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Analyzing in freudian style my own life … i’ve finally understood why i am … an idiot. I was mad. … and also sad. I could say that i was actually an emotional cocktail of madness and sadness … but …. I just could not accept it … even if i knew it by few days already. But like all the ones that studied psychology… into a very deep way … i knew to hide all so damn good. On the real scene of life … i was always wearing a very nice emotional mask … and no one really knew what is going on into my soul. But … Well … randomly… there were situations when i was becoming ...

There are many which cannot exist ... outside duality. But i've also realised, even into my private life that actually ... love relationships are too complicated. Someone told me, just after i've finished this book .. "The better you know a person, the closer you are to a separation from him. Knowledge detaches one being from another and cancels the grains of mystery that are in any existence no matter how flat/linear it may be. I think we resist knowing the other for a short time because after that period, his/her presence becomes fatigue and irritation." Maybe i had to hear this, before ...

Truth be told we don’t understand so well the world we live in. And it’s not that we suffer of an absence of intelligence… but because we don’t really have the ability to connect to the universe we are living in. We don’t understand the people that are around us. We can’t really understand their reactions …. their way of being … and in fact … almost nothing. We live in here by so, so many years … but … Well …. we don’t even understand ourselves either … In times of calmness all looks ok … but the second a very little change appears in the parameters that define...

I try to understand the human being, analysing all the souls around myself. Obsessively. Analysing and defining especially the weirdness i see in life. And ... certainly i look weird. Speaking about lots of things which defines the nonsense behind the human behaviour. Even if it is about immorality. Ignoring boundaries. And any type of limit which i should not pass as a writer. Not carrying of anything. Obsessively wanting to understand the dynamic of our behaviour. So ... i continue this philosophical and spiritual journey, but all being in fact a reflection of the need of doing something ...

Daemons are well hided into the unconscious There were many times into my life when all looked perfect. Well … until something happened and the dynamic of all became different. Having again an ugly existence. Even … pathetic. And i was trying and trying and trying to understand what is going on … but … Today i trend to believe that all is related to the fact that me or someone around me access some weird energies. I have the tendency to call them … negative energies, but i am not doing it anymore. All being a story about energies, some of them being beneficial to me … and some ...

I've used to write about addictions ... and I've adored doing it. I did it while being addicted, but also after. Today i smile reading those thoughts, realising that in fact it was all an ... illusion. Unfortunately ... I needed that. And i don't regret it. Yes ... i have absolutely no regret that things happened, the way happened. Meanwhile ... i am smiling ... reading those thoughts from my books with love essays. Many would say ... i was pathetic. At that time i had considered myself ... authentic. I felt that i am not anymore into the illusion of ... normality. But the philosophical ...

Today i think and i feel into a certain way. I write everything down on paper ... and ... Few days later, i read and i laugh of all my thoughts and feelings. And ... i write something different. Is like everything had changed. Totally. Most probably ... that is happening again and again. Yeah ... now ... i say something. Tomorrow ... something different. Then ... the day after tomorrow something totally different. Looking and actually acting like a person with serious problems of personality or even with ... mental problems. All being so damn illusory. And ... The show goes on. I keep ...

The book is trying to define the beautiful and the dark side from a man and a woman, that are in love of each other, but not as theory ... but as a result of analyzing facts that are happening on the timeline of the love story. It’s a book about a fairy tale, with 2 lovely characters that are not understanding, but also are not accepting that the meaning of an abstract love ... or an imposible story is to enjoy only the beauty of what is going on. The 2 people from the essays get lost so many times, that not even the people around them can’t see if the story itself is real or not. But ...

Beautiful soul. Sad face. Unhappy human. I look at them. But all look unhappy to me. And i start to wonder what is going on. Also ... what is really the difference between sadness and unhappiness. Unfortunately ... i can't clearly understand. Not yet. I believe i know it ... but it is not true. My mind is full with illusory thoughts. Then i see her. I look at her amazing charm. And i penetrate ... her beautiful soul. ... wondering as an idiot why such a sad face ... and unhappy human being. Cause ... all is illogical. Unfortunately ... this is life. For ugly souls... but also for beautiful ...

Still dreaming to be free If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations. The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming. If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5. The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free. Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do. The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he ...

