe". It's a good ending for the book and Eden but it felt it wasn't finished for the audience. I also gave the story a 4 star because it is hard to read, it's about rape and it's about a girl falling deep into a black hole, which means this book is also really FRUSTRATING. If you haven't been in Eden's shoes you would well and scream at her for her decisions or why is she acting like that, you kind of have to keep reminding herself why she's like that. And that is frustrating as well.
Whom would you recommend this book to?
- I'd recommend this book to girls AND boys who are in their late teens and early 20s. Particularly because it is an extremely difficult book to read with its complexity and deep emotional setting. Younger teens may not understand or find it too overwhelming. I also recommend this book to those who are struggling with any kind of abuse from anyone and even maybe bullying in high school or maybe for those who know some people who are victims of sexual abuse, so you can understand what they go through. This book gives full insight of that so when you come across situation like these, you know what to do.
Why did you choose this rating?
- Performance as I said absolutely outstanding. Story is great as well, but extremely frustrating. Overall a 4 star. Out of 10? 8.5-9
This book absolutely made me wish I could go back in time to my high school years and try to be a better a person, made re-evaluate my life. I can say this book is life changing, and it's worth reading. I might just even buy the actual copy of the book and read it again.
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- Molly Clow
- 11-21-16
Perfection
Never have I ever been more affected by a book in my entire life. I originally saw this book at target and read the description, something about the set up of the book reminded me so much of my experience in college (having gone though a similar situation my freshman year). Something just stuck out so much that I instantly decided that I would download it. I finished it in less than a day... I was so captivating by the words being said and was nearly (and literally) brought to tears by the fact that these word finally were able to put into perspective the feeling that I have been trying to figure out since my experience.
This is a hard story, and for most people who haven't gone down the same road as Eden has, it may seem as though some of her choices do not make sense... but if you have been there this book will hit you hard.
Most stories you read about rape (at least the ones I have read) never really show the disjointedness of life after... they don't talk about the need to replace the memories by any means... and they never talk about how easy it is to be sucked into that vortex. But this one did.
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- Amber Rae
- 09-10-16
Rough but Rewarding Read
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This book is not the easiest to finish due to the emotional content. I remember taking it in smaller doses when it got to be too much. Other times, I took large doses and stayed up till 6 in the morning. Overall, I was really moved by this book. It brought me back in time to when the popular, older girls would hang in the bathroom in high school and put their make-up on in the mirror. It brought back memories of being a freshman living in my first college dorm. Alas, it was hard to sit and wait for her to finally be able to tell someone she was raped, but the book was worthwhile.
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- JT
- 12-06-19
So close. Spoiler warning.
In this book, she gets everything right. Well, almost everything. Except the end. (Spoiler ahead.)
The end is a fairy tale. It’s terribly disappointing to end on a cliché finale of justice and empowerment. It’s a disservice to those connecting with the material. Most of the time, justice isn’t reality and the pain and confusion is something ongoing to be lived with - not tied up in a neat bow. Most of the time, you tell and no one believes it or they can’t do anything about it or they can’t prove it or the court lets the guy walk anyway. Tragically, telling ruins the victim’s life, not the perpetrator’s. This could have been so much more. #metoo
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- kaija
- 10-05-16
moving
the story was utterly fascinating. couldn't stop listening. was very moved by the whole message. thankful for this book.
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- Anonymous User
- 08-28-19
You should read it.
I listened to this audiobook in two days. Once I started it, I knew I couldn’t put it down anymore until I was done. I haven’t slept for an entire night, this is how good the book was.
First of all, I really thought the performance was perfect. The voice was smooth, and really helped to picture each scenes as if in reality.
The book is amazingly written although rape is quite difficult to write about. I felt it was well handled.
I must admit I cried throughout the entire book, but I still consider that it is such an important issue. Everyone one, including men, should read it only to better understand what can go through the mind of someone who was raped.
Plus I really enjoyed how Eden’s character was really complex, her mistakes only made her more reliable.
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- Anonymous User
- 07-10-18
AMAZING
I absolutely enjoyed this book from all the plot twist and turns. This book also gives the reader a lot of detail on the character changing by the years passing
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This book can be very difficult to listen to, the imagery is hard to take in at some points.
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