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Ben Emerson has lived by his minister father's rules most of his life. Born into an ultraconservative church community, he's finally brave enough to break free and move to San Francisco. Distancing himself certainly helps create a new mind-set, but living as an openly gay man takes some getting used to. When he reaches out to Xavier, a childhood friend who lives in the city, Ben isn't sure how he'll respond given their thorny history. Ben hopes the familiar connection will help him right some wrongs as well as provide the solace he's been craving.

Xavier Ramos is who he is, and he doesn't give a damn what anyone thinks. Whether it's eyeliner, nail polish, tattoos, or his love of hooking up, he uses his body as a form of self-expression but doesn't let anyone get too close. When Ben reenters his life, Xavier helps him experience the city and feel comfortable in his own skin. Seeing the world through Ben's eyes, he begins to wonder if he's also not living as freely as he thought.

When Xavier challenges Ben's beliefs about sex, it becomes explosive - for both of them. Xavier breaks apart Ben's sheltered world and shows him what it's like to live out loud. The more time they spend together, the more Xavier begins to long for Ben in a different way - one that both surprises and scares him. But real life doesn't fade into the background, so when Ben's past comes knocking, old habits are hard to break. Testing the foundation of their deepening connection will take a trust that will either bind them...or tear them apart.

Riley Hart writing as Nyrae Dawn

©2017 Christina Lee and Nyrae Dawn (P)2018 Audible, Inc.

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Put on some nail polish and express yourself

I LOVE this story, it is very soft in it's intensity and really shows the struggles Ben faced with discovering himself but also celebrates the freedom he discovers in the life he slowly builds for himself. The renewal of his friendship with Xavier is the perfect setting for him to allow what has always been inside him blossom.
I love Xavier as a character, because he is not a cookie cutter character although he could easily have fallen into the cliche' of the emo tattooed guy. Both men have a very interesting personality, and I feel they show a divers queer character as well in a genre that is not always that inclusive.
I feel like they both explore their sexuality and discover new things about each other, the buildup is sensual and erotic but also full of friendship and pure fun. Xavier is always focused of making sure Ben experiences anything he finds interesting and doesn't let him hold himself back. Together they rise above the fears and insecurities and become better.
The love and support in this book are truly amazing to read about and it was a great romance.

The narrators are both new to me but I liked they way each of them rendered the characters, especially Ben's narrator. They put all the emotions into their voice and brought this story to life.

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  • 06-19-18

Beautiful!

A beautiful story of reconnecting, of self discovery and of friends becoming lovers. The sex is hot and integrated well into the story not just to titillate.
I’m a great lover of the dual POV books/audiobook and Wyatt Kelley and Max T. Mitchell are both new narrators to me and gave 5star performances. I will certainly be looking to listen out for these two narrators again.