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Secret Bad Girl is a deeply healing memoir and trauma resolution guide for women who've suffered secret rapes or sexual abuse - and want both stories and instructions for being set free. 

Rachael Maddox bravely shares her own story of statutory rape and recovery, inviting readers into the possibility that their current sex issues, fears, stunted confidence or self-worth troubles, private addictions or private depressions, or impossible-seeming dreams could in fact be resulting from unresolved sexual trauma. There's a myth that so many women bear the burden of in today's world. The myth is that we're bad for the violations that happen to us as well as the mess of the aftermath of those abuses. Secret Bad Girl not only dispels this myth but illuminates exactly how you can transcend it, embodying the aliveness, resilience, and vitality available to you. 

Secret Bad Girl is like works by Eve Ensler mixed with Peter Levine and a dash of Andrea Gibson. Stories. Science. Poetry. Most people never resolve their trauma because the fear of entering into the territory of violation is so abrasive that they freeze. Rachael Maddox understands this fear and meets her listeners in a place of compassion and grace so that they can move into their long-awaited healing.

©2018 Rachael Maddox (P)2018 Rachael Maddox

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This audiobook changes lives. Period.

Rachael's story, combined with the action steps she recommends, have made tangible positive impact on my life and on the lives of the many, many people I've recommended this audiobook to. She vulnerably reveals her own pain and process of healing and transformation, so others can learn, be inspired, and take action to create similar results in their lives. Trauma doesn't have to be forever. This audiobook can be one of the first steps towards resolving your trauma once and for all. Always remember: You're worth it.

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Your story is my story, too. Thank you for your beautiful, fierce, loving honesty. Your true words are a much-needed healing balm.

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Raw, beautiful truths abound in understanding embodied trauma

Rachel’s bravery in sharing all too familiar early childhood/adolescent sexual encounters & the imprint they leave in the body & psyche has been an illuminating gift. I bow to her & highly recommend this work to anyone on the journey towards liberation.

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Thank you, THANK YOU!

The first time I heard Rachael say the words “trauma spell” and “violation hangover” I cried for an hour because I finally understood what I’d been experiencing for the last 10+ years; why I kept running the same self-sabotaging patterns over and over in my life, and why I was unable to stop it, no matter how badly I wanted to or tried.

This book is an incredibly powerful, emotional, educational, and practical tool and guide for understanding more about what is happening inside the body of someone who has experienced (sexual) trauma, and how to begin to heal from it.

With every new story and explanation that Rachael provided, I found myself thanking God/the Universe that I found these words when I did. I found my own story laced throughout the chapters, and for the first time in over a decade, I didn’t feel alone in my pain and past experiences, AND I felt a new hope that I’d never even known was available to me before.

Thank you, Rachael, for this extremely vulnerable and courageous book.

I HIGHLY recommend this book to anyone who has experienced ANY violation in their life, sexual or otherwise, as it is filled with empowering and useful information to help you understand and heal.

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Powerful voice for healing

This book empowers women to name trauma, to reclaim voice, body and soul, and find freedom and healing through truth telling and support of others. Touching story, practical ways to break through the trauma spell, a call to honor our deepest needs and hungers.

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A powerful, life altering memoir & guide

I love nothing more than a book narrated by the author, and Secret Bad Girl DELIVERS. The book itself is a fantastic testament to the healing power of the human spirit when light is welcomed into dark spaces where shame used to occupy. I own the book and have read it several times, so I knew I would love the content. What I didn't know was how much more amazing it would be having Rachael read her words to me. There is something specific that takes places when stories like this one are spoken aloud. It feels like sitting next to your best friend as you finally find the courage to give voice to the places that have been voiceless. You'll want to download this book ASAP. You won't regret it for a second.