An Imperfect Pilgrim
Trauma and Healing on This Side of the Rainbow
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Narrated by:
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Elyse Langer-Smith
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By:
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Suzanne Ludlum
About this listen
After suffering multiple traumas and shattering losses, Suzanne Ludlum found herself in the depths of blinding depression and unimaginable despair. She spent nine years navigating between psychiatric hospitals and psychologists' offices, suffering further at the hands of the very people who were supposed to protect her.
After hitting bottom, Suzanne began her long journey toward healing, during which time she stumbled upon the one modality that would make the most difference in her eventual climb out of darkness.
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