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Down the Rabbit Hole Audiobook

Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

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The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and finally the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub, contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.

©2015 Holly Madison (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers

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    Brianna Gallagher 06-24-15
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    ""Mean girls", magicians, mansions, and more!"

    During the early 2000s my best friend and I (freshly out of high school) idolized The Girls Next Door. We bought the simultaneously sexy and wholesome act hook, line, and sinker. Although one got the feeling it wasn't perpetual sunshine and roses, it's clear life at the mansion was darker than it seemed.

    Now that I'm approaching 30, this tell-all journey of personal mistakes and self discovery resonates with me on a different level. Despite her fame, and perhaps infamy, Holly's relatable struggles in her romantic and professional lives provided a humorous but thoughtful expose fraught with "mean girls", magicians, mansions, and more.

    Holly is charming, although occasionally awkward in her phrasing, but decidedly mature and candid. Her "Alice in Wonderland" theme is nicely appointed by well chosen quotes at the begin of each chapter. This is the first memoir I've ever read, but I'm very glad I did. All together very interesting, and even slightly nostalgic.

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    MaiduCali 06-25-15
    MaiduCali 06-25-15 Member Since 2015
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    "Holly knows how to tell a story"

    I decided to pick this book only because I found the whole thing odd. But honestly, her story telling skills and performance make this audible book very enjoyable. While I don't know whether the whole story is true, I find that the book was entertaining. This book is meant to be an audio book.

    33 of 36 people found this review helpful
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    Kindle Customer 06-28-15
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    "Entertaining but a bit one sided and snobby"

    While I appreciate anyone willing to write about their life, their struggles, and their insecurities (some of the most seemingly confident people can't even summon the courage to do that), I feel that at times, Holly worked a little hard at trying to portray herself as the good girl. I don't know her personally, but you don't really have to know someone well to deduce that they at some point in their life did things they weren't proud of. I highly doubt that Holly, in her self described "prison" of the Playboy Mansion, surrounded by catty, conniving, women for almost a decade, never once did anything she wasn't proud of. I feel in order to write a true biography/memoir, one needs to tell the whole story and be truthful about who they were as a person at the time good and bad. This book was entertaining at best, it took me a few days to finish but I'm glad I did. I'd say, like a guilty pleasure TV show, this book will entertain you but don't expect it to insight any reflection or deeper thinking after its done.

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    Marwa ashoor 06-23-15
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    "Love!"

    Really really good couldn't stop reading. Highly Recommend to anyone that wants a interesting book.

    13 of 15 people found this review helpful
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    princesstorrii somewhere at disney land 06-25-15
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    "The other side of Girls Next Door"

    Like many fans that read this book.. I was a hardcore fan of the Girls Next Door. I always appreciated Holly in the show but found her somewhat cold and distant. Just as I hoped this book tells why. Things aren't always what they appear. I appreciate her honesty & willingness to open herself up to again more criticism. It was nice to actually hear her tell her story & im sure it was the final stage of letting go. I'm proud of her & really didn't want the story to end. Good job Holly!

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    Najima Rainey 07-11-15 Member Since 2014
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    "Good beach read."

    I never bought anything Hugh Hefner was selling. Not his cheap, trashy, idea of beauty, not his bs idea of the "playboy lifestyle" and definitely not the girl's next door. So I was actually kind of interested in Holly Madison's story. It's an easy, dishy, funny read and to be honest she's the least interesting part. Once the story gets into her post-mansion life it gets boring. It's definitely something for a long boring plane/car ride! By the time you're through the good stuff you'll probably be at your destination.

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    Lisa 07-01-15 Member Since 2014
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    "Great listen."

    Loved learning about the behind the scenes of The Girls Next Door and the subsequent shows for Holly. While I love her determination and honesty I was slightly bothered by her cruel honesty about so many who came through her life. I am doubtful that she was off about Hugh Hefner. I felt she had too many bad things to say about so many as if she was never wrong. While I not one to pass judgement, she chose to tell her story so she leaves herself open to criticism. Regardless, I am still a fan of Holly. She comes across as highly intelligent which I am sure she is given the schools she attended. I wish her well and sorry I missed her in Peep Show.

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    Jasmine 07-01-15
    Jasmine 07-01-15 Member Since 2017
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    "Don't Fall for the Shameless Tricks!"

    I was so excited to listen to this and the anticipation to read it continued to build as Holly Madison shamelessly promoted her new book; however, as I listened to her audiobook, I felt like I was the one spiraling down the rabbit hole. The first 4 hours that I listened to, I was at the edge of my seat! Then, the next 3 hours, I was slightly losing interest and was hoping for more depth. The final 3 hours, I was completely over Holly Madison and her pathetic attempt to bash a host of people, all of which included Hugh Hefner, Kendra Wilkinson, and Criss Angel. She seriously played the victim, THE ENTIRE BOOK (with the exception of the last hour, in which she describes her current husband and the birth of her child *rolls eyes*).

    Without a doubt, this book was destined to be excellent; but, only if she took some accountability. She complained that Hugh Hefner was essentially a controlling womanizer, but she didn't want to accept the fact that she was a glorified whore! How could she admit to asking to stay in the Playboy mansion because she had no where else to go and she hoped that it would lead to an acting career, all while calling the other equally ambitious girls, "Hefner's concubines"? As if she was innocent in everything! Absolutely appalling! There seemed to be a double standard when it came to Madison and everyone else.

    I believe Madison was attempting to shock readers into disliking the legendary Playboy founder, but instead, I lost all respect for her. This story was one lame excuse after the other, no sense of accountability, and an utter waste of listening time. I am very disappointed.

