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Take one former SEAL with a healthy dose of regret....

Nick St. Cloud is living with shame from the one time he let his lust override his sense of honor. He’s haunted by the memory of when he made love to his best friend’s 18-year-old son. The tragic accident that happened that same night has only compounded his guilt. A decade later, he’s doing his best to be there for Charlie’s son, but anything more than that just wouldn’t be right...would it?

Plus, the younger guy who he’s tried to forget....

It’s been 10 years. Ten long years. Does Shaw Michaelson feel bad about having seduced his dad’s best friend? Umm, maybe? Although he could’ve done things differently, Shaw can’t find it within himself to be sorry for the hottest night of his life with the one man he’s never been able to forget. The man he’s patterned every subsequent relationship after...yeah, Shaw totally has a type.

Equals a pair of men who deserve a second chance at a first time.

The two men are living in an uneasy peace within the same small town and circle of friends, being careful not to let the other get close enough to open old wounds. All their walls fall when a stalker begins terrorizing Shaw, sending him running to the one man he knows will keep him safe.

©2019 Susan Hawke (P)2019 Susan Hawke

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Pretty good but mixed feelings

Summary: Nick & Shaw are nice guys who have good friends & run businesses that do well enough they can be philanthropic. They are characters a reader would want to spend time with, even if they zip from kitchen disasters to community volunteering and never look back. It’s an enjoyable story, scaled to one’s tolerance for the creepy actions of the stalker. (I do not watch horror, I will sleep fine. Probably.) It’s just not terribly well thought out or well constructed outside the mystery plot and it sets up readers’ expectations incorrectly. As another installment of the series, Shaw & Nick’s romance works. Read it and have some fun while some creepy stalker does horrible things. (warnings for home invasion & animal death) Despite my guessing the stalker’s ID pretty early, it was still a pretty good tale. If you like the author, you will probably like this well enough. If you like MP’s narration, go ahead and listen. Details: However, there are flaws. Because I ultimately liked Nick & Shaw’s journey these were not fatal flaws for me but they were numerous. Most of the story is set in Shaw’s toy store (did it get named?) or his home. He’s a nice guy and he’s little so all the big guys want him for their little pet boy and he is not interested in that, he just wants to be a man. He does want an older man, but that’s mostly because he’s been crushing on Nick for For Ever. The author’s choices for main characters and setting are weird because there is no part of the plot that requires Nick to have been a SEAL, despite this being a whodunit & Shaw needing some protection. Nick’s… athletic. Ok. But even when we see scenes from his POV, there is nothing about his SEAL training that enters his thoughts beyond keeping fit. He has no mil buddies we see, he has no connection to law enforcement beyond a dating rival, he has no thoughts of weapons or professional risk assessment or contingency planning. Even his buddy system “plan” is just what a decent, buff, friend would do. A job as personal trainer or a regular Navy stint would have been just as good for impact on this book. But if you’re trying to draw in SEAL fans… your character needs to do *something* related to that background. Nick doesn’t. Nick also runs a gay bar with drag nights. Scenes are set there but it’s mostly routine bar stuff. It could have been set it any bar. So I come into a mystery/thriller romance where one protag is a gay bar owning former SEAL - and I got a nice story but no fabulous drag scenes and no action hero. Which would have been fine except why set the scene for fabulous action then move it all to a toy store and a chamber of commerce banquet? Larry/Honey gets a small role but - eh. The story doesn’t capitalize enough on its assets. The other lack of payoff is Shaw’s cooking disasters. They feature heavily in the front half and pretty much disappear from the back half. Again - why spend a third of the setup on something that doesn’t arc through? Instead we get a surprise Little Brother whose scene is one & done. That program is a BIG commitment. My friends who do it talk about their kids ALL THE TIME. They check in. They think about them. Even in Shaw’s PoV, we don’t see him think about his role outside the one time. It’s great that these gay guys are being sold as “solid, upstanding members of the local business community” that can rely on the police when they have criminals targeting them. That is solid social progress and a public good. It’s just not the story a reader would expect from the setup. It turns out to be a “friend of the parents falls for friends’ kid” romance. Not a plot I see often and handled mostly ok. There was no/low creepiness factor for me - that aspect was handled well. But for someone supposedly keeping tabs on Shaw, Nick knows too little about Shaw’s life after 10 years of pining and tab keeping. At least the story wasn’t *about* the 10 years of pining, although it did take a while, even here, to get them together. There are some explicit dreams which nearly push the plot into the paranormal genre (ghosts/predictions). They are heartwarming and might be my favorite element of the story. Steam: There was on page m/m sex. It was fine - explicit but not boundary pushing imho. In most scenes, however, it felt disconnected from the plot or character growth so instead of paying attention, I wandered off to make tea. Trigger Warnings/Spoiler: If you want to avoid the dead animal details, skip the scene after Nick & Shaw drive back to Shaw’s house after Nick tells Shaw not to look on the porch. Tune back in after they get the envelope (or slightly later? sorry, audio pitfall is reviewing details). It might not be possible to avoid the creepy home invasion scene as it is a major plot point, but it is revealed after the fact and there are no injuries. It starts when Shaw can’t see his taser on the nightstand. If someone creeping around a bedroom without permission while someone else sleeps is anathema to you, be warned it happens twice - once as benign & once as scary. (/end warning/spoiler) Audio: I almost always enjoy Michal Pauley’s well acted narrations and this is no exception. Voices from earlier books are consistent. Audio production quality is also solid & consistent.

