In today’s deeply insightful and thought-provoking episode, engage in a deeply reflective coaching session where they explore the intricate layers of childhood trauma, the intricate interplay of cultural influences, the complexities of conditional love, and the profound ways in which these elements shape and influence their mental well-being and daily experiences.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro

(Beginning of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

• 2:00 A Conversation How Trauma Affects Everyday Life
• 9:02 I Wish my Family Understood This About Me...
• 14:03 An Outside Perspective on Different Families
• 15:55 A Child’s Responsibilities, Mistakes, Feelings, and Wants
• 31:20 Culture: Mental Health, Shame, and Outside Perspectives
• 34:27 Relationships and Connection Between Children and their Parents
• 48:44 Conditional Love and New Experiences
• 1:00:42 Childhood Healing and Pleasant Memories
• 1:15:06 Last Word

(End of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

• 1:13:02 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole
• 1:15:10 Outro
• 1:16:28 “I Might Do Something Wrong” (Osunlade Lonely Mix) by Tortured Soul: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGtiD9iLYoY

Episode Resources:

• Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
  • Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
  • Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Bella Zimmerman

Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

In today's enlightening episode, we introduce a new segment, Tool Time featuring BPD Warrior Kim Beavers, where we provide tools to navigate and process your emotions. We explore the term of the day, mindfulness, and delve into its transformative benefits. Stay tuned for soul-soothing meditation led by Bella, crafted to harmonize your body, spirit, soul, and mind, helping you gain insights into your emotions. Join us for an enriching journey of self-discovery and inner peace!

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

• 1:35 Tool Time With Kim Beavers
• 3:36 What’s Today's Tool?
• 4:26 Mind-ful-ness and Gratitude
• 10:20 Review: The Me Test

(End of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

• 12:32 Term of The Day: Mindfulness

(Beginning of Mindfulness and Meditation)

• 13:37 Mindfulness and Its Benefits
• 18:25 The Mindful Moment/Meditation

(End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

• 24:51 Closing Statement from Nicole
• 25:13 Daily Mantra
• 25:29 Outro
• 26:42 “Free Mind” – Tems: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=tQiNQL-FEgU&si=h3oAXYLrfQR1SK3j

Episode Resources:

• Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
  • Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
  • Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect With Hosts

Kim’ Beavers

https://invisiblelines.quora.com/

beaversbin2021@gmail.com

Bella Zimmerman

bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Kim Beavers, Bella Zimmerman, and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

In today’s episode, we begin with a compelling excerpt from Dr. Gregory Serfer’s book, "I Am Still Right Here". Nicole and Bella sit down with Dr. Serfer to have a healthy conversation about his book and his experience of being in a relationship with a person with BPD (pwBPD). They reflect on ways to destigmatize BPD and provide advice and encouraging words to a pwBPD and their partners, friends, and family.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Guest:

• Dr. Gregory Serfer

Email: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: I Am Still Right Here: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Qoura: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro
• 0:58 Trigger Warning
• 1:21 Excerpt of Chapter 1 of I Am Still Right Here

(Beginning of Interview)

• 6:38 Introduction of Dr. Gregory Serfer
• 11:04 The Creation of I Am Still Right Here
• 15:30 Qualities/Traits of BPD in Relationships
• 23:09 Practitioners' Attitude towards BPD and Personality Disorders
• 24:38 BPD Doesn't Define a Person
• 26:03 Idolization, Invalidation, and Disregard in BPD
• 37:03 Understanding Transient Feelings
• 45:08 Resilience in BPD
• 51:06 Suggestions for Stressful Medical Environments
• 1:04:16 Love Letter to BPD
• 1:06:40 Final Thoughts
• Dr. Serfer's Final Words

(End of Interview)

• 1:14:33 Outro
• 1:18:03 "Thinking Less" by Sinead Harnett Music: https://tinyurl.com/SineadHarnettMusic

Connect with the Hosts:

Bella Zimmerman

Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole

Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole

Research Team: Nicole & Tamar Brignolle

Website Resources:

Bi-weekly Support Group (Wed): https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

Support The Show:

Pandora, Amazon Music, Samsung Podcasts, iHeartRadio, Listen Notes

In this episode, we discuss the inception of our podcast title, "I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right," and feature an interview with our host, Nicole (AKA Sasha Fearce), conducted by her friend of 35 years Aseelah El-Amin. Nicole shares her journey as a BPD warrior, shedding light on the stigmas surrounding BPD, and how the diagnosis can impact personal journeys and relationships.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro
• 1:11 Sensitive Content Warning
• 1:21 BPD Episode: Crying in the Parking Lot

(Beginning of Interview)

• Intro
• How Did You Come Up with the Title, I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right?
• Who is Sasha Fearce?
• Misdiagnosis and Confirmation of BPD
• The Origin of BPD Diagnosis
• Does the Diagnosis Matter?
• Is There a Way to Prevent BPD?
• How Can You Decipher Between BPD Episodes and Everyday Emotions?
• When Do You Disclose BPD in New Relationships?
• Once You Disclose, What is the Ideal Response?

