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I Forgot to Die Audiobook

I Forgot to Die

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Publisher's Summary

Khalil Rafati went to Los Angeles in the 1990s and had it all. He was working with Hollywood movie stars and legendary rock musicians, but it wasn't long before he found his way into the dark underbelly of the City of Angels.

When he hit rock bottom - addicted to heroin and cocaine, overtaken by paranoia and psychosis, written off by his friends and family - he grabbed a shovel and kept digging. At 33, Khalil was 109 pounds, a convicted felon, high school dropout, and homeless junkie living on the infamous Skid Row in downtown L.A.

So how does someone with nothing, who feels like they deserve nothing, and who just wants to end it all turn their life around?

I Forgot to Die is an incredible true story of pain, suffering, addiction, and redemption - and how one man ultimately conquered his demons and wrote himself a new life story.

©2015 Khalil Rafati (P)2017 Tantor

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    humility the key, never-ending battle. loved it."

    What a rare human.. hope he continues too grow and give Him full credit

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    Angie 06-16-17
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    "Addictive Read (pun intended)"

    This book was fascinating, shocking and terrifying. The brutal ugliness and honesty of Khalil's journey kept me listening and rooting for him to get it right. An inspiration to never give up. I would recommend this book. I am pleased Khalil narrated his book and his narration added to its authenticity.

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    Amazon Customer 06-06-17 Member Since 2017
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    "What a story!!!"

    I have read many addiction memoirs & this is by far the most intriguing, exciting, & helpful books I have ever read. I absolutely loved this story & believe many other people will to! I will most definitely be suggesting this to my friends and family. Truly AMAZING.

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    Vikki WillisAmazon Customer 06-04-17 Member Since 2014

    Nurse by day, gangster knitter & book listener by night. Married w 2 girls, 3 dogs & many woodland creatures. Love Twain & meditation.

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    "Fantastic"

    Im a nurse and see addiction daily. Im also a believer in God and the straight n narrow!!!! Wonderful wonderful book.

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    Tyler Wagner 06-26-17 Member Since 2016
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    Best book I've ever listened to. Crazy story that everyone should hear. Rags to riches

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    Joseph 06-01-17
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    "Amazing book"

    I love this book what a amazing man .. he is so inspiring .. some of stories made me cringe because I to see people throw there life away .. but I'm so glad that he got it together and the tools he used to get there .. i never did hard drugs or anything like that I would recommend this book to anyone suffering from depression and abandonment.. this book changed the way I think moving forward .. you just gotta learn to drop your story( all the bad stuff that happened to you ).

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    Courtney Falls church, VA, United States 05-25-17
    Courtney Falls church, VA, United States 05-25-17 Member Since 2017

    As an only child, books were my world. I love to read and audiobooks are essential in my world today. I must admit I am somewhat dependent (addicted?) to audible audiobooks. Too easy. Too good!

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    "Jails, Institutions & (almost) Death"

    Jails, Institutions and Death is a term oft recited by members of Narcotics Anonymous when describing the inevitable destination of a person in active addiction. I hungrily consume addiction memoirs in that way that people feel compelled to slow down and peer at a horrible accident. Some might think this is a character flaw, but I think of it more as a gratitude check--"There, but for the grace of God, go I".
    "I Forgot to Die" doesn't disappoint. It is the story of a man who should be dead. It is the story of a man who wanted to die and tried to kill himself on the time payment plan of addiction.
    Khalil Rafati tells a story that is sad, but not that unusual. His father was verbally and emotionally abusive, his mother was devoid of a spine and unable to defend him. His childhood home was a cold, unfriendly, unsafe place--the kind that often breeds psychopaths. Khalil was not a psychopath, in fact, he more resembles an empath in his account.
    In his addiction, which was severe and life-threatening, he was abusive to the people closest to him, but that is true for most addicts. At other times, he expressed love and gratitude for the people in his life who reached out to help him. Some were enablers who only prolonged his nightmare, but others were angels of mercy.
    All recovering addicts are miracles, but Khalil's story stands out. He was a boy, then a man who invested all of his energy in trying to be comfortable in his own skin. He distracted himself with drugs, women and money until there was nothing left but himself-barely alive and there he received the gift of despair and began the climb out of the grave he had dug for himself.
    Ultimately, this is a story of pain, degradation and redemption. I would recommend it to anyone, but I think that addicts and their loved ones who read this book may gain insight, sympathy and most importantly, hope.

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    "recovery book addition"

    I really enjoyed this listen. Hearing this with the author reading made it even better. One of the top recovery stories I've read. His story is pretty crazy. Very well written, doesn't drag in any area.

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    Lindsay 07-04-17
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    "Great Book!"

    This was an absolutely great book. You can tell the author poured his heart and soul into it. I loved it! Very inspiring.

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    Absolutely amazing memoir. Over the years I have realized I find addiction very intriguing and the author did not failed to capture the true grit of addiction and the uplifting spiritual journey of recovery.

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