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Absolutely loved it!

I’m so in love with this series! I’m so glad to have finally listened to this audiobook. The characters are amazing and the story makes you want to listen till the end. The narration too is amazing. Michael Pauley is definitely the perfect narrator for this series.

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St. Nick 😁

This was a great story. I was wondering about Shaw and Nick with the snippets about them in the first books and really loved their story. I was not expecting who was the stalker - shocked with several things Master did. Best part was when St. Nick finally realizes what he wants and could loose during his morning run. Great HEA!

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Amazing

This was so amazing and I loved it all. I loved the angst and the mystery of it all and Michael did an amazing job as always.

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Second Chances and Stalkers

A wonderful story about second chances and growing up. Shaw and Nick have history together, including the tragic loss of Shaw's parents (Nicks best friends), the night Shaw and Nick first sleep together. Fast forward ten years, Shaw is a successful toy store owner, and Nick runs a thriving bar, but there is a distance in their relationship that they haven't closed. Then a dangerous stranger begins to stalk Shaw. This is the catalyst that brings Shaw and Nick together again and re-starts their relationship. The plot was fast paced and fun, and relationship development between Shaw and Nick was delightful. I thoroughly enjoyed this book. The audiobook was narrated Michael Pauley/Dean who does a wonderful job as usual. He really brings the story to life and makes it entertaining to listen to.

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favorite in the series

Loved this book! It's my favorite in the series so far. I'm a big fan of May/December romances, so I loved that even though it doesn't have the same feel as others do. Once they get over the past, they are more of equals. The suspense made this book all the better.

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Enjoyable

I very much enjoy reading this series and Michael Pauley does an excellent job with narrating. A book that I will listen to again.

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Really enjoying this series!

I think Susan Hawke has done a wonderful job with this series...they continue to build on each other though they are standalones. Nick and Shaw's story is probably my favorite of the bunch! I adore May/December stories and this one was excellent. Michael Pauley did a great job narrating this one!

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Perfect ending for Shaw and Nick

Nick feels guilty over his feelings towards Shaw, the son of his best friend. As these two keep circling each other for years, it would seem that nothing will force them together. Then, Nick finds out Shaw is getting stalked and all bets are off. As they are forced to confront their past and their feelings, these two men realize that they are truly perfect for each other. As the stalker gets closer, they must work together to free Shaw from the stalker.

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Love this series.

