• Captive

  • A Poetry Collection on OCD, Psychosis, and Brain Inflammation (A Memoir of One Woman's Battle with PANS and Encephalitis)
  • By: Madeline Dyer
  • Narrated by: Shelley Salter
  • Length: 53 mins
  • 5.0 out of 5 stars (2 ratings)

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Captive

By: Madeline Dyer
Narrated by: Shelley Salter
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"I just want to get better and see the stars and believe in hope again."

Captive, Madeline Dyer's first poetry collection, is based on the therapy writings she produced when she was experiencing psychosis and OCD due to autoimmune basal ganglia encephalitis, a rare type of brain inflammation caused by the immune system attacking the brain.

While her communication skills and cognitive abilities diminished due to the effects of the inflammation, she was able to share her thoughts and emotions via the written word, a process that gave her great comfort when she otherwise felt possessed. Captive provides listeners with a glimpse of her tormented mind during this dark time of loneliness, loss, and fear.

"Madeline Dyer's poetry collection Captive is an invitation to the reader to consider the cost of physical illness on the mind and spirit. The poems are a conversation between the speaker, the outer world, and her inner tormentor: sometimes beetle, sometimes monster, sometimes friend, of her mind. Dyer's speaker, who sees herself as one "among all the crying girls", speaks mantras in triplicate and escalating parallels, pausing over the heartbreak of good days, the desire to touch and be touched, and the agony of it all." (Sherre Vernon, author of The Name is Perilous and Green Ink Wings)

"Brutally honest and brilliant, this collection takes the reader through the experience of living with a crumbling mind. From the first unexplainable visions to the fight within and the constant struggle to be heard, Dyer's poetry is a cry out to the world suffused with raw emotion. A captivating and eye-opening experience." (S.E. Anderson, author of the Starstruck Saga)

©2020 Madeline Dyer (P)2021 Madeline Dyer

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One Woman's Stunning Journey

Madeline Dyer beckons the listener into her journey through medical crisis in this stunning collection. With vulnerability and precision, the conversation between the rational mind and the "Monster" mind soars and runs amok. Dyers takes us on a search for answers within hospitals and within herself. I admired the way this poet looked closely at what is real and what is illusion as she seeks help, often running into those who don't recognize the realness of what is happening to her. The intimacy of Shelley Salter's voice made me feel as if I was in the experience with the author. Powerful collection! I couldn't stop listening.

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