Shades of Darkness

Trials of Fear, Book 2

By: Nicky James

Narrated by: Adam Gold

Length: 11 hrs and 6 mins

Publisher's summary

Six years ago, an unforeseen incident turned Rory Gallagher’s life upside down. Now, he lives in darkness, fearing the sun, fearing light altogether. Rory has developed Heliophobia. As a creature of the night, Rory has learned to adapt to his unusual lifestyle. He draws comfort from shadows and safety from the nighttime hour. 

Unfortunately, his mind is the darkest place of all, and the one place he can’t seem to escape. 

Finding help isn’t easy, but when Rory registers with a local, 24-hour counseling center, the man he meets surprises him in more ways than one. Young psychology student, Adrian Anderson, is Rory’s complete opposite. How will this smart, preppy, do-gooder ever get through to the man with a chip on his shoulder who has learned to hate the world? 

It doesn’t take long for Rory to discover they have something horrific in common. Despite rules and regulations, this sad detail helps them form a bond neither of them expected. Could Adrian be the shining light Rory needs to dispel the darkness for good?

©2018 Nicky James (P)2020 Nicky James

Powerful and Raw

Phobia: an extreme or irrational fear or an aversion to something
Heliophobia: a fear of the sun, sunlight, or any other bright lights

Before I listen to a Nicky James audio, I gird my loins (in a manner of speaking). I know I’m going to be challenged. I know I’m going to have to think, feel, endure, and then rejoice. I know these things and I like to think I’m prepared. Ha. This talented author always finds a way to knock me on my tush.

Shades of Darkness was no different than her other audios. And I can’t say enough good things about the book.

The second in the Trials of Fear series, the book is about a man who fears the light, and the man he’ll face that fear for.

First let me say that this book made me uncomfortable. I don’t want to give too much away, but I will say there is a lot of mentioning of bullying, as well as on the page stuff. My heart was in my throat for pretty much the entire eleven hours. Most people won’t have that visceral reaction, I think, but those of us who endured bullying as a child or teenager (or even as an adult) might have a strong reaction. I know I did. And that made the book all the more powerful to me. And my feeling of pride and euphoria when I got to the end was ever sweeter.

Rory lives in darkness. His story, when finally revealed, broke my heart. Not that I ever doubted his reasons for avoiding light, but when I heard the whole story…well, punch to the gut. I have light sensitivity and often need sunglasses on cloudy days, but that has to do with my eyes, not my mind. Seeing things from Rory’s perspective put a whole new spin on the light.

Adrian is a psychology student about to start his Master’s program. He gets top grades but it’s never good enough for his neurosurgeon father. After all, a doctorate in psychology is not the same as a medical doctor. No matter how many accolades Adrian receives, it’ll never be good enough. Also a scenario I can relate to.

Rory is lucky that his friend Crew cares about him. Enough to push him to call a counseling center. But with his inability to tolerate even the smallest amount of light, he believes getting help is impossible. That is until a brave man offers to come over to his apartment. And although the first meeting doesn’t go well, both men are willing to try again. When Adrian is the recipeint of his roommates’ cruel prank, Rory’s protective instincts go into overdrive, even though he barely knows Adrian.

Soon the men admit they have feelings and that compromises Adrian on a professional level. So what to do? Rory has finally found someone he can share with, but is the physical attraction enough to give up what little progress has been made? Well, this IS a romance so the answer was pretty obvious. I liked that there wasn’t much skirting of the line. Being involved with a patient is not okay. Both men can acknowledge that. Doesn’t mean Adrian won’t keep pushing, though, and it doesn’t mean Rory won’t dig in his heels.

Slowly their tenuous friendship develops into more. Both men are lonely and here’s an opportunity to connect with someone. To find solace. To share intimacy. And, of course, I was rooting for them all the way. But how can someone in the dark be with someone who is in the light? And is physical intimacy enough or do they have to own up to their emotional bond as well?

When it looks like Adrian is about to be the victim of a vicious prank, Rory tries to be there for him. That day is a turning point for both men. I have to admit, I had to stop and start the audio a couple of times. As authors we are told to take the worst-case scenario and then make it happen. Put our characters through the unimaginable. Make them suffer. In the end, if they survive, it makes their victory all the sweeter. So, yeah, I was cheering through the last few scenes in the book. My relief was palpable.

Have I scared you away? I hope not. This book had a profound impact on me in all the good ways. I did, as I knew I would, think, feel, endure, and rejoice. This is one of my all-time favorite books. It competes with Ms. James’ other books that I loved: Love Me Whole, No Regrets, New Beginnings: Abel’s Journey, and Owl’s Slumber. She handles mental illness with grace, always giving her characters dignity. As someone who suffers from a mental illness, I appreciate her portrayals. Her characters are rarely ‘cured’ at the end of the book. For them, like for me, it’s a chronic condition. It impacts my life, but it doesn’t dictate how I live that life. I have found my own form of happiness. and so have her characters.

