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Illicit Desires

By: Ashley James
Narrated by: Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett, Walker Williams
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Crew Collins

The rush of the high. The mind tingling feeling of that first line. This secret of mine has spiraled out of control, but I can’t stop. The drugs fill a void, helping me feel something and nothing all at once.

But him… He makes me feel everything.

Anderson Walker

He’s been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Thick as thieves. Life happened, our friendship has changed. Now I’m left with feelings I don’t know what to do with. There’s more to him hidden beneath the surface.

A dangerous secret.

A deadly obsession.

Love is worth fighting for. And the battle has just begun…

*Illicit Desires is the third book in The Deepest Desires interconnected series. It is a friends to lovers MM romance, and it touches on heavy subjects, such as drug use and overdose.

©2022 Ashley James (P)2024 Pink Flamingo Productions

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Friends to lovers

Crew and Anderson are best friends. Crew has been hiding his drug use even after an accidental overdose. During a camping trip, Anderson and Crew discover that they both have feelings for each other. From there, their relationship grows, but Crew continues to struggle with his addiction. When Anderson finally realizes there’s a problem, he tries to help. However, Crew doesn’t believe he has a problem and leaves. When Crew’s dealer dies in front of him, Crew must either accept that that will be his fate soon or accept the help his friends are offering.

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Anderson and Crew

𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙞𝙜, 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨 𝙥𝙚𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙝𝙚'𝙨 𝙖 𝙙𝙖𝙢𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄'𝙢 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙧𝙚𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙚 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙞𝙢.

Iʟʟɪᴄɪᴛ Dᴇsɪʀᴇs → Ashley James | The Deepest Desires → Book 3
Anderson ~ Crew
🍁🍁🍁🍁

Anderson and Crew have been best friends forever and after going to different colleges, their friendship has changed but when they come back together for summer break, their relationship changes even more.

Anderson and Crew's journey is a wild and, at times, scary one. Anderson is a saint for dealing with and helping Crew with his demons. Their connection is undeniable and their chemistry is off the charts. There are some very heavy topics that need to be taken seriously if certain topics are triggers for the reader.

🎧 Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a great job of giving life to Anderson, Crew and their story.

Get ready for...
🏳️‍🌈 MM
💜 Best Friends
❤️‍🩹 Hurt/Comfort
💜 College
🏳️‍🌈 Sexual Awakening (Bisexual)
🎙️ First-Person, Dual
⚠️ Sensitive Content Present

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Oh my...this was an amazing story

With each installment of the Deepest Desires series Ashley James gets bolder and definitely more explicit. Michael Gallagher is amazing and has been an asset in performing in this title as well as the previous ones...but omg Walker Williams made me feel as if I was inside the head and body of a drug addict...especially one who is going through withdrawals. My heart bled for Crew and I was glad when he and Anderson finally realized their friendship could be more. Also, hearing Sarah Puckett perform as Kate was a delight! I really wish Kate and Weston could get together...whether in a novella or off page it would be great!As always James brought the 🔥🔥...Crew and Anderson will be in my thoughts long after I finish this.

5 stars - I would listen to this again

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Heartbreaking

This story is sooo good. It’s so heartbreaking. You will seethe with anger, cry for the hurt and pain, yell for the injustice and hurt for the things could have been done that weren’t. This whole series was just phenomenal and finished with a bang. The narration was just spot on. Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a wonderful job.

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Crew and Anderson

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I really loved this story. My heart hurt so badly for Crew and what he's gone through, both before and during this book. I loved the way Anderson loved Crew and how he discovered he wasn't so straight after all.

I think this may have been a five star read for me without the other man and woman drama. There's just so much of it, and on both sides too. Both of these men mess up time and time again... But thankfully they find their way back to one another and I loved how their story ended.

The audio was great. I loved the little cameo from Sarah Puckett as Katie, (can she get her own book? Does she have one already?) and Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams both did great jobs narrating the guys.

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Loved this series

Wow, Ashley has done it again. I loved Crew and Anderson's story. It broke my heart everything Crew has gone through. We get to see why he is the way he is. And kind of understand (doesn't excuse it) how he got to be that way. I loved how Anderson stuck through being his friend and what he needed. I will definitely be relistening to this series again.

The narrators were amazing in this. Definitely adding new ones to my top narrators.

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Beautiful conclusion to the series

I love reading about all the boys in this group of friends and Anderson and Crew have the most complex story. They have to go through a bi-awakening, cheating, lies and trauma and it’s a roller coaster as the listener. The whole time I was rooting for these two and didn’t want the story to end because that meant the end of the Deepest Desires series. Overall a beautiful story and if you enjoyed the other two books this is definitely a must buy.

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Illicit Desires

Illicit Desires is the third book in The Deepest Desires series. This is Crew and Anderson's book. Check your TW, this book talks heavily on substance abuse. Anderson is Aston's twin brother. Crew and Anderson have been best friends since they were young. Crew lived a very lonely life. Crew's parents were never around. They were either always working or of taking vacations. Anderson was the only constant person in Crew's life. This is a best friend to lovers MM romance.

Michael Gallagher and Walker Williams did a fantastic job narrating these two characters. Sarah Puckett did a fantastic job as well with her cameo in this book.

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A poignant exploration of addiction

This audiobook is the concluding part of The Deepest Desires series, and it features powerful narration by Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett, and Walker Williams. The story revolves around Crew and Anderson, who start as friends and eventually fall in love. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful MM romance that explores the complexities of love alongside the harrowing realities of addiction. The narration adds depth to the raw and compelling storyline, painting a vivid picture of their friendship that blossoms into something more amidst adversity. The story is a poignant exploration of the darkness of addiction and the redemptive power of love, made even more impactful through the emotive performances of Gallagher, Puckett, and Williams. It's a heart-wrenching yet beautiful finale that leaves a lasting impression.

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Love Crew and Anderson!

Illicit Desires is the emotional story of Crew and Anderson and the obstacles they face to get their happily ever after. It is hot and sexy yet heartbreaking and tragic, with addiction being the focus of this amazing story. Luckily, I have no experience with drug addiction but I feel like stories like these give me a better understanding of how addiction happens and the struggles addicts go through to overcome their addiction. I was not familiar with Ashley James before listening to this book but now I can’t wait to listen to the entire series. Michael Gallagher, Sarah Puckett and Walker Williams all did a wonderful job bringing this story to life.

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