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I write trying to understand the secrets of life, but mainly why I can't adapt myself to duality... into a universe which is dominated by it. And ... i keep writing. But ... the real truth is that i am not really a writer but a person who's so, so confused and confusing ... clearly proving that i can't understand anything at all. Of course... like many others. But ... i continue my philosophical and spiritual journey. Becoming so afraid of karma ... and desperately trying to run away of uselessly provoking it ... but always failing. Looking so much ... like an idiot. And probably... being ...

I try to understand duality, feeling addicted to it ... somehow still dreaming that one day I'll meet a woman ... which can really understand the fantasies from my mind. Unfortunately ... reality is different. Totally different. Meanwhile ... I meet a new lady ... and a new one ... and then another one ... and when I believe i am finally lucky ... i see again that all is just ... a nonsense. The absurd ... in its absolute form. So ... maybe i am responsible of such a dynamic ... but no matter what ... i just hate it. Looking like a curse ... experienced in continuous form. All being ...

Over the years i’ve been meeting lots of people ... which i the end ... i would like to call them ... souls. In fact i was dealing with thousands of them ... and i had moments when i’ve wondered myself ... why do i meet the whole spectrum of the human beings?! What is the message behind that?! What the Universe is trying to whisper to me?! But what i can say that it was funny ... was that i met people i liked, people i disliked, people that i liked and then i disliked and ... people i disliked and then i liked. The interactions were of so many different types ... that i almost started ...

Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things. Maybe it’s time to start meditating more. To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us. To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others. Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real. And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.

I am writing about sexuality itself, without being afraid or ashamed ... clearly knowing it's actually a way of healing our souls. Many define me as a pervert, or a person who lost his minds long time ago ... having no real chance to recover. But i believe that my journey on all the pathless paths i had experienced ... gave me much more clarity. So ... i just write about it. Defining especially the mix of sexuality and nonsense ... ending up concluding ... it's actually an abstract therapy. Or at least for me it was. And still is. Analysing and defining into my books ... the weirdness ... i...

Each time when i don't understand something that bothers me into my real life ... i start writing a book about it. Trying to clarify it. To deeply understand what is going on. And ... i write and write. All being a form of ... self-therapy. So ... this time i come in front of the public asking myself ... why the hell i continue pushing the love connection that i am involved in?! Why i can't stop myself doing it?! Why those connections related to duality ... fail so often?! Why i can't continue being happy like i was into the beginning?! Why i can't experience the happiness in continuous ...

A new book. A new illusory tendency of trying to understand the weird dynamic of love relationships. Trying to understand ... why the hell i can't be happy near this woman i desperately love. Failing. Failing ... again and again. Cause ... you see ... into the beginning i really thought i will be happy ... hoping so much i'll get from her what i really want... but always ending up experiencing ... the absurd. So ... the question is why?! Why?! Why?! Why?! Meanwhile ... i still write. Analysing and defining ... but unfortunately feeling i am too weak as a man ... and i can't really change ...

I've written the book "Absorbed of ... parallel realities" as a way of trying to understand my own life. So ... i've did all my best to reveal ... the truth which i can't really say to the people knowing me for real. It's not that i am ashamed of my immorality ... cause i am not. Not anymore. So ... short story ... adoring duality ... being in fact addicted to it, i've started to connect with more and more women. Experiencing the concept of parallel realities ... every single day. Unfortunately ... becoming confused. Also confusing for all those women ... but adoring to taste those vibes ...

I've started to write the introductions ... at the end, when the book is already finished. It's somehow more logically because I begin to write ... first the title ... and then revealing lots of things, thoughts, feelings and emotions ... without really knowing what i will actually write. All being unclear ... even to myself. I know it sounds weird ... but into the end ... you'll see that everything is even more and more unclear. Too many contradictory ideas ... converging into a point when i can actually declare myself even more confused. So ... the book "In love with souls ... as a poetic...

I've started to write as a form of self therapy ... trying to heal my broken soul ... while in love. And even if nothing magical happened ... i was just revealing ... in fact ... the beginning of the weird dynamic of a life ... which i didn't know so much about. Feeling i am lost. And actually ... totally losing the control on myself. Sometimes also becoming ... insane. For real. Of course ... i am ashamed to admit it ... and ... But ... all continued. Still continues. And probably will still continue. So ... I understand all ... i accept insanity as a secondary effect of the decision of ...

