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So Much I Want to Tell You

Letters to My Little Sister
Narrated by: Anna Akana
Length: 3 hrs and 57 mins
5 out of 5 stars (611 ratings)

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Publisher's Summary

From Internet sensation Anna Akana comes a candid and poignant collection of essays about love, loss, and chasing adulthood.

In 2007, Anna Akana lost her teen sister, Kristina, to suicide. In the months that followed, she realized that the one thing helping her process her grief and begin to heal was comedy. So she began making YouTube videos as a form of creative expression and as a way to connect with others. Ten years later, Anna has more than a million subscribers who watch her smart, honest vlogs on her YouTube channel. Her most popular videos, including “How to Put on Your Face” and “Why Girls Should Ask Guys Out”, are comical and provocative, but they all share a deeper message: Your worth is determined by you and you alone. You must learn to love yourself. 

In So Much I Want to Tell You, Anna opens up about her own struggles with poor self-esteem and reveals both the highs and lows of coming-of-age. She offers fresh, funny, hard-won advice for young women on everything from self-care to money to sex, and she is refreshingly straightforward about the realities of dating, female friendship, and the hustle required to make your dreams come true. This is Anna’s story, but, as she says, it belongs just as much to Kristina and to every other girl who must learn that growing up can be hard to do. Witty and real, Anna breaks things down in a way only a big sister can. 

“This book is filled with the kind of honesty, vulnerability, and determination that makes Anna such a captivating person. One warning: You’ll want to hug her a lot while reading this.” (Natalie Tran, actress and comedian)

“As a woman working in entertainment, Anna Akana is accustomed to feeling vulnerable. Which means that she’s used to being brave. This book is a tribute to the duality of bravery and fear as told through Anna’s experiences to date.” (Hannah Hart, New York Times best-selling author of Buffering: Unshared Tales of a Life Fully Loaded)

“Frank advice on how to live a productive, happy life...written in tribute to a ‘fearless, talented, and bold’ sister.” (Kirkus Reviews)

©2017 Anna Akana (P)2017 Random House Audio

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Recommended!

I finished this book in less than a day. Some words brought me to tears, and some words will forever change the way I look at life. I recommend it emmensely!

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Some repetition of stories, but of great ones!

Loved! Only suggestion is to trust that your audience mostly remembers the stories you already told throughout the book. Will read again =) great story!

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A must read!

Loved it! Super relatable and Anna Akana couldn't be a better narrator for her book.

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Brilliant

What did you love best about So Much I Want to Tell You?

I loved how intimate it was. It honestly felt like my older sister was giving me life advice.

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I decided to finish this on my way to work, which caused me to walk in the door with obvious signs of crying. 10/10 will definitely recommend this book. 1/10 don't recommend listening to it when you have professional obligations.

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lovely

lovely book by a lovely person. I've watched her videos and she is so real.

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heartfelt

I've been watching Anna Akana on YouTube for years and even as a man I found her stories quite insightful and was able to take a ton away from it.
also got a copy for my sister in effort to help her learn some things I definitely have no lense for.
great listen and wonderfully narrated.

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A relevant book by an admirable woman

Anna's experiences — either on her videos or on her book — resonate deeply with me as a woman, creative person and human trying to overcome the passing (in less than a week) of two grandmothers. I came here looking for comfort and another point of view related to death, and I'm glad I did it. It spoke to me in many levels, in which I didn't know I needed to hear.

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AMAZING!

I love this book! Cried a lot and learned a few things in the process. Highly recommended!

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I'm so inspired

I've been following Anna on YouTube for a while now, and when I heard she released a book, I told myself I had to listen to it.
The way she speaks about mental health from her own experience has always helped me understand my own issues. Anna has always inspired me to be the best me I can be.
I loved the book, every chapter taught me something new, made me reflect on my life and experiences.
I'm so grateful for it, I'm grateful for Anna.
I do believe her sister is proud of her.
Thanks Anna, from the bottom of my heart.

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My favorite book

This book is very sad. I’ve listened to it multiple times and it gets better every time. It’s emotional, so get ready to cry.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 04-22-19

AMAZING!

Anna brings this book to life with her voice and it really allows you to connect with her stories and important life lessons. Absolutely amazing.

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  • Na Bennett
  • 09-12-18

Inspiring, enlightening and a handful of laughter


Loved it! I bought this and finished it in the same day. It inspired self-reflection and motivation better than any self-help book could, and made me realize many toxic traits I've demonstrated to others and myself e.g. the self harm and blaming, always eager to please or competitiveness with loved ones to the point of being unsupportive. This book will definitely give you some food for thought and a much needed push toward self-development and a happier you

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  • Anonymous User
  • 07-06-18

helped

I loved this so much it really helped thank you. I've been working in a job I really don't enjoy and dealing with mental health issues in a family that really just sweeps things under the rug, so honestly this felt like advice from an older sibling I really needed this.

