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Scarred

The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult That Bound My Life
Narrated by: Sarah Edmondson
Length: 7 hrs and 43 mins
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The shocking and subversive memoir of a 12-year-NXIVM-member-turned-whistleblower, and her inspiring true story of abuse, escape, and redemption.

"Master, would you brand me? It would be an honor." Scarred follows actress Sarah Edmondson's account of her recruitment into the NXIVM cult, founded by Keith Raniere. It narrates in detail the 12 years she spent within the organization, during which she enrolled over 2,000 members, chronicling her breaking point and her harrowing fight to get out, help others, and heal.

  • Complete with personal photographs, this tell-all follows Sarah from the moment she takes her first NXIVM seminar, to the invitation she accepts from her best friend, Lauren Salzman, into DOS - a "secret sisterhood" within the cult - to her journey toward becoming a key witness in the federal case against its founders.
  • Listeners will learn how cults like NXIVM get started, why people get involved (and stay), and the importance of whistle-blowers who bring light to illegal and unethical practices.
  • Sarah Edmondson is a Canadian actress and playwright who has starred in the CBS series Salvation and more than 12 films for the Hallmark Channel and Lifetime. She is featured in the CBC podcast Uncover: Escaping NXIVM and The Vow, the upcoming HBO documentary series on NXIVM. 

Scarred isn't just about NXIVM. It is also a story about abuses of power, the role female friendships play in cults, and how sometimes the search to be "better" can override everything else.

  • A thrilling listen for fans of true crime and cults, as well as listeners of podcasts like My Favorite Murder and Up and Vanished.
  • Great for fans of Troublemaker: Surviving Hollywood and Scientology by Leah Remini, Escape by Carolyn Jessop, Beyond Belief by Jenna Miscavige Hill, and Bad Blood by John Carreyrou.
  • Evokes questions about friendship, ethics, good, and evil, making it a perfect selection for book clubs. 

Audio edition narrated by the author. 

©2019 Sarah Edmondson and Kristine Gasbarre (P)2019 Hachette Audio

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Awesome story and narration

I just finished listening to this book. It took me two days. The story is really helpful and inspiring. Its also very entertaining to listen.

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Amazing

Great listen! Very informative of everything she went through with Nxvium and helping to bring it down

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Meh

I was really expecting this book to be better. To be quite honest, I was pretty bored through out it but was able to listen to it all the way through. I think it would have been better off with a different narrator.

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  • Ellen
  • Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
  • 10-23-19

Riveting!

Beautifully paced and gripping story, inspirational. Narration wonderful! Highly recommend. It can get you thinking how easily and in different situations people in our lives can be influenced in the way the author was and that they can get their lives back.

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Amazing

Taking a ride through this book helps us understand more and more how cults work and how people can control other minds. It’s an incredible journey through Sarah’s experience.

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  • Ms Venetia Paiz-Merino
  • 10-11-19

Fascinating; compelling; what an emotional rollercoaster!

This is a fascinating and gripping tale of an idealistic young woman who was lured into the omnipotent grasp of a contemporary cult. Reciting her own tale, Sarah takes the reader through her extraordinary journey with NXIVM - the ambition, the euphoria of self-discovery and the strangling embrace of the community, which eventually led down such a dark path that she felt compelled to blow the whistle.

I devoured this book in just a couple of days. Warning - you will not want to put it down until you’re done!

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  • Hazel
  • 10-12-19

Seriously?

This book says more about the authors depraved disposition than it does about the leaders manipulation. l'm finding it very hard to understand her reasoning behind things she chose to do.

I have absolutely no pity for her, no one held a gun to her head,
SHE and SHE alone chose to do these deviant acts and has no one but herself to blame.

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  • ania
  • 09-22-19

Very involving

Very involving, exactly what I wanted. xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

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  • candice
  • 10-20-19

Incredible.

Listening to Sarah's story broke my heart, made me cry, made me sad, angry and eventually made me smile. Let Sarah's story be a lesson, never let anyone take control of your life. You are loved and worthy of all the beauty this World has to offer. Thinking of Sarah and all of the survivors of NXIVM. Peace to all of you.