So there seem to be a lot of best friend's dad books in the market and while I enjoy those, I wanted to see the complicated relationship between a son and his dad's best friend. I feel like it might be more of a risk. For the older character, how would his best friend feel knowing that he had a relationship with his kid? How does it resolve? I love emotional and tense situations. And while this book does involve one mc seducing his parent's friend into bed one night, the conflict that I wanted to see occur didn't happen. Finding out the same night they slept together that Shaw's parents (and Nick's best friends) died in a crash put a halt to it all and left Nick feeling doubly guilty. A few years later and all that exists between Shaw and Nick is Nick's protective attitude and a bunch of awkward tension. For some reason, Shaw seems to inspire the protective instinct in the men around him. Nick is just one of the "icky boys" watching over Shaw. Rick is an ex of Shaw's and he does play a fairly large part of this story. He and Nick sort of have a rivalry over Shaw. Rick was looking for a bit more of a submissive in his life than Shaw is capable of, so they didn't last, but he gets involved when Shaw starts getting scary letters and flowers delivered to his shop. Shaw is a sweet character. He holds a candle for Nick, though part of him resents how easily Nick walked away. I feel like it is hard for him to have Nick in his life in any way, if it's not all the way. Still he maintains a friendly attitude, and he cares about everyone in his life. Nick and Rick are sweet, but it's time to stop listing them together, only one can ever have Shaw's heart. I do appreciate the friendship all three men later have and hope that Rick will get a story of his own. When Nick discovers all that is happening to Shaw, he lets down his walls in order to be close to the younger man to keep him safe. It is a scary time, but slowly trust forms again, and Shaw even gains a little bit of understanding of why Nick closed himself off. The mystery of the book does get solved, but there are several suspicious characters in this book. I honestly didn't know who the stalker was. I loved the supporting characters in this book, especially Rick. (Did I mention him enough?) I love the other residents of Rockford Bluff. Nick's ex sister-in-law Dana and her daughter Becca are good characters and they help break up the mostly male cast. And as for the narration, Michael Pauley did an excellent job as usual.  I can't wait for more of this series and I definitely recommend it.

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  • Lisa Hughes
  • 04-08-19

I LOVED THIS BOOK

I have really enjoyed this whole series, but I think this might be my favourite so far. The story is so different and the emotional barriers in place between the main characters are so complex. The character's growth is well described, there's plenty of plot content and the romance and heat are rewarding. It's also great to see that characters from the previous books again and the community developing. Michael Pauley continues to deliver of course. That man can melt my knees with a grunt and a whimper, but also break my heart and make me laugh embarrassingly loud in public! Can't wait for the next one.

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  • Michael Wild
  • 11-17-19

What a waste of time!

What a waste of time. I didn't last to the end it was so obviously a mistake. Sadly, no refund option was available.

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  • choccygrl
  • 04-09-19

Great romantic suspense

An intriguing stalker mystery was the basis of this story. I guessed the perp quite early on bit there were enough red herrings to keep me wondering. I wasn't 100% committed to the relationship. Early on I wanted Shaw with Rick, later I wanted a triad. And that's where I ended up. Wanting MMM. The narration on this was good and much easier to follow who was speaking.

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  • Headinabook
  • 04-09-19

About time

Having read How not to wait and seeing how much Shaw is enamoured with Nick it was brilliant to finally get their story. To then have Michael Pauley give that story life is just icing on the cake this is a truest fabulous series that looks set to continue with more. This book is brilliant in all its forms.

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  • Emma Burbidge
  • 04-08-19

Stalker Alert

This fourth story in S. Hawke's contemporary romance series is quite an exciting one and finally pays off the prequel story called How Not To Wait which is about an eighteen-year old Shaw doing something about his crush on his dad's best friend, Nick St. Cloud who is just home from his stint in the Navy Seals. Michael Pauley does an excellent job of giving the characters their distinct voices and conveying the humour and drama alike. I laughed out loud at Shaw's ineptitude in the kitchen and the running joke in the local fire department about his appliance kill count...another toaster oven goes up in flames! It was a relief that Shaw knew exactly what to do (practice makes perfect?) It was interesting watching Nick on the sidelines when a stalker calling himself The Master sets his sights on adorable ginger twink Shaw. He wants to charge to the rescue, but Shaw is fed up of being treated like a child or a damsel in distress and promptly puts the bar owner/former Navy SEAL in his place as he's also had enough of Nick running hot and cold on him with his emotions. It was good to see Nick face up to certain home truths and realise what he stands to lose if the Master gets his way. Highly recommended as thriller romance and second chance romance.