All my writings are kind of a … self therapy And i was writing on and on and on …. defining my feelings and thoughts … But it was a little bit funny realizing the contradiction between what i thought, what i felt deep inside of my soul … and how i was acting on the stage of life. … analyzing and defining myself … the one that i thought i was … deep into my soul … and the one from the outside world … i was realizing it’s such a huge difference. And still … i was trying to be better … but all i was doing was … pretending … on and on and on. But why?! Why … this ...

I had no idea about the fact that life is a lot related with the energies beyond ourselves. The ones generated by our ideas, thoughts, feelings ... and in fact all is in our heart ... or mind. I was not aware of the influences came from this side ... not even thinking for a second that soon ... all these energies will be metamorphosed into ... dominance. And i continued my life like that for years. ... having no idea what the nonsense is. Believing ... it's real ... ... and also that its appearance on the scene of life... it's normal. ... us not being able to do anything against that. There...

I had in mind to write the book “I was the prisoner … but also the guardian” … as the desire of revealing the truth about the prison where i was living … by a long, long time. But i did not knew how to define … better. I was not understanding completely the subject … and i’ve tried so, so much to clarify with myself … what it’s wrong …. Suddenly… one day … i’ve realized … that i was just pretending i did not knew why my life was looking that way. I felt like a prisoner of a reality with i hated … but i was not seeing the guardians … any of them. And the ...

Analyzing my own writings … i’ve realized that i was writing lots of books with love essays, but i was afraid of using the word … sex. Most probably i was not writing about it … at all … which is indeed a nonsense, cause the things are very well interconnected. Today … i look around myself … analyzing again and again … the connection between woman and man … trying to understand the meaning … studying the purpose of the connection … and realize that many of us see in that … a therapy … a way of healing ourselves. Well … analyzing more …i’ve came to the ...

Between a lie and the real truth ... we'll always prefer the lie. The human being is ... illogical. It always was .... and will always be. Allowing ... the nonsense to dominate all the time. Somehow ... is a paradox. But in the real life ... we paint so, so nicely the lies ... into an abstract way .... that we might even believe all is ... good. I've believed the same. ... many, many times. Obviously ... ignoring or rejecting the real truth. And ... i try to understand myself. See ... the logic of my behaviour. Unfortunately ... all is a total nonsense. I just prefer ... the lies. ...

We always try to understand our thoughts and emotions regarding the relationships we are involved in. And so many times … we fail in interpreting the meaning behind all what is going on. We simple don’t understand it. We believe it’s a love story … or even the love story of our lives …. or a very good friendship … but it always has an ugly end. And damn it … it was the perfect case scenario of a connection between 2 souls. The meaning of all what happened …. becomes a nonsense. Someone that used to be a good friend … or a soul mate if it’s about a love story … becomes ...

Sometimes we see life ... weird. But there are times when we also see it in a beautiful way. This balance will always be there. I became a writer, by writing simple quotes on my phone. Writing on and on and on. I was meditating a lot ... what life is about ... and in fact ... what my life actually means. After almost 3 years i started to look to all those thoughts ... which were simple ideas ... but were mine. There were defining me. And i became deeper and deeper. I was exploring all my thoughts and feelings. Today ... reading again all those things i wrote ... i just smile. I see the ...

Truth be told we want an over night change in our lifes. There are many moments when the actual reality is very difficult to handle and looks like we have no escape at all. We dream of a quatum jump, even if we dont understand the concept very well. In few words, the reality sucks and we dream of a life that we will never have, because deep inside us, we dont really believe we will ever meet this reality. We have a fake attitude that we are looking for change, but this attitude is just a mask for our fears... as them not to be seen. So we wonder today if there is a way of how our lifes can ...

Rule number 1 in … self therapy. Whatever happens …. happens for a reason …. but it’s never what it looks like. Even if we agree … or not. A very wise thing which i realised by the passing of time is that i should accept all what happens into my life … cause there are certainly things which i don’t clearly understand …. and most probably i won’t be able to do it so very soon. “Thinking like Freud” …. is a way of expressing my influence to the public … of following the path of a so called self therapy … and always keep in mind that we should analyse and define all...

Have you even asked yourself why so many people in this world are living an unhappy life?! But what about you?! Are you a happy person ... or not?! And if not ... have you ever thought why?! Is just a simple question, same as you would ask yourself why you don’t know skying ... if you never took lessons for that?! You see ... truth be told ... in school we’ve learnt lots of things, including complicated math formulas, languages that we will never use in life, chemistry issues that will not serve us with nothing etc etc ... but no one ever bothered to teach us at least a short list with ...