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Publisher's Summary

My name is Brett. I'm a college-educated man who was once a husband of 26 years with two children, three businesses, and a large home with an actual white picket fence. I'm also a drug addict. And I have a tale to tell.

My story has everything: sex, death, pain, atheism, God, jail, marriage, divorce, heresy, homosexuality, physics, traffic fatalities, computer science, video games, cinnamon toothpicks, Barry Manilow, Nine Inch Nails, pornography, breasts, used tampons, strippers, venereal disease, abortion, prostitutes, AIDS, racism, suicide, infidelity, public nudity, anti-Semitism, marijuana, alcohol, pawn shops, drug dealers, needles, acid, ecstasy, crack, heroin, pain pills, withdrawal, interventions, rehabs, product tampering, road rage, vandalism, elderly abuse, grave desecration, arson, identity theft, burglary, armed robbery, and murder.

But more importantly, it's about the despair of addiction and the absolute certainty that it can be overcome. Recovery is not simply abstinence, but a process of growing up. I spent my entire life searching for the key to long-term sobriety. I would like to share with you what I have learned.

©2017 Brett Douglas, TCA Books, LLC (P)2018 Tantor

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honest as you can get

This book is as honest and self admitting as you can get and a true look at a life long struggle with substance love and abuse. Funny and heart wrenching. Douglas is a great story teller

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What an in depth eye-opening biography!

I had no idea about some of the depths of hell junkies will go to in order to get their fix. Such a waste. Informative though.

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American drug addict

What can I say about this , that hasn't already been said? It's so amazing!I love the way it is written in complete honesty,I have 335days today and this book just explained my life in grate detail,I just want it to keep going couldn't put it down.

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UGHHHH. NOOOO.

SO disappointing that this book turned into a ridiculous church service at the end. Absolutely ridiculous.

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  • Jamie
  • CORDOVA, TN
  • 08-24-18

This book was horrible!

I generally like memoir's like this that discuss the troubled past and way to recovery but this book was too disgusting. I found the author racist and narcissistic. He comes across as quite the dirtbag which I would expect some outrageous things since this is a book about addiction but his use of the N word and constant putting down the African American community was too much for me along with his sleeping with a 14 year old while high, not supporting his family and coming across as a catered to rich kid who had everything he needed and he kept screwing up. He made insults at others when he really should look in the mirror.

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gr8 book

this book was a very good read . it was moving and interesting from start to finish. I recommend this book to anyone seeking to learn about drug addiction.

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Excellent! Best Book So Far

From the story to the narration, this audio book is great. It is actually just like a drug. I couldn’t get enough of it. I was addicted to keep listening to it to see what happened next. He did not disappoint. The narrator was awesome. I will def be listening to this again.

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Captivating

An honest, forthright yet heartwrenching memoir. Highly recommend this book or in audible form for addicts wanting to seek help for addiction.

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Skip it

A good story but poorly written and performed. It read like a high school essay where the writer used a thesaurus to insert big words. Many of the side stories weren’t needed and made it hard to follow.

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wow

I really enjoyed this book. it gave me a lot to think about. I saw a lot of familiar scenarios. I saw a bunch of worse situations that I never got close to...but just a lot to think about.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 10-29-18

**MUST READ.. AMAZING **

addiction put into words amazingly!
what a journey, that powerlessness us addicts share is so painful, but this story is so gripping... i felt like I walked every step with him. cunning and baffling but so much honesty its painful in parts.
you wont want to put it down x

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  • LBlanco
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Beauty Misery

A lesson how to destroy your life and then rebuild it.

Sometimes life gives us a second chance. This audiobook is for those who choose to change their situation or who think they are trapped forever in a spiral with no way out.

Drug addiction is the same for everyone. It steals your health and isolates you from the real world and your loved ones.

I just hope that this story helps others see the light at the end of the tunnel before ending up in jail or dead. But remember that no one is going to help you if you do not help yourself first.

This story is honest, real and reflects a reality that millions of people suffer daily. Totally recommended for them and their families.