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Publisher's Summary

Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn’t. 

He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. 

Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. 

I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there....

I loved Cutler Ryder since the first moment I saw him. 

The only problem? He never knew I existed.  

©2020 Tijan (P)2020 Tijan

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Teary-eyed.

I don’t think I’ve ever written much of a book review and I am not sure how far I will go with this. I hate when people ruin the experience by giving away too much in the review. Therefore, I will simply say that I loved it. Anyone that ever picked up a Tijan book know that between the pages there’s a lot to unpack. It took me a bit longer to finish this book because my emotions were on major overload. I am not sure if it was the narration but I cried and I laughed out load a few times. In my humble opinion, get the book you will not be disappointed. The characters are amazing, the narration is superb and the story/plot/resolution ibeautiful. It was a credit well spent. I believe you will feel something and maybe even learn something.. I did!

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couldn't finish

listen if you are in your early 20's this will amazing, if you are over 30 you'll hate it. I was 40 minutes in and between her constant rambling of her thoughts and her saying "lite o Meter" I almost ran into a wall head first.

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Five Fuoway Stars. I Floved it

You’ll understand the book title, and my star rating title when you listen to this wonderful story. Wow! I am so in awe of Tijan. This audio completely blew me away. A wonderfully addictive college romance (and beyond). Dealing with some real issues in such a sensitive and realistic and funny way. I loved Cheyenne, she was so real, she was perfectly flawed, and her thoughts kept a smile on my face (mostly). Cutler Ryder, well what can I say? He was the bomb. He was caring, he was true, and he was my perfect book boyfriend. He was the perfect partner for Cheyenne. He got her. He calmed her. He understood her, well, as much as she understood herself. I wanted to go right back to the beginning and start this book again.I knows it will stay with me for a long, long time to come. It’s a bold statement, but it’s possibly Tijan’s best book yet. I loved it that much. Narrated by Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke who, I must say, were more than perfect for the roles of Cut and Cheyenne. All the emotions, and all the feels. One of my favourite audios, ever!

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What an outstanding book!

I love the characters in this book. You could feel their personalities. Cheyenne was such a strong character, you have to love her. Cut was so swoon worthy! Fantastic writing. Yes, its a romance, but this book is so much more!

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Such a great story

The story makes you have the main character in your heart, through her struggles and her courage it makes you root for her from the start. I really enjoyed this story, it was worth the credit

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Will the “REAL TIJAN

please “STAND UP?” Characterization was awful! Way too many characters and no depth to any! Only Andi is the reason I kept listening. Jason Clarke was the WRONG pick for THIS audio. Tijan’s reasoning for not telling us what Cheyenne suffers from, panic attacks, borderline personality, bipolar disorder, histrionic disorder, Peter Pan Syndrome or a schizo-affective disorder made her unbearable!! I spent the entire audio trying to figure out what she suffered from so that I could empathize with her. In the acknowledgments, Tijan writes that she didn’t want to label Cheyenne, that Cheyenne was just, Cheyenne. That’s pure BS! Not knowing what was going on in her head and what medication she was taking her took away from how awesome the story could have been. Sorry Tijan, this was not a hit; it was mess! P.S. Could you please branch out narrator wise? I will never listen to Jillian Macie or Terese Plummer EVER again so I returned them. Andi’s my number one, Maxine Mitchell, Emily Woo Zeller, Angela Dawe, Sonja Field, Jessica Almasy, Jill Redfield and Amanda Ronconi! Top chicks & they don’t need male counterparts, they all can do many different voices, accents and male characters as well!

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Amazing!

The is a beautifully written book. The characters are out of this world and you connect with Cheyenne instantly. Cut is perfect in every way! Just like every Tijan book, you get sucked in!

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New to me author

Wow! This book had an impact on me. I went in totally blind. New to me author. Literally had no idea what I was getting into... all I did was listen to one of my favorite book pushers and she was ON POINT! I had so many feelings on this book that it really isn't even something I can talk too much about. I am usually not one for trigger warnings but I feel like this one could use one regarding the anxiety that Cheyenne deals with. She has some panic attacks during this book. I only say that because the author writes them so well that I actually started to feel a bit of an anxiety attack too... and then I felt so drained after! So REALLY great writing! And Cut was just everything.... super swoony to the max! I could have read so much more about these 2. The narration was excellent! Same comments about the anxiety attacks.... Andi did such a fantastic job of describing them and bringing them to life that I was totally feeling it! And Jason is ... well 🔥 so basically perfect for Cutler! I am so in love with this author and her writing that I have gotten a bunch of other books and I plan on getting into them as soon as I can. I am a fan!

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Beautiful characters!

Such a beautiful story of how one person lives such a full life with mental struggles. Tijan masterfully modeled this character into such a loving person who wasn’t allowed to live in a healthy environment. Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke were perfect as always!

