Hunger

A Memoir of (My) Body

By: Roxane Gay

Narrated by: Roxane Gay

Length: 5 hrs and 58 mins

Publisher's Summary

From the New York Times best-selling author of Bad Feminist, a searingly honest memoir of food, weight, self-image, and learning how to feed your hunger while taking care of yourself.

"I ate and ate and ate in the hopes that if I made myself big, my body would be safe. I buried the girl I was because she ran into all kinds of trouble. I tried to erase every memory of her, but she is still there, somewhere.... I was trapped in my body, one that I barely recognized or understood, but at least I was safe."

In her phenomenally popular essays and long-running Tumblr blog, Roxane Gay has written with intimacy and sensitivity about food and body, using her own emotional and psychological struggles as a means of exploring our shared anxieties over pleasure, consumption, appearance, and health. As a woman who describes her own body as "wildly undisciplined", Roxane understands the tension between desire and denial, between self-comfort and self-care. In Hunger, she explores her past - including the devastating act of violence that acted as a turning point in her young life - and brings listeners along on her journey to understand and ultimately save herself.

With the bracing candor, vulnerability, and power that have made her one of the most admired writers of her generation, Roxane explores what it means to learn to take care of yourself: how to feed your hungers for delicious and satisfying food, a smaller and safer body, and a body that can love and be loved - in a time when the bigger you are, the smaller your world becomes.

©2016 Roxane Gay (P)2016 HarperCollins Publishers

Critic Reviews

"There's no better person to narrate this audio than Roxane Gay herself. Her calm, consistent inflections are juxtaposed with the content of the audiobook.... Her narration is filled with careful intentions - as if every single word stated and not stated explains her existence spatially.... Most of all, her story is felt because content and narration explore the concept of un/control of the body, self, and existence through her voice." ( AudioFile)

Brutal and raw and honest

Any additional comments?

4.5 stars. This is a difficult, painful, excruciating read. But it is also a necessary, revealing, and enlightening read. Gay bares herself, turns her pen toward her own vulnerabilities with a raw and brutal honesty, admitting to things she finds humiliating and shameful, sharing how the most brutal event of her life has shaped her and continues to shape her. Her writing, as always, is clean and sharp and evocative. There is less of her humor here, as the subject is not funny. She does not pull punches and does not attempt to lighten the mood when she discusses the indignities her body subjects her to. She never claims her body is not her responsibility, and she never claims to love her body the way it is or that she does not wish to lose weight. But she also does not spend the entire book berating her body or ignoring that some of what she let her body become was caused by trauma in childhood. I fear many women reading this will see themselves in Gay and hear themselves in her narrative, in her hopes and fears. Especially in her relationship with her body. And it is a sad thing that so many have combative relationships with their own flesh, that many women battle their bodies (whether because of trauma inflicted or because of societal norms or in an effort to control some aspect of their lives). This book leaves me feeling a little battered and emotionally bruised, but better for having read it. Gay's introspective examination, sometimes unflinching and sometimes rightfully flinching, is well worth any reader's time.

Disturbing

This was not the book I expected, but it was compelling. I can't say that I enjoyed it, given the subject matter. At times, I felt like I would be disrespectful to the author if I didn't struggle through to the end of her story. I'm glad I did. This is a book that is dark and depressing, but, at the same time, uplifting and hopeful. The author's narration was flat at times, which was disconcerting given the information that she was revealing. Perhaps this was the only way she COULD tell her story, with her emotions tightly in check. I recommend this book with this reservation: this is not a lighthearted look at life in a large body. This is raw and painful, and will leave you aching for a truly happy ending. But this is not fiction, and life is not so easily resolved. I wish the author all the best in her life.

Thank you

Thank you for sharing your story. As a woman who's been overweight all of my life and over 300 lbs for more than 10 years, listening to this was very relatable and oddly cathartic. It's exactly what I needed at a time in my life I'm trying to understand and accept myself but am struggling to do so. Your story put into words how I've felt most of my life. Thank you.

Dark, thought provoking, sometimes frustrating

Would you consider the audio edition of Hunger to be better than the print version?

I never know what to do with this question...people tend to read OR listen to a text, but rarely encounter both the print and audio versions. That said, Gay's performance probably adds quite a bit to the experience, so I am giving the audio version the edge here.

What was one of the most memorable moments of Hunger?