On a final note, I want to mention the narration of Adam Gold. He’s narrated all of Ms. James’ books and I’m so grateful. He is amazingly talented and his performance was incredible. In case you can’t tell, I highly recommend this book.

outstanding

Having read Shades of Darkness a while back, it was great to visit with Rory and Adrian again.

Story: In this book we meet Rory Gallagher who lives in the darkness. He has a fear of light in all forms, which now rules his life. After his best friend's insistence, he contacts a 24hour counselling centre and meets Adrian Anderson, a psychology student.
Nicky James writes mental health books like no other author. She not only entertains with her books, but educates as well. I always feel like I'm wrung dry after her books. She writes about sensitive topics, that others shy away from, with the respect that they deserve. Nicky James writes from the heart and always takes me on a journey of discovery.

Narration: Adam Gold did an phenomenal job bringing the characters to life. It was easy to identify the voices of each character. The narration was expressive and I felt that Adam Gold captured the emotions of the story beautifully.
I know the author was worried that the narrator wouldn't encapsulate Krew's character, but hearing Krew, this is exactly how I imagined him in my head.

Another "gold-en" performance!!!

Worth every minute

I have to say that Nicky James is a new author to me but once I read one book, I became obsessed and am now on the final book. I do recommend you start with book one and read in order for this series to get the best experience. I also want to give a shout out to Adam Gold he hands down nailed it, and brought each and every character to life.
With this second book so far is my favorite of the series, I’m usually not a fan of bullying but this book doesn’t over due it but there’s enough that gives it a “real life” effect. Rory is an isolated loner due to his phobia and only has one true friend named Krew that seeks help for his “friend with benefits “ to conquer his fear and get back to normal life. Arian is new to the field of psychology and on his way to getting a high degree while working his first job full-time in the summer. He lives on campus with three others in the same dorm, that happen to be his current bully’s as of four years. Being new to the job he has to take the shift available which happens to be overnights to a 24 hr clinic. Adrian and Rory meet and there relationship and struggles start there. This is an amazing story and worth the time and credit! Enjoy!!

PS on another note, another Nicky James book that is highly recommend outside of the trial of fears series is “Love me whole”. This is the actual book that got me hooked on Nicky and Adam Gold. give it a go if interested!

1st Adam Gold listen

Adam's narration is exceptional! Everything about it was crazy good. Anger, scared, passionate, even being a prick was all on point. I'm a fan! And I love Nicky James writing. She's a one click for me and this was one of her best ☆☆☆☆☆

Really Good

This was an excellent story but at times was really hard. Rory's experiences with bullying was heartbreaking and I just wanted to fold him in a protective hug. And having Aiden, whose own experiences gave him such empathy, come along to draw him out made my heart happy. Adam Gold is a fantastic narrator and he really brings these characters to life.

Loved it!

4.5

I just loved this one. Deals with bullying and the fear of the sun. Adrian was adorable and sweet, and Rory just breaks my heart with how hard he falls for him as the perpetual loner.

amazing!

I loved Shades of Darkness! Each book in this series has been amazing and Adam Gold does an amazing job each and every time!

Narrator and author are a stellar duo

When you pair the writing of Nicky James and the narration gifts of Adam Gold the result is an outstanding audiobook. This one is no exception. Deep emotions, a paralyzing phobia and unrelenting bullying provide a rich listening experience. Don’t miss this one.

Pretty good, not as good as the 1st one

I really really enjoyed the first book in the series (Owls slumber), but this one didn't do it for me. The narration was great, but the plot line wasn't the best. The phobia to me just seemed so unrealistic and I didn't get the emotional reaction as I did with the first one.

👓🍹 I totally recommend!👓🍹

Adrian and Rory's story is different to say the least. Two people in need of each other to bring them to life, away from the darkness that others' hate pulled them into. And in case of Rory that is literally the way he was living his life. It was creative the way the author gave reasons for his condition. I was caught off guard. I did not see that one coming. There were many moments of surprises in their story. I was completely at awe with the way the narrator read their story. All the characters' voices were unique. He performed an amazing job. That brought this amazing story life. I so highly recommend. Enjoy! 👓🍹

shades of darkness

wow another brilliant book all of this series are ❤️ breaking ,emotional, 🔥 hot what more could you ask for. the narrater was excellent 👌. wow 👌.

