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I have this obsession of writing about love relationships and the weird algorithms which are defining the dynamic of such a story. And ... i do it by years. Writing my own life experiences ... being obviously that i am actually defining the nonsense in its absolute form. So ... i keep writing ... all being sort of a journal. Any new day ... is a new experience ... and i allow my soul to be part of that. Many believe ... i am already insane ... cause any story is about love and hate, not being so clear if i actually love or ... hate that woman. But ... yes ... i am confused. So ... as a ...

Defining the connection … that sometimes looked like illusory … i’ve realised it all became a concert … of complains. I’ve wrote a lot about … defining … and its importance so that we could have a beautiful existence. In fact i do believe … and that’s my main message that analysing and defining with honesty all we like and dislike … we could reach a point when we could actually redefine our lives … into a better way. And this theory could be available into any of the areas of our lives. In our careers, with our friends … and even into a love story. The only real ...

4 questions kept repeating into my mind, for a long, long time ... and i've decided to write the book called "Connection ... not connections" .... as a reply ... first of all for myself. Yes ... I prefer to write ... cause is a much better way to understand my perceptions. .... and i already do it by a long time, all being soft of a self therapy ... defining all my thoughts... even if most of them are so, so contradictory... The number one question is what the hell is this weird concept called ... connection?! ... and what is its meaning?!Well ... more i think about it ... i become more and...

Disconnect ... connect ... disconnect again ... re connect ... seen as a circle of life. I try to understand life. But ... it's probably an illusory desire. Most probably ... the real truth is that i want to know how can i totally disconnect from all what means negativity. Totally disconnect from .... unhappiness ... and all what makes me feel ... depressed. .... my anger, my frustrations, my envy, my jealousy, my .... all this large spectrum of negative feelings and emotions. And ... i keep meditating. I keep ... exploring. I pretend i want to know what this universe is ... but all i want ...

"And on the days you don't know what to choose ... choose your mental health..." Days are passing and i become aware that my mental health is worse and worse. I pretend all is ok. But ... i guess all is obvious. I try to disconnect from the world i am living in. I try to hide the truth. Most certainly ... i've lost control on myself by a long, long time ... but i try to delay that all to become obvious for everyone. Unfortunately .... It is late. I've ignored too much ... all those details whispering that i am into a non-ending journey on a pathless path. Or maybe i should say pathless ...

His love Her fantasy ... understanding what love is about As a man, but also as a woman, we try to define the undefined from a love story. Dreaming about love and being in love ... the path from the fantasy to the love story itself ... is just a matter of luck ... or maybe where you find yourself, on the timeline of your own life. Maybe is the perfect time for you to explore what love is about, or maybe other things are important at the moment ... and the love story can only be a future “project”. Exploring what love is about ... in our minds, as a fantasy ... or in the real life, as a ...

Truth be told, by thousands of years the human being pays a lot of attention to what we call ... the mouth of the world. Today ... we politely say that ... yes ... is indeed important as others sees us. The garbage man is interested about that. The cleaning lady. But also ... the president or the king of the country. Somehow, for a weird reason, difficult to be defined, are extremely important for us all those perceptions, even if we can't clearly understand why. Unfortunately, soon after ... the influences of all those opinions change the dynamic of all. Yes. The way we act. The way we ...

When i was a child, being alone the most part of the day ... i felt life is boring. So ... i've chased for something to improve things, but i had no idea what i am looking for. Later on ... I've defined this period of my life as the beginning of starting to practice the art of doing stupid things. And ... no matter how young i was, i was aware of all what i was doing. Fortunately or unfortunately ... between a boring existence and a crazy one ... I preferred to feel alive. I simple hate to feel ... bored. Be a zombie. Today ... being into my middle age era ... i realised that somehow i've ...

And one day .... you see no difference between your world and the life in North Korea ... but you don’t know why When i began to study the nonsense ... i realized that ... behind the nonsense there is a path that we can’t see. When i say nonsense ... i mean all our silly actions ... or thoughts. We live in a robotic way ... and even if we are not happy in the present moment ... we just continue everything in the same way ... on and on and on. One day, we even start to believe that we live in a prison ... or prisons. The job is a prison. The marriage is a prison. Everything around ... is...

We have the chance … but also the duty … to play lots of roles during this life time. We like some of those roles… and maybe even adore it … but also dislike many of the things we have to do .. as actors on the stage of reality. If i would analyse myself into an honest way … i would even dare to say that i played one million roles …. being an angel … but also many times … a devil. Like all the others …. i’ve played so, so contradictory roles … that into the end … i would not even know how to define myself …. So … was i a good person?! Or was i … a bad person?! ...