(End of Interview)

• BPD Daily Mantra
• Podcast Outro
• Music feature “Free” by Stephanie Mills: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QF4k5qPy-eM

Episode Resources:

- Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

- Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

- Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby

Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Aseelah El-Amin and Nicole Darby

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Editor: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Tamar Brignolle

Support The Show:

Spotify:

Apple Podcast:

YouTube: Coming Soon

Website: ​​https://www.showmegrace.org/coming-soon-01

Topic keywords: mental health podcast, mental health awareness, my mental health journey, mental health journey stories, bpd, bpd podcast, bpd disorder, borderline personality disorder, bpd in relationships, bpd diagnosis, bpd support

In this episode, we introduce a crisis story: Josef's personal experience, narrated by himself. Nicole and Bella talked to another mental health warrior, Josef, and they had a healthy and open conversation about his diagnosis, support as a POC and member of the LGBTQIA+ community, and how mental health affects incarceration and relationships.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Guest:

· Josef

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theantisocialborderline

Email: theantisocialborderline@gmail.com

Quora:https://www.quora.com/profile/The-Antisocial-Borderline?ch=17&oid=1115749301&share=bf6a6dd7&srid=u2KZkC&target_type=user

In the episode on June 5th, you will hear:

· 0:00 Intro

· 1:07 Trigger Warning

· 1:30 Intro to Josef & Crisis His Story

· 1:59 Josef's Personal Crisis Story (Narrated by Himself)

(Beginning of Interview)

· 4:48 A Introduction to Josef

· 7:27 The Backstory: Support for BPD on Quora and The Antisocial Borderline

· 10:51 The Stigma of BPD and The Challenges

· 17:03 Acceptance of BPD Amongst Communities

· 21:15 Advice to Younger Self

· 23:54 Dating as a pwBPD (Person with BPD)

· 30:42 Safe Spaces as a POC and Member of the LGBTQIA+ community

· 36:42 Mental Health and Incarceration, and How They Affect One Another

· 50:30 Love Letter to BPD

· 55:15 Josef’s Last Words

(End of Interview)

· 57:15 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole

· 58:07 BPD Daily Mantra

· 58:24 Outro

· 59:41“Breathe” by Timi: https://youtu.be/QLvYE1ZBru8?si=LmYqAVIwvh2VJEyb

Episode Resources:

· Website, support group, free career coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/

· Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

In this episode, we introduce a crisis story: Josef's personal experience, narrated by himself. Nicole and Bella talked to another mental health warrior, Josef, and they had a healthy and open conversation about his diagnosis, support as a POC and member of the LGBTQIA+ community, and how mental health affects incarceration and relationships.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Guest:

· Josef

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theantisocialborderline

Email: theantisocialborderline@gmail.com

Quora:https://www.quora.com/profile/The-Antisocial-Borderline?ch=17&oid=1115749301&share=bf6a6dd7&srid=u2KZkC&target_type=user

In the episode on June 5th, you will hear:

· 0:00 Intro

· 1:07 Trigger Warning

· 1:30 Intro to Josef & Crisis His Story

· 1:59 Josef's Personal Crisis Story (Narrated by Himself)

(Beginning of Interview)

· 4:48 A Introduction to Josef

· 7:27 The Backstory: Support for BPD on Quora and The Antisocial Borderline

· 10:51 The Stigma of BPD and The Challenges

· 17:03 Acceptance of BPD Amongst Communities

· 21:15 Advice to Younger Self

· 23:54 Dating as a pwBPD (Person with BPD)

· 30:42 Safe Spaces as a POC and Member of the LGBTQIA+ community

· 36:42 Mental Health and Incarceration, and How They Affect One Another

· 50:30 Love Letter to BPD

· 55:15 Josef’s Last Words

(End of Interview)

· 57:15 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole

· 58:07 BPD Daily Mantra

· 58:24 Outro

· 59:41“Breathe” by Timi: https://youtu.be/QLvYE1ZBru8?si=LmYqAVIwvh2VJEyb

Episode Resources:

·

· Website, support group, free career coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/

· Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

A quick look into the wonders of the "I Can't Even Kill Myself Right" podcast