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Publisher's Summary

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved - who she once loved - she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts - freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years - this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

©2016 Amber Smith (P)2016 Simon & Schuster, Inc.

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Rough but Rewarding Read

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This book is not the easiest to finish due to the emotional content. I remember taking it in smaller doses when it got to be too much. Other times, I took large doses and stayed up till 6 in the morning. Overall, I was really moved by this book. It brought me back in time to when the popular, older girls would hang in the bathroom in high school and put their make-up on in the mirror. It brought back memories of being a freshman living in my first college dorm. Alas, it was hard to sit and wait for her to finally be able to tell someone she was raped, but the book was worthwhile.

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moving

the story was utterly fascinating. couldn't stop listening. was very moved by the whole message. thankful for this book.

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Hard to read, but didn't stop tell it ended

Tears, tears, tears. Good story that everyone should hear. Everyone needs to understand the fear that she felt for so long.

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  • Jo
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  • 04-01-16

One of the best books I've ever read

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

If they want to understand what it means to experience sexual trauma, then yes.

What was one of the most memorable moments of The Way I Used to Be?

Character's description of how she tried to overcome the experience of rape by forcing herself to have sex and eventually becoming promiscuous. This made sense of a phenomenon that on the surface of it, makes no sense.

Have you listened to any of Rebekkah Ross’s other performances before? How does this one compare?

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If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

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True Tale of Seeking Triumph from Tragedy

This book gives a long-term in-depth journey of a victim seeking triumph from tragedy. It goes deeper than Speak. The writer goes into the full high school career of Eden, the aftermath of her rape, her recovery, and coming to terms with how it changed her life and how she deals with it.

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my favorite.

this book is beautiful and real and powerful. my story. so many stories. a brave and difficult lifelong journey.

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  • Rose
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  • 03-13-18

Compelling story

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

As someone who is a survivor of sexual assault, although this story is fictional, it resonated with me in the actions the main character took to deal with the traumatic event.

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I wish it would have provided closure as to how her parents dealt with her confession or how her friends handled it as well after all the things she had said and done. Overall I like the way the author expressed the main characters emotions and explained the reasons as to why she was doing what she did. I also appreciate the ending where it told readers to reach out if they had similar experiences. This might be fiction but sexual assault is very real and it could possibly give someone the strength to come forward.

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Difficult to listen to

This book can be very difficult to listen to, the imagery is hard to take in at some points.

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powerful

This was a wonderfully written book with a very powerful message. I enjoyed listening to this audio book

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Wow

At first, the narrator put me off a little but once I got into the story I couldn't turn it off. The writing put the main character's thoughts right into my own head and I felt like I was living it with her. It's an intense story, and not fir the faint of heart, but relatable on so many levels.