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Everything Is Horrible and Wonderful
- A Tragicomic Memoir of Genius, Heroin, Love and Loss
- Narrated by: Stephanie Wittels Wachs
- Length: 6 hrs and 52 mins
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Publisher's Summary
The space between life and death is a moment. But it will remain alive in me for hundreds of thousands of future moments.
One phone call. That's all it took to change Stephanie Wittels Wachs's life forever.... Her younger brother Harris, a star in the comedy world known for his work on shows like Parks and Recreation, had died of a heroin overdose. How do you make sense of such a tragic end to a life of so much hilarious brilliance?
In beautiful, unsentimental, and surprisingly funny prose, Stephanie Wittels Wachs alternates between her brother's struggle with addiction, which she learned about three days before her wedding, and the first year after his death, in all its emotional devastation. This compelling portrait of a comedic genius and a profound exploration of the love between siblings is The Year of Magical Thinking for a new generation of listeners.
A heartbreaking but hopeful memoir of addiction, grief, and family, Everything Is Horrible and Wonderful will make you laugh, cry, and wonder if that possum on the fence is really your brother's spirit animal.
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"Beautiful, funny, and epically poignant." (Sarah Silverman)
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- A. S.
- 03-31-18
Wow. This is the truest story I’ve read of the baffling heartbreak that is addiction robbing a close family of a genius...
This book was for me so goosebump-inducing in its raw truth that I had to consume it in fits-and-starts. And the format of the book is brilliant as well and really left me inspired and hopeful for the author’s future creative/professional endeavors.
I was a big fan of Harris’s and his graduating class of comics such as Joe Mande, etc. But also having my own personal experience with opiate addiction and recovery from, as well as being the brother/son of same, I hesitated to check this book out. I worried it would be too hard/too real. That it would stir up sorrow and guilt and sadness. And while there was some of that, this book should be required reading for any family member (the addict included) who is in the midst of the chaos of addiction. This book does a perfect job communicating the helplessness on both sides of a serious drug addiction. And it also does what few other books on this topic do, which is reveal how opiate addiction in particular has spread insidiously into ever strata and facet of US society. Never before have we had the number of highly educated/seemingly-successful members of society with bright futures who simultaneously fight an internal struggle that can be fatal.
I normally don’t write reviews, especially with the difficulty of typing on my listening device (phone). But this book left me wanting to write the author, which i imagine would only be a burden.
Stephanie, you wrote a masterpiece, and I want to thank you for the perspective this lent me.
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- M. Ay
- 02-28-18
Heartbreakingly beautiful
Stephanie Wittels Wachs has broken herself wide open and shared her would with those of us lucky enough to be exposed to her writing. I am in awe of her bravery and talent. My thanks to her for taking her tragedy and sharing it with the world. I feel forever changed by this book.
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- Leslie
- 03-28-18
Don't miss this book!
Would you consider the audio edition of Everything Is Horrible and Wonderful to be better than the print version?
I enjoyed the audio version because the author was such a great narrator of her story. She was very genuine - you could feel the emotion in every page.
What about Stephanie Wittels Wachs’s performance did you like?
Very heartfelt - she's an excellent narrator
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- Anonymous User
- 04-13-18
A beautiful tribute to Harris as well as an honest depiction of losing a sibling to addiction
This book was beautifully told, gut wrenching and I recommend to anyone who has lost a sibling to addiction. Stephanie puts into words the struggle of loving someone with addiction and how relentlessly life goes on when a love one dies. How one phone call can change your world and navigating life without someone who has been a part of your core self your entire life.
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- CC
- 04-30-18
A meditation on grief
SWW’s book reminded me a lot of Joan Didion’s “year of magical thinking” - at times you’re hit with the feeling of wanting the author to move past their grief because the sadness is too much, but then you’re reminded that this is how grief feels. It’s a meditation on grief and I thought it was beautifully captured.
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- megan
- 02-21-19
pretty okay
this was an okay book just not what I was looking for. the book was more about her struggles with becoming a new mom to a deaf child while her brother was suffering worth addiction. I was looking for more about how his addiction affected herand the family and how she coped.
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- SandSurfSun
- 11-16-18
The Horrible and Wonderful Truth has been spoken
I lost my baby sister 6 weeks ago to heroin. Stephanie's writing brought me comfort. Stephanie writes the exact way I think. She made me feel normal, that was I am enduring is just part of the grief process.
If you have lost a sibling or a loved one to addition, you need this book. You. Need. It.
I promise, you'll feel less crazy and less alone after listening to it.
4 people found this helpful
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- Mollie D
- 04-13-18
Beautiful and heart breaking
Where does Everything Is Horrible and Wonderful rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?
This is one of my favorite books I have listened to in the last year. As someone who works in the field of Addiction and Recovery it gives a realistic and honest view of what it is like to love someone who is ill and trying to get better.
Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?
I listened to this book on my commute and finished it on my way to work and had to redo my eye makeup before going in to the office because I had been crying in my car.
4 people found this helpful
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- Molly Searcy
- 03-19-18
Honest, hilarious, & heartbreaking
Stephanie Wittels Wachs beautifully captures the acute and long-term experiences of grief, loving an addict, and navigating family dynamics.
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- Alan Tenenbaum
- 04-24-18
Moving and raw
Powerful book narrated by the one person who could do it. Highly recommended. Grab some tissues.
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- Nick R
- 08-27-20
Incredible
This devestated me. Beautiful and poignant, an accurate depiction of the day to day of grief. Well written, well read.
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- Luke
- 06-17-19
Thought provoking
beautiful heartfelt book. absolutely gripping, a fitting tribute to a beautiful man. Rip Harris Wittels
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- Nirali Peter
- 03-14-19
So good
It's the sort of book that makes you appreciate your own, and love life with all it encompasses. Every time I though I was about to cry the story would change and make me laugh. So great. RIP Harris
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- Megan:)
- 11-10-18
such a good book!
amazing heart felt story told with such emotion. Very funny and really moving, a heart breaking story but told wonderfully
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- LBlanco
- 05-27-18
Lovely, honest and emotional.
I am very grateful to have had the opportunity to listen to this audiobook. It is a beautiful way to remember how beautiful life is in spite of misfortunes.
Smile in sadness is possible. Lighting the darkness is also possible but it takes faith, patience and strength. It is very important not to give up in the process and ask for help.
Thank you very much for sharing your thoughts and emotions. It will help others who are grieving or struggling with addiction and their families.
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- Samantha O'Meara
- 12-24-21
the boy who hung the moon
Loved this. listening along as I bawled my eyes out and grieved alongside the author. I devoured this in one listen, but it won't be the last time I sit to be with the story of Harris' passing.