Another stunning audio sensation

just wow. I love this series and Adam Gold is an amazing narrator!! now on to book 3!! woop!

Love this series so much

This series is one of my absolute favourites. Hearing what some people go through with phobias is heartbreaking.
I know these books are works of fiction but wow they seem so real especially with the amazing voice talent of Adam Gold.
I will definitely be back for more.

Almost impossible to imagine

Every time I listen to/read one of this author’s stories I say it’s the best and yet again the next time I have to say this story grabbed me for different reasons. This author has the ability to take a character, give them such a description that I feel this story has to be real and then drags me through such emotional highs and lows, I’m exhausted at the end. This series has characters that are taken to their limits and somehow are able to find their way out.
Rory has suffered all his life in one way or another but six years ago a prank done to him was life threatening. He has such a fear that his bff convinces him to talk to a therapist.
Adrian has had more than his share of being bullied. His being gay has sent him to a college far away from everything he knew. The problem is that bullying followed him. His current roommates have done really mean things to him and they keep getting worse. The problem is his dad is paying for his housing and doesn’t listen. Things get out of hand and he is cornered trying to figure out how to deal with it. He starts a job that brings him into contact with Rory. From there the attraction grows until both are forced to deal with their issues.
This story is told in such a fashion is it easy to picture all these awful happenings as they occur. I have found few author’s that have the ability to bring characters and situations to life as well as this one can. I think Adam Gold’s narration did a good job representing these characters. I would highly recommend this series.

Stunning story, amazing narrator.

Fantastic story, couldnt put it down, went to bed at 3am😁 Adam Gold is one heck of a narrator, amazing voice range😁 Definitely recommend😘

Gripping Beautiful & Heartbreaking

Nicky James as done a Fantastic job with this book it pulls you in and doesn't let go and Adam Gold is brilliant at bringing these to life as though your there with them. Rory who suffers fear of sunlight and lives in a dark world after an incident in his teenage years and the only friend he has is Krew who's so cute and brilliant encourages him to seek help and he meets Adrian who's a counseller he's adorable but insecure because he is been bullied with who he shares a house with at college and with what Rory went through these two help each other heal with there shared experiences the pain and anguish what they go through makes you cry Brilliant.

so good

this was amazing and wonderful.. sexy and interesting... the narrator did a bang up job with the characters and their emotions and personalities.. plus the dark and the light. i love this series and this book!

Rory and Adrian are life! And Krew ahhh perfect

My sweet, precious Adrian! And my adorable, strong Rory! Oh, and oh! KREW!!!!

This book is one of my favorite in the series and I couldn't wait to finally listen to it on audio - and let me tell you, this was everything and more! Krew isn't the main character but he stole the show every damn time he was on the scene. I don't mind at all, because hey, it's Krew.

The voices were perfect, Adrian was really sweet, Rory just the perfect amount of strongness and cuteness, and Krew with all the sass! Perfectly matching voices. And the way the narrator played with all those little things - he gave us all the emotions perfectly. Just as Nicky wrote the book with the emotions, Adam gave the characters life. They were real. This is how I love my audiobooks- with real emotions in my ear. When I'm able to cry over listening a story, when I'm able to giggle over Krew every time, when I can be there with Adrian and Rory too.

The story itself amazing but with the audio, wow I have no words. Nicky James with Adam Gold is the perfect combination ever.

HIHGLY RECOMMEND THIS AUDIO.

Amazing!

This was an amazing audio. Adam Gold is one of my very favorite narrators because his narrations are just next level. They are almost an immersive experience when listening to him bring books alive. Once again he’s done a wonderful job bringing Nicky James’s words to life. He was so amazing in bringing Rory and Adrian (not to mention Krew) to life for me. Adam Gold hit the many emotional peaks of the story for Rory and Adrian. I could feel the anguish that Rory faced when he wasn’t able to venture out of his house due to his heliophobia; and that Rory faced when bullied by his roommates. This was such an emotionally wonderful read as each man faced their own fears that made them feel trapped. The emotional connection that Rory and Adrian shared together was so moving. My heart broke for Rory for his past, which led him down this six year life without sunlight and then artificial light. The support Adrian provided for him to grow was so touching. I absolutely loved this story and I cannot wait to listen to this whole series come to life!

A-MA-ZING!

Story: From the first minutes, the narration style and the story had me completely hooked! I loved the emotional way the story was told and how raw it all felt. There was no sugarcoating here and the dose of angst was just right!
Second in the series, the book delivers the same quality as part one in terms of writing craft and compelling characters!

Narration: A very soulful, deep voice, that fit the book just right! The characters were easy to tell apart and the performance was flawless.