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Publisher's Summary

From one of the fiercest critics writing today, Morgan Jerkins' highly anticipated collection of linked essays interweaves her incisive commentary on pop culture, feminism, black history, misogyny, and racism with her own experiences to confront the very real challenges of being a black woman today - perfect for fans of Roxane Gay's Bad Feminist, Rebecca Solnit's Men Explain Things to Me, and Chimamanda Ngozie Adichie's We Should All Be Feminists.

Morgan Jerkins is only in her 20s, but she has already established herself as an insightful, brutally honest writer who isn't afraid of tackling tough, controversial subjects. In This Will Be My Undoing, she takes on perhaps one of the most provocative contemporary topics: What does it mean to "be" - to live as, to exist as - a black woman today? This is a book about black women, but it's necessary listening for all Americans.

Doubly disenfranchised by race and gender, often deprived of a place within the mostly white mainstream feminist movement, black women are objectified, silenced, and marginalized, with devastating consequences, in ways both obvious and subtle that are rarely acknowledged in our country's larger discussion about inequality. In This Will Be My Undoing, Jerkins becomes both narrator and subject to expose the social, cultural, and historical story of black female oppression that influences the black community as well as the white, male-dominated world at large.

Whether she's writing about Sailor Moon; Rachel Dolezal; the stigma of therapy; her complex relationship with her own physical body; the pain of dating when men say they don't "see color"; being a black visitor in Russia; the specter of "the fast-tailed girl" and the paradox of black female sexuality; or disabled black women in the context of the "Black Girl Magic" movement, Jerkins is compelling and revelatory.

©2018 Morgan Jerkins (P)2018 HarperCollins Publishers

Critic Reviews

"This raw, compelling memoir makes for an outstanding audiobook, and the author's narration is well done. The depth of her intelligence is immediately obvious, but what's more riveting is her brutal honesty and her willingness to speak her truth--both beautiful and messy.... This book is a must-listen - both funny and heartbreaking - but more importantly, it is an eye-opening call to action." (AudioFile)  

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LOVE!!!!! She could not be more different from me

But I have never felt so represented by a book!!
I am not young, black, smart enough to go to an Ivy, an "up and comer" or the daughter of divorced parents but I have never felt my feelings so voiced. The fact she actually reads her own work makes it even more powerful.
I remember the relentless pushing through high school with a Trident missile's targeting on getting out of my hometown! The anxiety of college where the heady knowledge, desire to study, learning, meeting inspirational leaders all could all be instantly drowned in a "does he like me/why doesn't he like me" panic attack. Parents and environment who instilled an incredibly toxic and out of synch view of sexuality.
Speaking of sex- some essays in this book are incredibly raw and honest. If you can not deal with a woman having a powerful sex drive or explicitly discussed medical issues this is NOT the book for you. However, listening to one chapter in this book is the first time I ever got a physical reaction where I wanted to cross my legs- like guys do when they see a baseball player catch a ball in the berries.
I loved it so much I also bought the paperback!

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Every black girl should read this book.

I loved this book. I especially love black woman memoirs where the author is the narrator. This book gives language to my experiences growing up as an awkward black girl in white America. Thank you Morgan.

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Thoroughly Enjoyed This Read

Although this book was not written about me or necessarily for me, it was a privilege to listen to and witness it. A must read for the eloquent and honest writing and in order to make space for the experiences of the author.

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Must read

Morgan is an incredible writer and performer. I think this should be a must read for everyone who considers themselves human. So everyone. But if I had to choose, definitely all Americans. Morgan writes beautifully and with an openness that is difficult to find. I’m excited to follow her career and hope that voices like hers continue to push their way through the noise.

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Enjoyed it so much I'm going to listen to it again

I am indebted to Morgan Jerkins for writing this book and literally giving her voice to it in this audiobook. She tied together some abstract concepts with practical stories and examples very personal parts of her life. and at the same time she revealed a lot to me, a liberal white woman, about how I can work personally and in my community 2 Fight Against Racism and patriarchy. so-- please listen to this beautiful and brilliant story.

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  • 03-04-18

Beautiful. Brutal. Compelling. Awakening, even if you think you're woke.

Brilliant. Strong. Concentrated. Powerful. Not light reading. And might change your life. Rethinking my own life and experiences with a different outlook. Better for it. Thank you.

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Deep, insightful, explanatory, expressive

Thank you Morgan Jenkins for writing this book. I loved every single minute of it.

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Captivating and Illuminating

Beautifully written and performed. I look forward to reading more from Morgan Jenkins, she’s brilliant.

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Transcending

Her writing, use of words, and visuals makes me feel like I have walked in her shoes. It feels like I experienced every word Myself. Well written, portrayed, and very passionate!

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searing honesty and rigor

A beautiful book and a must read. I was astonished by vulnerable the author was willing to be with the details of her inner life. In the same book, she gives one of the most well thought out treatments of the thorny issue of Black representation in the works of white artists that I've ever encountered. I also really enjoyed the author's performance of her own work, it isn't something every author can pull off, Ms. Jerkins does.

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  • 05-09-18

Every white woman needs to hear this.

Phenomenal. It changed the landscape of my thinking on feminism and white patriarchy. I can not recommend it more.