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In Deep

How I Survived Gangs, Heroin, and Prison to Become a Chicago Violence Interrupter
Narrated by: Christina Delaine
Length: 10 hrs and 40 mins
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Publisher's Summary

Before Angalia Bianca became one of Chicago's foremost authorities on violence interruption and prevention, receiving international recognition and a Resolution for Bravery from the City of Chicago, she was a criminal, a master manipulator, and a brilliant con artist. Bianca spent 12 years in prison for forgery, embezzlement, drug dealing, and theft. But now she has gone far beyond the expectations for recovery to a life of service fueled by an unrelenting determination to make a difference.   

Bianca was once a gang member; now she puts her life on the line to interrupt gang violence. For 36 years she was a heroin addict; now she mentors people in recovery. She was homeless; now she appears as an invited guest to speak at events across the country and around the world. Bianca crawled out of the deepest hole imaginable; now through her work with the renowned violence prevention group Cure Violence, she climbs back down to change lives.  

In Deep is a blunt, honest look at Bianca's life. Her mind-blowing stories take listeners deep into a world of grit and gang violence that seems inescapable. Her story is at once fascinating, terrifying, and ultimately full of hope.

©2018 Angalia Bianca and Linda Beckstrom; Foreword copyright 2018 by Kevin Gates and Dreka Gates (P)2018 Tantor

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An apology for her life

The entire book reads like a persuasive essay and the topic is "Why Angela Bianca is an amazing person". I disliked how, even though she denounces the criminal lifestyle, she praised her own criminal activities and constantly patted herself on the back for her ingenuity in coming up with new get-rich schemes. She portrays herself as a tough white girl and constantly validates herself as an accepted member of various gangs, ascribing respect to her person that probably never existed. I can't count the number of times she said something along the lines of "They laughed, but I could see respect behind the bravado". Yeah lady, I'm pretty sure they were just laughing. At the end of the book, she lists all the awards she won by becoming a violence interrupter and talks about how all her family slowly accepted her again. There were moments of sincere sorrow for what she lost in her lifestyle, but the majority of the book was bravado and justification for her actions. In all, I found this book to be a self-flattering piece of work written by a delusional woman who, to paraphrase, was always meant to wear a power suit. It was written by a woman who needed to rewrite her life in a positive way but, in this reader's opinion, need not be read by others.

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Just... WOW! Best book in my entire life.

Captivating start to end! You will not be disappointed. A must read! Absolutely loved it!

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You are an unfit parent

I cringed through most of this- so very arrogant. The author came from basically a loving family and life of privilege- to stomping on those in her community and laughing in the face of those harmed. She had so many chances to to keep and raise a child, to stop hurting her community and family, and to become sober....chances that so many others never have. She doesn't represent, in my opinion, anyone but a privileged, wealthy, Caucasian woman whose dad, extended family, and money got her out of difficult situations. The damage is minimized she left shrapnel everywhere. As a Social Worker I can attest that she is an "unfit parent". She lost multiple children (I couldn't keep count), most through CPS involvement. Sure she can think she had some control and "pride" (huh?) that she "signed adoption paperwork"- but thats her own delusion. Her parental rights were terminated by the Juvenile Court- for a reason- she was unfit. She gave birth to drug addicted babies. She abandoned her children as they were growing up. She did not look back as everyone else took care of them- including the tax money of her community. For some of her children, such as Aliyah, she put her baby through the long term challenges of being born heroin addicted. Has she ever witnessed a baby withdrawing from heroin? This baby's first impression of the world is that of pain, helplessness, and unpredictability. Some babies don't survive, others have to be tapered off with such a struggle- often put on anti-seizure medication. Then, she choose to insist she hold this toddler-who doesn't know her- in the courtroom- while in shackles. How SELFISH. Later she chose to put this child through more stress and PTSD. Then, as if it can't get any worse, she had the audacity to make a comment about the social worker taking the baby and having a "long day"- as if the process of detaining her child is worse than what she has done. How clueless and narcissistic. Wow, the suffering one person can wreck over a family and a community, unreal. Damage has been done. Interesting, like a train wreck. Lots of patting her own back after stabbing others in their back.

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The most compelling book

This book struck such a cord with me. I am both shocked and amazed. How one human being could have done so many outrageous scams and survive the influences of so much drugs and alcohol abuse. A testament that the human spirit is so strong. The amount of harm and pain one person can feel and give to others yet end up doing more good than is imaginable. To me this women is a hero in so many was, she and only she knows the suffering and pain that so many endure. By living it and surviving it makes her all the more capable of saving them one by one. I am proud of her. We grew up I. The same neighborhood and I understand her strifes. God Bless her🙏🏽
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Inspiring

I appreciate the grit. I know so many of us can relate to some aspect of this story and be moved to action in the area of every day help to those in need.

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Impactful and Powerful

This is a story that illustrates how 30 years ago drugs had a major influence in the inner city and the correlation of violence. The use of opioids have reach out of the bounds of the inner city to suburbia and now is an epidemic. Bianaca personal story demonstrates the road to recovery is not an easy one but with perseverance and faith it is possible. I hope she keeps being the light to others who thinks all is lost.

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Awesome Biography and amazing story

This is an important book. Civic leaders, city officials and social workers must read this book. Although very personal and severely honest, this story and the writer’s path are so important from a socio-political bent. The idea of never give up on the worst of the worst in our prison system because someday their ultimate work can change and save lives.

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Ang Pat loves you Sis

In Deep is so powerful it going to save a lot of lives loved it.

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  • 11-06-18

We are all survivors.

A beautiful master piece of the art of living and how precious is this adventure called life.

No matters how difficult it can be sometimes that there is always a small ray of light and hope in the darkness. Just listen to your heart and be true to yourself and others. Be kind, love and let people love and help you. Be patient, time will help and a better moment will come.

Follow your intuition. It is very powerful. We are very powerful. Do not forget how beautiful you are when problems come. They will always come. That is what life is about. We are here to learn from experience so be grateful afterwards because you will become smarter with more compassion and kindness to yourself and the rest of the world. That's a true gift.

Thank you Bianca for sharing your story. I wish you all the best for your recovery in all the areas of your life. You are a very strong woman and your help is needed and appreciated.