I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

By: Baek Sehee

Narrated by: Jully Lee

Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee, read by Jully Lee.

The New York Times bestselling therapy memoir translated by International Booker shortlistee Anton Hur.

PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?

ME: I don't know, I'm-what's the word-depressed? Do I have to go into detail?

Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her-what to call it?—depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work, but the effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?

Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is the first book in a duology to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness.

©2018 Baek Sehee (P)2022 Bloomsbury Publishing Plc

If you want a different perspective on life

I honestly enjoyed the book because it gives a new viewpoint on life that I always had thought on. that I was alone thinking while believing I'm a terrible person for thinking. it's not for everyone I must admit, but to those who find this small treasure, a friend awaits in the pages.

I related to the book very much

I found comfort in this book. I read this because namjoon recommended it awhile ago....I listen while at work today and it was so good!

Enjoy it without thinking too deeply

This book was a great relief. As someone living with various mental illnesses it was nice to hear that someone else also has all of these thoughts that are maybe contradictory to how we want to live. This book made me feel less alone. I enjoyed it. I think some of the other reviews might’ve been looking for a deep conclusion or something more than a memoir. This book is great as a memoir.

A good catharsis

It was an easy listen. I love how the narrator gave emphasis on some words that gave more impact.

The book is a memoir of the author's life. It is a good catharsis for people who have a hard time dealing with their emotions and for those afraid to seek professional help.

Relatable

While listening to this book, i occasionally would think “she was a little dramatic there”, but then I would realize that I would have reacted the same way. I relate to the author in so many ways. Her book has helped me with my own anxiety and depression. The author made me feel like I was finally not alone, and made me realize i’m not the only one who feels this way. I’m not cured, but I have made progress. and thank you for writing this book. ❤️