We speak so, so much about connections …. but …. maybe the real truth is that we most probably have no idea what that is. I’ve been meditating a lot on the subject … but the only thing i can honestly declare is that … i had one million perceptions about the subject … but could not reach the absolute truth. All my ideas … were simple perceptions… and nothing more. I’ve imagined the connection itself as a … bridge … between souls. Then … as a flame. Later on … simple as the beauty of being together. But later on …. I’ve realised that the connection is more about ...

I think during my lifetime … i’ve been annoyed one million times. I was annoyed of lots of people and the circumstances created by them … and many times … my reactions were really ugly. I’ve blamed everyone. On and on and on. And even if i knew that it was all a reflection … when it came about my own life … i was blind and could not accept such a theory. I was living 2 parallel lives … one where i was a theoretician that is analyzing and defining life …. and one living on the scene of my real life … where i was ignoring all i was doing in the first life. It was a total ...

Ugly events ... are always karmic ... and simple represent life lessons ... unfortunately too difficult to be digested. I had times into my life ... when all was collapsing around myself. All ... all ... I could not believe it. I was living ... a non ending nightmare. I was waking up ... and first thing i was doing was to ask myself ... what the hell is going to happen to me again. Bottomline ... it was horrible. And ... i could not stand it anymore. But ... unfortunately... i could not stop those ugly energetic waves around myself. I was meditating ... asking myself ... why?! I was even ...

Into a world where counts a lot … all what is going on the scene of reality … nobody bothers to ask why the hell things are happening the way they are happening. We just live the scenarios which are happening everyday … and even if are intrigued about many of the things … we don’t dare to ask … who controls all the energies beyond each individual present in there. We find … almost normal … all what happens … no matter if it is of negative or positive impact … but … We still have many moments of being annoyed …. of this so called … life. We don’t agree with what ...

“Parallel lives … a way of enjoying our fantasies” … might sound as a title of a book that reveals … immoral facts. But i haven’t defined … only that. I’ve dared to go deeper into a journey of analyzes … as a very simple … ordinary person … that dreams about lots of … fantasies. Love … fantasies. … spiritual. … sexual. … financial. But … all was about … an amazing reality that had nothing to do with my present moment. Cause … yes … maybe the first step is … to allow ourselves to dream … and have any kind of fantasy. … no matter what it is about.

Analyzing in freudian style my own life … i’ve finally understood why i am … an idiot. I was mad. … and also sad. I could say that i was actually an emotional cocktail of madness and sadness … but …. I just could not accept it … even if i knew it by few days already. But like all the ones that studied psychology… into a very deep way … i knew to hide all so damn good. On the real scene of life … i was always wearing a very nice emotional mask … and no one really knew what is going on into my soul. But … Well … randomly… there were situations when i was becoming ...

There are many which cannot exist ... outside duality. But i've also realised, even into my private life that actually ... love relationships are too complicated. Someone told me, just after i've finished this book .. "The better you know a person, the closer you are to a separation from him. Knowledge detaches one being from another and cancels the grains of mystery that are in any existence no matter how flat/linear it may be. I think we resist knowing the other for a short time because after that period, his/her presence becomes fatigue and irritation." Maybe i had to hear this, before ...

Truth be told we don’t understand so well the world we live in. And it’s not that we suffer of an absence of intelligence… but because we don’t really have the ability to connect to the universe we are living in. We don’t understand the people that are around us. We can’t really understand their reactions …. their way of being … and in fact … almost nothing. We live in here by so, so many years … but … Well …. we don’t even understand ourselves either … In times of calmness all looks ok … but the second a very little change appears in the parameters that define...

I try to understand the human being, analysing all the souls around myself. Obsessively. Analysing and defining especially the weirdness i see in life. And ... certainly i look weird. Speaking about lots of things which defines the nonsense behind the human behaviour. Even if it is about immorality. Ignoring boundaries. And any type of limit which i should not pass as a writer. Not carrying of anything. Obsessively wanting to understand the dynamic of our behaviour. So ... i continue this philosophical and spiritual journey, but all being in fact a reflection of the need of doing something ...

"I have nothing to say ... and i am saying it" I am ... writing. Yes ... i keep writing. I keep .... expressing myself ... even if many of the things i write .. are actually a clear evidence of the ... nonsense ... which is dominating my whole existence. Yes ... i keep writing ... doing it as a self therapy ... which i need a lot. It's sort of a ... treatment. I do it everyday. Day ... by day. And days are passing ... then weeks ... then months ... but nothing improves. No ... Life still continues ... as a story about the nonsense into its absolute form. So ... i keep expressing myself ... ...