I was often struck by how difficult it is -- practically speaking -- for a person of size to simply go through the world. Roxane Gay details her struggles with flying on airplanes, sitting in certain kinds of chairs, and finding clothing she likes. These are things I understood before reading her book, but presented as a daily lived struggle, I found a new sense of empathy and compassion for people of size.

What about Roxane Gay’s performance did you like?

She has a lovely voice. It is well-modulated and soothing. That said, there is very little (perhaps zero?) humor in this book. This is understandable, as the subject matter is dark and personal, but it would have been nice to have a few small moments of levity, if only to introduce another dimension to her speaking voice.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

Not particularly. The book feels less shocking or revelatory than it does meditative. I felt compassion, empathy, and sometimes a little frustration -- there is the feeling that Gay's childhood rape was the biggest, most important event in her life, and as such, it eclipses every other good thing that has happened to the author. I understand this, but at times Gay's persistent emphasis on the ways in which she has been damaged seems to conflict with the many, many gifts she has been given. Yes, she was traumatized, and horribly so. But unlike a great many other people who have been traumatized, she has gone on to accomplish much in her life. She went to Yale, and has a fantastic career, and is a well-known and respected author/feminist. Of course, Gay is writing about her body here, a body that she has punished in every possible way since she was 12 years old, so perhaps my frustration is misplaced?

Any additional comments?

There are many universal truths in this book. Though I am of average weight, I related to the underlying shame that Roxane Gay feels, as well as the effect trauma has had on her life. This is a book women of all shapes, sizes, and colors will be able to relate to. It is less about being fat (her word) than it is about wanting to hide from a deep sense of shame and unworthiness. Women do that in lots of ways...Gay holds up the mirror here, and there is much to see.

I see myself & the world differently

Something in me has shifted because I read this book. I have the beginning of more empathy for myself & others. I have followed the author on Twitter for awhile; I have always appreciated her perspectives & enjoyed her humor & wit. I know this book was not easy for her to write, so I am grateful that she persisted. It is an excellently crafted memoir.

Roxane Gay shares some universal truths

This book made me cry the open mouth, ugly, snot cry, and I know everyone whose life has been shaped around a painful childhood incident, will thank her for being so honest, so unflinching in her backward glance. I wish I could thank her for what she must have had to face and remember in the retelling of her story. I could barely breathe through parts of this. Well done.

I am not sure who this book is for?

I am a morbidly obese woman. I could relate to all of what she describes about her own body and the prejudices faced. Was the book written for people like me or for people who need to understand how people like us can exist? The whole book felt incredibly sad to me. I cannot recommend this book to anyone. I also plan on asking my friend who recommended it to me, why she did?

Enlightening

Insightful and enlightening to a prejudice that is tolerated in society. but the story was often repetitive.

Deeply Touching Memoir

I'm glad I listened to this book for many, many reasons. It was my intro to Roxane Gay and I am so glad she was brought to my attention. Her perspectives have caused me to consider things that had not occurred to me. Other times, I felt she was recording my thoughts- familiar struggles many women share.

This is not a weight loss how to/ journey. It's so much more. I highly recommend this stirring personal account. This contemporary, so very honest writer has a new reader in me.

I wanted to love it. I did not.

I heard an interview Roxanne did with Terry Gross and was so excited to listen to the book.

I’m a feminist, a nutrition student, and a deeply interested in hearing intelligent women discuss their relationships with food and body politics.

This book was those things, but it was also painfully repetitive, conflicted, and frustrating at times. I understand that it was the author’s personal truth but this personal truth seemed so fresh and contradictory. I felt the whole time like this concept, these emotions needed to marinate longer, to become more settled and sensical so that they may help others, not just be a wounded, angst-ridden tirade against self, the world, self again, society, self, a specific human or two, back to self...

The author’s tone was at once mean and judgmental of others while demanding not to be judged and loathed herself while often also deriding and judging herself. Again, I get, that’s where she’s at, we’re all messes in one way or another...but as such I derived nothing from this to take away or implement or help shape my own thoughts, feelings, or actions. The guilt, self-love, self-loathing, excuses, apologies, anti-apologies, the whole lot of it was a mess. I wish the author that give herself more time to sort out her feelings, ideas, and what she wanted to communicate.

If feels like you’re a mute therapist in an unending session with a very vocal patient. I’m so, so sad to be returning this one.