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It Never Goes Away
- Gender Transition at a Mature Age
- Narrated by: Dr. Anne L. Koch
- Length: 7 hrs and 51 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: LGBTQ+, Biographies & Memoirs
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Publisher's Summary
If you are transgendered, the feeling of wanting your body to match the sex you feel you are never goes away. For some, though, especially those who grew up before trans people were widely out and advocating for equality, these feelings were often compartmentalized and rarely acted upon. Now that gender reassignment has become much more commonplace, many of these people may feel increasing pressure to finally undergo the procedures they have always secretly wanted.
Ken Koch was one of those people. Married twice, a veteran, and a world traveler, a health scare when he was 63 prompted him to acknowledge the feelings that had plagued him since he was a small child. By undergoing a host of procedures, he radically changed his appearance and became Anne Koch. In the process, though, Anne lost everything that Ken had accomplished. She had to remake herself from the ground up. Hoping to help other people in her age bracket who may be considering transitioning, Anne describes the step-by-step procedures that she underwent and shares the cost to her personal life in order to show seniors that although it is never too late to become the person you always knew you were, it is better to go into that new life prepared for some serious challenges.
Both a fascinating memoir of a well-educated man growing up trans yet repressed in the mid-20th century and a guidebook to navigating the tricky waters of gender reassignment as a senior, It Never Goes Away shows how what we see in the television world of Transparent translates in real life.
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- jon rios
- 05-03-20
Typical upper class trans-snobbery
For the most part I four Her story beautiful and interesting however, this is where transgender people as a whole are not properly represented by one another. We trans persons are extremely as, or more diverse as cis-gender people. I like Dr. Koch and I love Caitlyn Jenner but I am in no way represent by them socially because of the huge gap in our financial and public status. In turn I’m not a huge fan of Jazz Jennings because she is a spoiled young transgender child of a wealthy family.
So Dr. Koch tried to approach the transgender issue by comparison to her life, how she paired cash for everything, how she recovered in a posh hotel and on n on.
I only have 1 thing in common with most of my transgender brothers and sisters and that’s or being transgender and that’s where the line is.
Dr. Koch went on about how you should transition with money, 3 homes, bank accounts and so on. I have the support of my wife and insurance. Big difference there. And insurance coverage of my transition could at any point be yanked due to political issues.
Don’t pretend to represent us as a whole.
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- Sasha
- 09-08-21
Shame to see transphobic rhetoric from a trans Dr
The utter absurdity of claiming that trans medical care is forced on people who spend decades in some cases fighting for a chance to align tgeir bodies with their Minds, their hearts, and their souls is made even more preposterous by claiming that insurance only just barely beginning to cover said procedures is somehow a "bad thing" when it's literally ONLY because of hard fought legal battles from Trans people to not be discriminated against that Trans people get ANY assistance at all.
Meanwhile similar reconstructive surgeries are provided without question or hesitation to cis-hetero individuals (as it should)...
Trans people have been thoroughly studied from a medical standpoint since the LATE 70'S... There is a mountain of evidence to support providing medical transition is the most effective path...
The suggestion that trans people should be forced into suffering as some sort of "earning / right of passage" is frankly disgusting...
The detransition rate is less than 2% and nearly 80% of those individuals state that the reason for their detransition was because they were subjected to bigotry... Most go on to re-transition once they are able to escape said bigotry.
I'm honestly appalled that audible continues to publish transphobic garbage misrepresentations and pseudoscience like this and "irreversible damage" when the claims within are so readily debunked.
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- Amazon Customer
- 06-03-20
Honest and Genuine Self Expose
Dr Anne L Koch takes the listener through the trials and tribulations of gender transition as she herself experienced it. She provides the listener with a sincere reflection upon both the psychological benefits and also her own regrets. Thank you Dr Anne for raising points of caution for anyone considering a transition later in life. These are critical points that the mainstream does not like to openly discuss. Older individuals considering gender reassignment surgery would be wise to read this book and ponder the cautious approach afforded by Dr Koch.
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- Sparks n Ashes
- 01-27-22
perfect for over 60 m2F
nearly all clinical observations and personal account by a well educated better resourced now Woman. valuable insights for anyone considering gender change with a no nonsense presentation even if a bit dry. this gave me much to think on without leaving me with even more questions
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- Nana
- 08-22-21
Pride in the honesty of this professional!
Five diamond rating for Dr.Annie’s book! Well deserved!This book is very transparent, easy to listen to!
The subject matter , although, not dentistry is relevant and helpful not just for a transitioning person , but more for people that might want to understand more…..Friends, family,physicians, dentists etc…
Dr. Koch you’ve already built a legacy in your profession. May you always find happiness, clarity and love! Thank you for sharing this book!
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- Amazon Customer
- 01-26-21
a great viewpoint most dont share.
she shares some of the hard to talk about issues and lessons learned from her journey