I've heard one time someone saying ... "It takes me days to recover after a dream with you in it". And somehow this is what i was feeling near my beloved ... Carla. Falling in love of her ... again and again. Yes ... every day. But you see ... she was a dream. A real one ... but a dream. I keep writing into this journal ... revealing the intensity of my emotions experienced while with her ... and ... So ... to tell you the truth is all about the vibes. The energies i am chasing for ... again and again. And i call my story with her ... a dream ... because today i feel that my real world is ...

I was a hotel owner. A businessperson. I managed a comfortable life, owned a decent-sized hotel and a small complex of houses just outside the city. My world was tidy, predictable, built on balance sheets and bookings. But everything changed in a matter of days. Not just for me—but for hundreds of others who arrived with nothing but fear in their eyes and the clothes on their backs. When the war started in Ukraine, I didn't plan to get involved. I watched the news like everyone else, shocked and angry. I saw the images—families separated, cities bombed, people running with no clear ...

Telling that the life itself it’s an illusion, might sound so damn … weird … and most probably … even like a depressive thought. But … you see … there are so, so many moments in life when the life itself just… sucks … and we ask ourselves … what the hell have i done that i deserve that?! And that was the moment when the karmic idea came into my mind … starting to believe that all the lessons of life, sometimes very difficult to handle … could be defined as karmic. All those abstract situations … which totally annoy us … and make our lives miserable… are repeating...

I've written about the nonsense as a form of protest ... especially in front of this weird concept of duality ... man-woman. Of course ... from the perspective of a man, but still doing all my best to be objective ... even if so many, many times I've literally lost my minds ... especially in love relationships. Provoked so much ... by my woman ... from that time. Or ... because of many other women ... met on the stage of my life. Even today ... when i finally finished the manuscript of "The NONSENSE ... seen as normality" ... i had to deal with some ladies from the electrical company ... ...

Expressing all our ideas … or thoughts is most probably …a must. Accepting that into one point we’ll be shocked discovering our dirty minds … it’s also a must. But i believe it’s all part of understanding us as humans. Concepts us spiritual ugliness … sins … and many other similar ideas must be avoid for a while … if we really want to heal our broken souls. We should not be surprised …. or socked and not try to avoid … the truth. We should simple allow our personality to be expressed the way it wants to be expressed. … and stop judging ourselves. Yes … we should ...

Sometimes we see life ... weird. But there are times when we also see it in a beautiful way. This balance will always be there. I became a writer, by writing simple quotes on my phone. Writing on and on and on. I was meditating a lot ... what life is about ... and in fact ... what my life actually means. After almost 3 years i started to look to all those thoughts ... which were simple ideas ... but were mine. There were defining me. And i became deeper and deeper. I was exploring all my thoughts and feelings. Today ... reading again all those things i wrote ... i just smile. I see the ...

Depression is not … what it looks like. And yes … I would even dare to define it as a … blessing. I started to write the book …. “Depression … the gateway to the real happiness” … trying to understanding the unhappiness from my own soul … but also trying to guide myself to get out from such a mental state. I saw depression lots of times … all around myself … somehow being afraid of it … but also realizing it is not …. what it looks like. Today …. analyzing my own case …. I realize it is a signal … that says we were unhappy …. for too many days into the row....

Karmic stories … are ugly … or at least this is what we believe about them … but realizing we need to analyze and define their meaning very clear … and then try to redefine our inner self … it’s most probably a must. Karmic energies are real … even if we believe it or not … and it’s not easy to get rid of them. But we could start to accept that …. as part of life … and also as a spiritual journey … which we need to follow into this Universe. It might not make sense at all … but … the real truth is always revealed later …

1+1=1 ... losing our identities Being in love ... is a totally different way of experiencing life. Being in love ... is amazing. But … love is not for everyone. Yes ... Not any of us can understand and accept the illogical rules of love. And ... the truth is ... we are afraid of getting lost ... of losing our souls ... our identities ... our minds. I was in love. ... not only one time. I dare to write about love ... cause i was into that ... heaven ... but unfortunately the emotional balance made me feel ... the hell too. Love is ... duality. I've felt it. I've strongly felt it. And I've ...

I write as a form of self therapy ... always trying to heal my soul. Feeling ... so, so many times that I'm hurt and experience a terrible pain. Knowing everything. Feeling it so deeply. Coming up with so many logical explanations ... but not really doing anything to save myself for real. Yes ... I know it's all toxic. I know that i've ruined myself since i am with her ... but i still allow as the nonsense to continue. She's abusing of me. She's daily provoking me ... till a point when i become a real devil ... torturing her ... like she never experienced before. So ... we allow all to ...