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  • Emma
  • 04-11-18

Honest, relatable and inspiring

I love watching Anna Akana's YouTube videos. They get me through my week, so when her book came out I knew I just had to read it. Maybe it's because I'm just really nosy or just generally interested in getting tips on how I can get through life.
I loved every second of the narration. it's brutally honest - I love the down to earth "saying it how it really is" vibe. Really feels like the advice an older sister would've given me, real, personal and hard hittingly honest.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 04-11-18

Extraordinary

i loved it! It was an interesting experience. Anna, you are soo strong! Hats off to you❤

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  • Henriette
  • 03-01-18

Amazing and motivational!

Listening to Anna Akana’s story makes you really think. About life, about dreams, about relationships, about self-worth, about everything. It makes me want to become more efficient and to work harder, cause I am the one in charge of my own life. It’s a joy to listen to her voice as she reads, and the pace of the book is pleasant. I would definitely recommend this to anyone, no matter what stage you are in your life!

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  • Dori
  • 01-25-18

loved this book!

Anna Akana's book was very personal and at the same time it was really easy to relate to the stories and struggles mentioned in it.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 12-12-17

A great book

I love this book and I learned a lot. Thank you so much Anna for sharing your insights and experiences with us.

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  • Buyer
  • 11-24-17

Amazing, touching, inspiring

Cannot recommend this book highly enough to everyone, especially young women.

I watch Anna on YouTube and her life advice is always so relatable to me, especially in regards to female friendships. It's like we are experiencing or have experienced the same friendship cycles and types of people! It's really moving to hear how she overcomes these obstacles, and her lessons learned to date.

Her creative advice is inspiring and helpful as always, and it's amazing to hear how far she has come to achieve her dream. I wish her continued success and eagerly await volume 2 (whilst watching her YouTube videos)!

All the love and luck for the future ❤️

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  • Rosalind Mosis
  • 11-15-17

Gorgeous.

That's the only word I can think of. I am so glad I got to hear this and it's the reason I got an audible subscription!

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  • Shannon Batt
  • 06-16-17

Anna Akana Influenced Me To Be The Person I Am Today

@annaakana is and always will be one of the biggest influences on me. I discovered her when she was first starting out on YouTube in 2012. She's so strong and motivated with an amazing work ethic despite toxic relationships she's been in as well as the loss of her sister. I had a toxic family member that bullied me (step father who is now no longer in my life) and got bullied pretty badly every day at school on top of that. I had the lowest self esteem possible. I avoided mirrors if I didn't need to look into them to get ready. I had no personality. But I kept my chin up because if Anna can be in a place of depression and insecurity and still come into her own and be strong then so can I. And I did. I will never act on what happened in the past but use it as experience and wisdom to know to watch out for red flags in people. Her book is FULL of advice, bad things that have happened to her and what she's learned. This book is the advice she would give to her little sister that she lost and it's powerful (I downloaded the audio book that she narrated herself)

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  • Maddi
  • 03-16-19

Fantastic

So incredibly heartbreaking and beautiful. I thoroughly enjoyed this audiobook, as did my younger sister. It has given us many topics to discuss and learn from (we are of a similar age gap of Anna and Christina), Anna’s performance truly made it, you can hear every emotion in her voice and she really emphasises on the important parts.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 06-08-18

The most honest and touching book

It’s so good to see social influencer to write a book so real about their life. I could feel her emotion in the book. I absolutely love it!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 04-30-18

Amazing

I’m a really huge fan of Anna’s videos and I actually first saw her on the movie dirty thirty. I loved her book and hope that their will be more in the future. She spoke about really relevant issues in mine and many others lives and I really appreciate it. Thankyou

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  • S Gonzalez
  • 01-04-18

Loved this book but it was short

Loved Anna's narration and stories but it was so much shorter than I wanted it to be. I would have given it 5 stars if it was longer.

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  • Panunya Phatraphumpakdee
  • 11-08-17

I really glad I bought this

Powerful, deep, emotional and raw. I love everything about Anna but this book is the best thing she ever created.

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  • Lizzie
  • 10-29-17

Affective, Wise,

I love this book so much. I really wasn’t prepared for how disarmingly honest the author would be in its content. Her sincerity took me aback as she described her past traumas, lessons learned, successes, and so much more. I came out of the experience of listening to this audiobook so much richer for having done so. I learned new things about myself and gained fresh insight into my own life, traumas and career. Thanks to Anna for having written and performed this so well. It’s surely one I will come back to at different stages of my life.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 07-11-17

This is so moving, it was amazing.

I love Anna as a youtuber and didnt know what to expect reading this book but it is so moving and worth reading no matter who you are or what stage of life you are in. Its reminds you that death is real and even though you dont know what other people are going through in their personal lives they are still real people with real emotions and real issues. It shows how even though you may think you know a person there is so much more under the surface. This book is also an inspiration to live, to enjoy life and to be yourself. Thank you for this book Anna!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 06-30-17

makes you think

Anna akana narrates with so much character and spirit, making it sad, funny and thoyghtful.