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  • Cassi
  • 04-08-19

This series just gets better

Every book in this series just keeps improving and Michael Pauley continues to bring them to life an even bigger way. LOVE IT

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  • MaryD
  • 04-06-19

So Good

This story is different from the others, it is more serious. Shaw has a stalker and this amongst other things is what makes Nick StCloud to finally admit how he feels about Shaw. There’s still some comic elements but in my opinion it’s the intensity that makes the story. I thought I knew who was the stalker then I wasn’t sure, so good. As usual Michael Pauley’s narration is excellent. He knows how to ramp up the tension. I would love another story from Susan Hawke giving Rick a happy ending.

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  • Allison's Book Corner
  • 04-05-19

Awesome

This is a really great audiobook. Great writing coupled with excellent narration makes this a must listen. I love this series and I can’t wait to listen to more.

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  • Meph666
  • 04-04-19

Amazing narration for a brilliant story

This series has gone from strength to strength and it's hard to pick out a favourite book or character. How Not To Break brings us back around to the two men from the prequel, How Not To Wait - Shaw and Nick. They had an amazing night together but were kept separated by the death of Shaw's parents and Nick's guilt at his treatment of Shaw, allowing what happened between them when he was only 18. This story gives us a great plot line in that Shaw has a stalker who quickly escalates his communications. Nick's ingrained sense of protection towards Shaw initially doesn't go down too well and their meetings tend to end up with an argument. Both men have great friends that are all known from the previous books and their support and friendship is great to read as there is obvious affection, fun and love among the group. Susan has down a great job at building up the tension between Nick and Shaw but keeping a simmer on it, giving Shaw the chance to make demands and Nick to actually think on his words and actions. Hearing them giving friendship a chance was good as they learn each other as the men they have grown into in the ten years since their story in the prequel. This was a great book to read but getting to listen to Michael Pauley voice these characters is such an enjoyable experience. He always knows the best ways in which to voice them and how to bring the story to life. Emotions are clear as is the tension when this get close between the MCs or as the stalker is getting closer to Shaw.

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  • KR Phoenix @ Books, Tattoos and Tea
  • 03-29-19

I love a bit of thrill with my romance!!

🌟🌟🌟🌟 4.5 stars 🔥🔥🔥 Heat Level: 3.5 🎧🎧🎧🎧🎧 Narration: 5 I love a bit of thrill with my romance!! I loved Shaw and Nick and am so glad they finally got together!! I hadn’t read the opening prequel novella that started this Lovestrong series but I didn’t really feel like I was missing anything even though I need to go back and read it now! Anything for more Nick and Shaw ❤ ❤ ❤ I really enjoy thrillers and I loved that there was a little psychological suspense and stalking in this story that pushes Shaw and Nick together; FINALLY!! I feel for Shaw as he keeps receiving notes from his ‘Master’/stalker, and while I guessed early on who Master was, I was still thrilled ‘watching’ the story unfold. I would have liked a little more detail/depth into the crazy Master and why he was the way he was and why he targeted Shaw, but understand that that may not fit into these lighter stories Susan is creating in the Lovestrong Series. I enjoyed the humor Susan injects and love all the feelings and mushiness that happens when the angst is over and Nick and Shaw finally admit their feelings for each other. Their sexy times are off the charts hot too which never hurts 😉 I also enjoyed the somewhat prophetic dreams and look forward to seeing them come true in the next stories in this series!! As ever Micheal’s narration is perfection!! Brilliant dialects, characterizations and story flow. I really enjoyed seeing familiar faces around town, learning more about them and enjoyed Michael’s voices for each character and their individuality! I’m loving this series and look forward to many more Lovestrong series! Susan and Micheal are a perfect match and this was a total swoon-worthy winner for me!! Thanks for reading!