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From popular TV personality Bob Beckel, a deeply moving, redemptive memoir about his life as a political operative and diplomat, his long struggle with alcohol and drugs, and his unlikely journey to finding faith.

Growing up poor in an abusive home, Bob Beckel learned to be a survivor: to avoid conflict, mask his feelings, and lie - all skills that served him well in Washington, where he would become the youngest-ever deputy assistant secretary of State and manage Walter Mondale's 1984 presidential campaign.

But Beckel was living a double life. On January 20, 2001 - George W. Bush's first Inauguration Day - he hit rock bottom, waking up in the psych ward. Written with captivating honesty, Beckel chronicles how his addictions nearly killed him until he found help in an unexpected ally, conservative Cal Thomas, who helped him find faith, get sober, and get his life back on track.

©2015 Bob Beckel (P)2015 Hachette Audio

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Absolutely outstanding!

This is an absolutely great book regardless of your side of politics. The book is about much more than politics, it's about a human being and their struggles. I'm a loyal conservative follower of The Five and greatly missed Bob during his absence. Great book Bob and welcome back!

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A very inspiring story

I am one of those conservatives who loves Bob. I heard of the story weeks ago, but when Bob mentioned it this week, I decided to buy it. I found I couldn't put it down. Glad to see him back on The Five . Blessings on you, Bob!

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Great listen

Bob has for the most part always bugged me on the 5. But at the same time I loved him as well. Much how I feel about Madonna love her music... but reject her politics for the most part. Glad Bob is back on the 5 again! His story is amazing! I want to hear about the bar fights though.

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A MUST read!

I have been down this road but to a far, far less degree than Mr. Beckel.

While I don't agree with his politics, I empathize with his journey and I commend him for his raw honesty in telling his life story up to this point.

Anyone who either is an addict or knows one should read this book. It puts it all into perspective.

I admire you, Bob Beckel.

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Donaldhamlin97@yahoo.com

Great Book Bob my dad did all the drinking in the family . I watch him work and drink himself to death! I said I would never be like him ! I never drank but he taught me so much about work ! He was one of the best Bricklayer of his time! Quentin E Hamlin ,your Book brought a lot of memories back ! Miss you on the Five, keep your head high Bob love Donnie E Hamlin

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Enlightening

There are (& were) many alcoholics & addicts in my life. while I thought I knew almost all there is to know, I discovered there was more inside knowledge, wisdom, & experiences I received by consuming this book. my thanks to Bob for documenting it in an enjoyable & thought provoking manner.

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Great Read

Would you consider the audio edition of I Should Be Dead to be better than the print version?

YES!! I love hearing the author reading his own words

What other book might you compare I Should Be Dead to and why?

This is the most silliest question you ask me, This is Bob Beckel's book and nobody else.

Which character – as performed by Bob Beckel and Graham Beckel – was your favorite?

Another silly question! Bob of course

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

Yes I did, but could not.

Any additional comments?

My whole opinion of Mr. Beckel has changed, what a life, what a man, what a story. I hope he writes another real soon. I have become a Bob Beckel fan.

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so so

I respect anyone's story, But I was expecting this to be more redeeming, and less of drunk stories. And drug stories, and prostitution, and frankly, some demeaning comments about women in general. I'm not into being politically correct, just respectful and mature, and this was not that. As a recovering person, this did not inspire me. I'm sure if I was a Bob Beckel fan, I'd probably be writing something different. His editor should have made more suggestions. In all fairness, I quit because of the above, so maybe the last 1/2 was the redeeming part. All the best Bob.

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