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    Erica United States 06-28-15
    Erica United States 06-28-15 Member Since 2016
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    "I am ashamed I enjoyed this!!!"

    The Walking Dead books are my guilty pleasure. You know, something with no literary value, but you just really just enjoy listening to. This book isn't even intelligent enough to fall into my guilty pleasure category! I am actually kind of ashamed I enjoyed it so much! Holly Madison is her own biggest fan, and she will tell you about it for hours and hours in this memoir. She was always my least favorite GND, but now, I think she is lipstick (and a big boob job) on a skinny runt of a pig. Talk about biting the hand that feeds you! This gal has the audacity to mother-F almost everyone that she ever used as a stepping stone in her B-- career. I can't lie though, I did enjoy all the BS! Holly and I are the same age (or at least the age she claims to be) so this pop culture phenomenon is from my generation. I had a go as a Hooters Girl and a swimsuit model, and I related to the way she described her early days doing the same. So that being said, there was something in me that always enjoyed GND. They were enjoying my same lifestyle but on a much more grandiose scale! I grew up and left that all behind so this book transported me to a time and place that will never be again. I enjoyed that so much and thank Holly for the instant time machine, BUT I am leaving this book with absolutely no respect for her. Throughout the book she will try and convince you that she was a victim but her calculating ways always manage to shine through. She is like a junior high girl in the way she blames everyone else for every single bad choice she made. Just own it, girl! Plus, at our age, it is really in poor taste to talk about others the way she did throughout her book. And to all of those who thought Madonna had the absolute worst fake English accent ever SURPRISE!!! You know the feeling, the one where your skin crawls because you are embarrassed for someone? Well, you will get it every time she introduces a new chapter using it. All that being said, if you are curious at all about this lifestyle, you will never regret spending this book credit!

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    Norbie Gregory 06-24-15 Member Since 2017
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    "Great Book"

    Holly was candid and honest. At times you will cringe at her honesty regarding Hef and the other playmates.






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    "Good story"

    I loved it. informative story about Hollys life at the mansion and after the Playboy.

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  • Megan Gallagher
    8/4/17
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    "ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT!!"

    Was a fan of Girls Next Door and loved listening to this real version of what happened :) A must listen for fans of the the show!!

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  • Ms. K.
    5/30/17
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    "Interesting and enjoyable"

    This is not my normal choice of book, as I tend to avoid all reality TV style culture. However, I have really enjoyed the whole book as the author is articulate and insightful throughout. Well written, easy and enjoyable listening. I feel like I've had a glimpse of a truly strange world and come away with a healthy respect for those within it. The author is clearly a professional in her own right.

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  • Nichola
    5/13/17
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    "Entertaining, funny and eye opening"

    I found this book to be a lot more entertaining and gripping than I thought it would be! Holly is very honest and forthcoming about her time with Hef!

    I found it well narrated and easy to listen to!

    Anyone who loved the girls next door or just loves Holly will enjoy this!

    5 stars!

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  • Scott M.
    2/2/17
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    "Amazingly Honest."

    Amazingly honest book by Holly. I couldn't stop listening! My heart melts for her as she's clearly suffering from mental/emotional abuse throughout her time in the mansion.. But she pulled through! And that's all that matters.

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  • Rainedon
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    8/30/16
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    "Fascinating"

    I used to enjoy watching The Girls of the Playboy Mansion so this insight into Holly's life there and subsequent success was really interesting. She narrated it well

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  • misskate
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    8/21/16
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    "An insight into a secret world"

    Holly doesn't leave a thing out! This is a tell-all, but the classy sort. She doesn't detail crude things - but yes, you will learn about sex in the Playboy Mansion; so don't worry about that! It's an eye opening book. Light hearted, easy listen/read, with juicy details throughout. On the serious side, you hear about emotional abuse, depression and the ridiculous rules the girls were placed under; control was a key factor in the Playboy mansion.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Juno Marcos
    Midlands, England
    6/9/16
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    "Great Insight to the Playboy Mansion"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    I would recommend it to anyone who has an interest in Playboy or who watched Girls of the Playboy Mansion/Girls Next Door


    Any additional comments?

    It was a great insight and answered the questions a lot of people have about Hef and his girls... Did they really have sex with him? Did he pay them? What are their motives? etc. I thoroughly enjoyed it but it made me miss GotPM/GND, I wish they'd repeat it on E!

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Matthew
    3/9/16
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    "Three cheers for Holly!!!"

    Thank you Holly for this eye opening and inspirational story. So excited for your future.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Angela
    2/19/16
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    "I really loved this book. well worth getting!!"

    loved this book. It gave a perspective that wasn't shown on The girls next door. I really thought Holly and co had a dream life and she stayed because if her live for Her but hearing her version now makes things I saw click. I like that she entered into a world she thought would be very different to what it turned out to be. She was upfront and open about her experience and I used to think these girls are with this old man for money but that doesn't seem the case for all of them. I loved Bridget and Holly but always found Kendra a little over the top and selfish. This book was amazing and I'm so glad I got it. even better is Holky telling her story to you. I do think Crystal is jealous of Holly but why she did an interview claiming not to love hef. Her sounds like a total diuche but if your homeless gave no money etc that's the kind of girls he takes advantage if. He does look ridiculous with these young women and it sounds like when they move in they either cater to his wishes or there out. It sounds liieva prison with all the rules. Ivsay well dine Holly for opening up esp not right away were you could of made a lot of money for a tell all. I'm glad you've found happiness and if any sensible young girl reading this decides to choose that life more fool them. I gave this entire book 5 * I'd ofcgavevit 10 ifvi could. thanks again for sharing.🙂

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