Restless Heart

My Struggle with Life & Sexuality

By: Kim Zember

Narrated by: Kim Zember

Length: 3 hrs and 28 mins

Publisher's summary

In this candid and vulnerable memoir, Kim Zember exposes details of her life that many wouldn’t dare to admit, let alone publish.

Her desires for women, money, and comfort lead her down a path far from that of her Christian upbringing. Her impulsive lifestyle, coupled with an underlying fear of being alone, constantly drive her to drown out the small whisper of God she hears in moments of silence and stillness.

Torn by her desires, she lives a double life, jumping back and forth from husband to girlfriends, drunken nights to morning church, Southern California real estate to nonprofit work in Ethiopia.

This story of conflict, questioning, and seeking embody the struggle of a human soul. Yet even out of the darkest moments, love breaks through in radical ways and carries her into her God-given purpose, into serving others, into joy.

Kim’s transparency about her life offers encouragement to those seeking peace and joy for their own restless hearts. In the end, love wins.

©2020 Sophia Institute Press (P)2020 Sophia Institute Press

Raw and Honest

This is a story that truly needed to be told. We live in a world that sends mixed messages of what is right and wrong, and it's getting worse! What a beautiful example of how much Jesus loves us, no matter what. It also shows the miracles and healings that can happen when we surrender to Him.

Honest, inapirig

Easy to listen, revealing God's heart. The author shares her story, struggles with same-sex attraction, and how God restoring love met her in her realities. It must be relevant for those who struggle the same, but in a sense, worth listening to everyone - to hear God's works and victories can lift every heart. Thanks, author, for your sincere and honest share. May God continues to bless You abundantly in ministry and faithfulness to Christ.

Great! Informative, thought provoking

More true stories like these need to be told. Kim bares her soul and provides wisdom on what others in similar situations can learn from, showcases her mistakes and successes in finding herself and not ignoring God's call to holiness.

A Broken Life Wrapped in Grace

Homosexuality is a politically charged subject, a hot potato. When someone is heard speaking or writing on the issue, often it's from a place of ignorance and meanness, or the opposite extreme of moral permissiveness. Neither of these messages is helpful to the people whose lives have been touched by same sex attraction -- people who live with it, year after year, struggling alone and in isolation. People for whom Jesus Christ died. People who, in spite of their powerful and often confusing feelings regarding members of their own sex, can be used by God to touch the lives of others, and further his kingdom. People who need not live in darkness and despair, but are called to be so much more. Kim does not sugarcoat her past, and powerfully demonstrates the destructive consequences of many of her choices. Kim is a portrait of a woman drowning in her own desires while desiring also to do good, to live for God, and serve others. I stand in awe of all she has done for her Lord and fellow humans. She's a blessing. Thanks for sharing such a personal part of your life with us, Kim!

Very insightful story

This is a very insightful story from a woman who has lived a very interesting life, and in the end discovers that it is only in Jesus that we find true happiness. I highly recommend reading this.

Out of ashes comes Blessings

Thank you Kim for the courage to tell your story. Your struggle to finally trust Jesus fully and completely is showing me that I too can let it all go into HIS Hands. I've gotten so close, but struggle with fear and foolishly take it back. Your journey to His heart, thou slightly different than mine, helped my journey nonetheless. Thank you! May God continue to Bless you in your journey to His heart.

an honest, raw story told with heart.

Kim tells her story with gentleness and honesty. It might be hard for some to grasp the nuance of certain parts of her life, but others will definitely relate.

Hope for the Hopeless

Kim's deep and honest sharing of her struggles are relatable to anyone with any addiction, or desire that they want to turn over to Jesus. Her sincerity and compassion for others shines through the pages, and you root for her as she seeks to find out who she is called to be. At times, it is hard to read, but as humans, we all fall and can relate to the constant battle within, striving to be who God created us to be.

Thank you

Kim thank you sharing your story. I pray I can trust God will forgive me forgiveness for my faults and Mia steps. Blessings to you Kim for your ministry

A Holy Perspective

It is this mother’s heart who prays her own beloved loved one may one day fall in love with Christ in this same deep, everlasting way. 🙏🏻🤞🏻🙏🏻 Thank you Kim for sharing your witness of hope.