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Publisher's Summary

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved - who she once loved - she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts - freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years - this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

©2016 Amber Smith (P)2016 Simon & Schuster, Inc.

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Rough but Rewarding Read

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This book is not the easiest to finish due to the emotional content. I remember taking it in smaller doses when it got to be too much. Other times, I took large doses and stayed up till 6 in the morning. Overall, I was really moved by this book. It brought me back in time to when the popular, older girls would hang in the bathroom in high school and put their make-up on in the mirror. It brought back memories of being a freshman living in my first college dorm. Alas, it was hard to sit and wait for her to finally be able to tell someone she was raped, but the book was worthwhile.

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moving

the story was utterly fascinating. couldn't stop listening. was very moved by the whole message. thankful for this book.

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Hard to read, but didn't stop tell it ended

Tears, tears, tears. Good story that everyone should hear. Everyone needs to understand the fear that she felt for so long.

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  • Jo
  • Martinsville, VA, United States
  • 04-01-16

One of the best books I've ever read

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

If they want to understand what it means to experience sexual trauma, then yes.

What was one of the most memorable moments of The Way I Used to Be?

Character's description of how she tried to overcome the experience of rape by forcing herself to have sex and eventually becoming promiscuous. This made sense of a phenomenon that on the surface of it, makes no sense.

Have you listened to any of Rebekkah Ross’s other performances before? How does this one compare?

no

If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

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Unbearable

What did you like best about The Way I Used to Be? What did you like least?

That Eden finally told someone. The fact that it portrayed a girl of 14 having sex ,this book showed how rape can destroy. This book could have ended 3 hrs earlier.

Has The Way I Used to Be turned you off from other books in this genre?

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Which scene was your favorite?

When she finally opens her mouth and tells

Do you think The Way I Used to Be needs a follow-up book? Why or why not?

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All the feels

Hits hard like "Girl in Pieces". Great narration done by Rebecca Ross. It made me truly feel as sad as Eden.

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Amazing and Real

I have never had a book that I wanted to jump into and scream at the main character. I had so much passion for Eden. I loved everything about this. It was a perspective that you don't commonly get. I would recommend this book to so many people. It made you feel her pain, love and hope. Amazing, I can't wait to see what other books Amber Smith writes!

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Incredible

Wow, this book was fantastic. I am emotionally wrung dry. It made me cry over and over again, but I couldn't stop reading. it sucked me in, the narrator so completely real you can actually feel her pain and fear and isolation. Buy it.

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True

This was a hard book to listen to. Not in a bad way but in a way that pulls at every emotion that you have. It pulls you in so far that you know just how Eden feels. You can see that she is going down a bad path but that's what helps numb her. You want to help her but your words are just as lost as hers.

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makes my heart hurt

never have I had such a hard time like a protagonist! It made it hard to enjoy!!