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How I Lost You
- A Novel
- Narrated by: Jennifer Ness
- Length: 10 hrs and 46 mins
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Publisher's summary
A woman without a memory struggles to discover the truth about her past and her identity in this cerebral and dark thriller reminiscent of works by best-selling authors S. J. Watson and Ruth Ware.
I have no memory of what happened, but I was told I killed my son. And you believe what your loved ones, your doctor, and the police tell you, don't you?
My name is Emma Cartwright. Three years ago I was Susan Webster, and I murdered my 12-week-old son, Dylan. I was sent to Oakdale Psychiatric Institute for my crime, and four weeks ago I was released early on parole with a new identity and address and a chance to rebuild my tattered life.
This morning I received an envelope addressed to Susan Webster. Inside it was a photograph of a toddler called Dylan. Now I am questioning everything I believe because if I have no memory of the event, how can I truly believe he's dead?
If there was the smallest chance your son was alive, what would you do to get him back?
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- Ben C
- 09-17-23
Good book
The story was good, but I almost did not finish because of the narrator. She had so much spit in her mouth and kept smacking when she started a sentence.
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