How to Murder Your Life

A Memoir

By: Cat Marnell

Narrated by: Cat Marnell

Length: 12 hrs and 6 mins

Publisher's summary

From Cat Marnell, "New York's enfant terrible" (The Telegraph), a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.

At 26 Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America - and that's all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a "doctor shopper" who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything - anything - to sleep.

This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and, yes, self-tanner. It begins at a posh New England prep school - and with a prescription for attention deficit disorder medication Ritalin. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell's amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve.

From the Conde Nast building (where she rides the elevator alongside Anna Wintour) to seedy nightclubs, from doctors' offices and mental hospitals, Marnell shows - like no one else can - what it is like to live in the wild, chaotic, often sinister world of a young female addict who can't say no.

Combining lightning-rod subject matter and bold literary aspirations, How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.

©2017 Cat Marnell (P)2017 Simon & Schuster, Inc.

nice book

Every time she does her screaming voice I want to stab myself in the ears with a butter knife. Otherwise pretty good.

Entertaining Book on Important Topic

I took one star off the performance because Cat Marnell reads it herself and screams a lot, especially when she sees "mice": I had to keep turning it down, especially in public. But overall it's a great listen. It was very courageous to write and publish the chapter about her child and young-adulthood. Probably the pleasure for me in listening to a book about nearly insoluble problems is that you, the listener, can think "Hey, my life may be bad, but hers is REALLY bad!" For those of you who say she's "spoiled" I disagree. She was deprived. The things that she DID have - money, beauty, etc. - only deprived her more. But she's tough and, I'm guessing, will survive.

Wonderful, Hilarious, Painful and Relatable

This book was everything I needed. It gave me laughs but also put Into words things I have not been able to about my own depression. Though I have not struggled specifically with drug addiction, I am currently fighting a disease that gives me similar pain and sadness. The way Cat tells her story reminds you that its ok to fall down once in a while and we will get back up again. Though some topics were quite serious, she has a wonderful and hilarious way of painting the picture.
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EVERY ADDICTS BOOK

EVERY ADDICT CAN RELATE TO THIS. I FELT EVERY WORD .AND HOPE YOU ARE STILL ON YOUR RECOVERY JOURNEY. BIG XO XO NOT A JANE XO BUT A ME XO

MUST READ!! CAT MARNELL; SO REAL, RAW, & HILARIOUS

must read! if you live this genre cat marnell tells it how it is hrr storg is so outrageous you .ca t atop listening I e read it 4 times now. a car IS a real chick who doesn't sugar coat anything! I love reading anything related to ADahA that isn't a fun quides so this is a t
topic people don't think about addictions to adderall or vyvanse exe. cat mar ell is one of a millions suffering from adderall addiction. she is so strong dealing with an eating disorder and a narrsasitc friend that shed ights on a topic not many people consider an issue but anything talking into the body .can become addictive to some people. I lived this book and how is hits home for me 😍😍

Raw, Funny, and Eye-opening Look inside an addicts mind

Cat shares an unfiltered look into her life of an addict battling addiction to adderall/amphetamines, bulimia, anorexia, street drugs, tranquilizers, xanax while trying to maintain the semblance of normalcy as she struggles to stay afloat in her job at Condé Nast in NYC. Being similar in age, I loved reliving the 90s and 2000s through her accurate account of NYC, club scene, and pop culture of the time. Not a happy ending though a real one. Can’t wait for the next chapter of her life.

Relatable Kinda

I never imagined that in the end Kat would still be addicted. I thought for certain the story would lead to her amazing life in recovery. But I’m left wondering how Mimi is!?

Great Story

I loved the humor in her story telling. Interesting story and eye opening story about the journey people addicted go through.

Brilliant and explicit

Obsessed with Cat Marnells memoir!
She is truly a gifted writer!
I read the book first but highly recommend you also listen to her narrating her story!

Very interesting!

While the story itself is heartbreaking, Cat is a fantastic storyteller. I could listen to her for hours. She's bright, funny, humble and self-aware. I'm sorry for all she has gone through but I admire her courage to write this. One of the best books I've listened to in a long time.