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Couldn’t stop listening

This book veered away from the typical hot, rich guy falls for unsuspecting naive girl and gave a glimpse of a different kind of struggle. I really enjoyed it.

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  • Angela ~ Jezabell Girl & Friends
  • 01-19-21

What a story ❤️

Words couldn’t do this book justice so I’m not going to try to review it. Needless to say, the story has all the feels and leaves you with happiness and hope in your heart.

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  • Sarah
  • 01-17-21

One of best tijan books!

🎧 AUDIO REVIEW 🎧 AUDIO - 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 BOOK - 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 Wow I tijan books but this one was amazing. I loved cut from the beginning the way he got facts before he called it and the way he took to Chey. Chemistry, connection, trauma, medical issues. This book has everything!

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  • Anna W
  • 01-02-21

Love ❤️

This book is soooo good! The approach to mental illness, the possessiveness and sweetness of the hero, the friendships! Just so so good!! Special love of mama Alice and Juna Narration perfection - both my absolute favourite narrators.... Going to listen again now to ease the book hangover!

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  • Wizzerwoogie
  • 12-27-20

this book was really really hard going,

I persevered and was determined to finish it but I was also glad to get to the end very disappointed. The only saving grace was the fact that 2 of the absolute best narrator's were at the helm delivering yet another fantastic performance

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  • LilleyLoohLah
  • 12-26-20

Five Fuoway Stars. I Floved it

You’ll understand the book title, and my star rating title when you listen to this wonderful story. Wow! I am so in awe of Tijan. This audio completely blew me away. A wonderfully addictive college romance (and beyond). Dealing with some real issues in such a sensitive and realistic and funny way. I loved Cheyenne, she was so real, she was perfectly flawed, and her thoughts kept a smile on my face (mostly). Cutler Ryder, well what can I say? He was the bomb. He was caring, he was true, and he was my perfect book boyfriend. He was the perfect partner for Cheyenne. He got her. He calmed her. He understood her, well, as much as she understood herself. I wanted to go right back to the beginning and start this book again.I knows it will stay with me for a long, long time to come. It’s a bold statement, but it’s possibly Tijan’s best book yet. I loved it that much. Narrated by Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke who, I must say, were more than perfect for the roles of Cut and Cheyenne. All the emotions, and all the feels. One of my favourite audios, ever!

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  • 01-11-21

Brilliant

An absolute must read! I started out not liking it, because it triggered me, my own childhood and her struggles, but I couldn't stop listening and crying. I also see my husband a whole new way for him accepting and anchoring me like Cut. Thank you, this has healed a part of me that I didn't realise was so raw.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 01-13-21

Great story

This book is amazing. I love the characters and narrators. The story was very well written and was such an easy and enjoyable listen. The story was the perfect length, perfect rise and falls and so much depth to the characters. Loved it ! Would listen to it again

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  • Gemz16
  • 01-10-21

Meh

Better than some of this authors other books. It was ok, it at least made sense and the characters were likeable enough. Narrators were great.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 01-09-21

Beautiful

Shine you are amazing what a fab character. As always Tijan delivers The narrators are perfect Highly recommend

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  • Felicity
  • 12-31-20

FANTASTIC

This was an amazing story. In the acknowledgement section, Tijan wrote that this book was different from the previous books she has written, and it is, but it is still just as amazing as her previous books. I have always loved reading books written by Tijan and this is no exception. This book isn't just focused on the romance, but it is also focused on life struggles and events that can have different reactions with everyone. Cheyenne was such a great character with situations in her life that she definitely didn't deserve, and yet, after it all she still dealt with her situations, no matter how hard, and came out still swinging. This is definitely a book I would recommend to you if you think you would like this, because if you decide to read this then you will definitely love it just as much as I did. I listened to this as an audiobook and loved both the amazing narration and the whole storyline. I hope you decide to read (or listen to) this, Enjoy!

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  • Heidi Budd
  • 12-22-20

fantastic

Narrative was fantastic, thank you Tijan for another winner. athlete will never be a time when we tire of reading what you write.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 12-21-20

Great!

I really enjoyed this book by Tijan, truly not disappointed! I loved the characters especially Cutler, it was really interesting to go on this journey with a character like Cheyenne and hear her story. The Narration was GREAT, anything with Jason Clarke is a favourite of mine!

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  • Tanya
  • 12-18-20

Amaze balls

First off let me just say WOW WOW WOW...this book was so beautifully written it made you feel like you were right there experiencing everything with Cheyenne and cut....I loved it and didn’t get sick of or lost in the descriptions of what was happening. This has now been skyrocketed right up to my top fav Tijan book...seriously she is such an amazing author I’m so thankful I found her books.