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All This Could Be Different

By: Sarah Thankam Mathews
Narrated by: Reena Dutt
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Publisher's summary

2022 NATIONAL BOOK AWARD FINALIST

ONE OF THE LOS ANGELES TIMES' TOP 5 FICTION BOOKS OF THE YEAR

ONE OF TIME AND SLATE'S TOP 10 BOOKS OF THE YEAR

Named one of the BEST BOOKS OF 2022 by NPR, Vogue, Vulture, BuzzFeed, Harper's Bazaar, and more

One of the buzziest, most human novels of the year…breathless, dizzying, and completely beautiful.”—Vogue

“Dazzling and wholly original...[written] with such mordant wit, insight, and specificity, it feels like watching a new literary star being born in real time.”—Entertainment Weekly

From a brilliant new voice comes an electrifying novel of a young immigrant building a life for herself—a warm, dazzling, and profound saga of queer love, friendship, work, and precarity in twenty-first-century America

Graduating into the long maw of an American recession, Sneha is one of the fortunate ones. She’s moved to Milwaukee for an entry-level corporate job that, grueling as it may be, is the key that unlocks every door: she can pick up the tab at dinner with her new friend Tig, get her college buddy Thom hired alongside her, and send money to her parents back in India. She begins dating women—soon developing a burning crush on Marina, a beguiling and beautiful dancer who always seems just out of reach.

But before long, trouble arrives. Painful secrets rear their heads; jobs go off the rails; evictions loom. Sneha struggles to be truly close and open with anybody, even as her friendships deepen, even as she throws herself headlong into a dizzying romance with Marina. It’s then that Tig begins to draw up a radical solution to their problems, hoping to save them all.

A beautiful and capacious novel rendered in singular, unforgettable prose, All This Could Be Different is a wise, tender, and riveting group portrait of young people forging love and community amidst struggle, and a moving story of one immigrant’s journey to make her home in the world.

©2022 Sarah Thankam Mathews (P)2022 Penguin Audio
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  • Categories: LGBTQ+

Critic reviews

A Phenomenal Book Club Pick • A Vogue Book Club Pick • A Good Housekeeping Book Club Pick • A Belletrist Book Club Pick • A The Rumpus Book Club Pick • An Autostraddle Book Club Pick

“What fuels [All This Could Be Different] is love, a force Mathews portrays not as a panacea [...] but as an instrument of change.”The New Yorker

“What fuels [All This Could Be Different] is love, a force Mathews portrays not as a panacea [...] but as an instrument of change.”The New Yorker

“Both lyrical and page-turning . . . All This Could Be Different, in which the lives of a group of millennials become fascinatingly entangled [...] offers us a panoramic view of mingled desires, fears, and joys that will be familiar to readers of Eliot and Austen, but [Mathews] does them one better: her novel is about an underrepresented first-generation immigrant, and it’s incredibly gay.”Los Angeles Review of Books

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Just couldn’t get into it

There are many things one could say about this book. The majority of the time the protagonist seems to have nothing but angst. It seems to be the only emotion that’s felt within the book whatsoever.

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Fabulous

Loved this book. It had great character develop, plot line and awesome narration. Highly recommend.

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Wow!

What a book. Loved the audio version as the reader is amazing with varying accents for different t characters. And the novel is so well written, powerful, dynamic characters and a theme that most of us can relate to.

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That’s not a NJ accent

It was ok. The story isn’t the most captivating. The New Jersey accent of the narrator was terrible!

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It was…….

Hard to get through, a lot of the time…some beautiful moments, even witty and funny ones. Overall though, it was tough to hang there with it. Didn’t much like the ending and felt the characters could have gone in so many different directions!

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I must have misunderstood the reviews

Soooooo well done. Beautifully written. Relevant, remarkable story but not darkly funny AT ALL.
dark not funny and very very good

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Belabored coming of age

While the story had many interesting characters enter into the mix, it was overall not a pleasant read. It was difficult to bond with the main character

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touching, beautifully written, and amazing

I don't think I've ever read a book that made me reflect on my own experience as a 1st gen immigrant more than this book. I listened to it twice over the course of a 3-day road trip and both times came away heart in tatters but in the best way.

I highly highly highly recommend it.

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Generational

Perhaps is genirational difference but I found S selfish and self-absorbed. Story deals with real issues and message is good but S is not the person through which I could view or omagine the world.

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A beautiful and haunting story

I don’t normally leave reviews but I feel more people could benefit from reading this book. I feel a great sense of being seen and belonging from the story told, from the depth and density of the characters and their complex inner lives and relationships. It captures so nicely what it felt like to be young and desperate in the early 2010s, the shared struggle a crucible for the relationships you forge during that time, making them strong as tempered steel.

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