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- Length: 7 hrs and 38 mins
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In the tradition of Brain on Fire and Darkness Visible, an honest, beautifully rendered memoir of chronic illness, misdiagnosis, addiction, and the myth of full recovery that details author Porochista Khakpour's struggles with late-stage Lyme disease.
For as long as writer Porochista Khakpour can remember, she has been sick. For most of that time, she didn't know why. All of her trips to the ER and her daily anguish, pain, and lethargy only ever resulted in one question: How could any one person be this sick? Several drug addictions, three major hospitalizations, and over $100,000 later, she finally had a diagnosis: late-stage Lyme disease.
Sick is Khakpour's arduous, emotional journey - as a woman, a writer, and a lifelong sufferer of undiagnosed health problems - through the chronic illness that perpetually left her a victim of anxiety, living a life stymied by an unknown condition.
Divided by settings, Khakpour guides the reader through her illness by way of the locations that changed her course - New York, LA, New Mexico, and Germany - as she meditates on both the physical and psychological impacts of uncertainty, and the eventual challenge of accepting the diagnosis she had searched for over the course of her adult life. With candor and grace, she examines her subsequent struggles with mental illness, her addiction to the benzodiazepines prescribed by her psychiatrists, and her ever-deteriorating physical health.
A story about survival, pain, and transformation, Sick is a candid, illuminating narrative of hope and uncertainty, boldly examining the deep impact of illness on one woman's life.
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- Legaleagle
- 01-19-20
Worse book ever.
Struggled to finish this book. Zero courage by author re her disease. A pitiful character.
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- Andrés
- 07-04-19
Being a sick person
As a 21 year old who is constantly at doctor's visits or being too sick to do anything this book gives me hope. I loved the honestly and rawness that she gives to being someone who isn't aways good at being sick. This book truly makes me feel like one day I will have an answer.
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- Emily
- 07-17-18
Very disappointing
I was very excited for this memoir and I am disappointed by how surface level it all seems. it is half recounting of a glamorous, drug fuelled writer life and a list of ailments. I empathize very much with the author, but there seems to be more genuine self-reflection done in the first 30 pages than in the whole rest of the book. There are some gems here, but the reflection and sentence-level writing craft is lacking. There are many better, more thoughtful illness narratives than this.
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- Bessie Mae
- 11-13-23
Not My Favorite Book or Person
Content warnings: rape, disordered eating, drugs, intimate partner violence. The American health care system is so profoundly broken, uncompassionate, and inhospitable. Like many memoirs, this one is about more of the author's life beyond the Lyme Disease referred to in the title, and frankly I'm not sure I was led to care about the rest of it. The endless parade of different men, who didn't seem to care that she was so sick she wasn't in good relationship working order, only that she's (extremely) thin and pretty. The strange juxtaposition of being supported by a network of wealthy friends, but being low-income and uninsured, yet living in several of the most expensive cities in the country. The bouncing around from place to place and back again. The drug addictions. Although I wish her nothing but healing and happiness, I just did not resonate with this person.
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- AndreaK
- 09-15-18
I could not finish this
I have read a lot of memoirs and books about Lyme Disease, but I simply could not get through this one. It just didn't hold my interest. I listened to the first few hours and then just couldn't devote any more time to it.
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- John Yeager
- 10-31-18
The worst book I’ve ever read
I love books and yet I have never felt compelled to leave a review before but this book is easily the worst book I’ve ever read (listened to). I was hoping for a book as good as Brain on Fire which I read in one night unable to sleep until I finished it but this book is far different it is self-absorbed and self-serving and pushes the authors political agenda I found her style and her writing noxious. If you are considering reading this book - don’t.
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- Sharlotte
- 12-30-19
Self-absorbed and Boring
I usually enjoy reading these types of memoirs, but this one is scattered, self-absorbed, boring, and dull. Even speeded up, it got harder and harder to care about reading any further. The author just didn't have the writing ability to focus her story on what was important and adjust her timeline accordingly. We didn't need to know all her extraneous medical ailments and drug use history. If it was relevant, it was tedious to plow through. After all, why is a comprehensive medical history of a stranger interesting when it drones on hour after hour? Couldn't finish with only two hours plus more to go.
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- Aimee
- 02-19-19
Don't read if your battling Lyme
This book will make you lose all hope in getting better. I makes you feel that suffering will be forever and there is no hope. This book is very depressing and not for someone in the midst of battling Lyme disease. Just know you can heal. Look into bvt and never ever give up!
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