Darkwater

A Pastor's Memoir of Depression and Faith

By: Michael Scholtes

Narrated by: Michael J. Scholtes

There is a voice in Michael's head.

A voice that tells him he is worthless and unlovable. The voice masquerades as his own, wreaking havoc on his friendships and romantic relationships. It keeps him from pursuing his calling—a career as a pastor. It tears his life apart piece by piece, leading him to attempt suicide on more than one occasion. The voice almost defeats him, and yet there is another, more powerful voice—the still, small voice of God always whispering to him, “I love you.”

This is the true story of Michael’s journey from a precocious child in a small town to the spiritual leader of a faith community, and how he slowly and fitfully learns how to listen to the better angels within. Told with brutal honesty and insight into his own mental condition, this is a story of friendship, depression, despair, faith, and a God who refuses to let go.

©2022 Michael J. Scholtes (P)2023 Michael J. Scholtes

His biblical interpretation is questionable

As I completed the book, my heart was sad to realize that his biblical interpretation an application is flawed in many ways. Wow, much of his book sounds good. The truth of the matter is she doesn’t properly apply biblical truths to the real world. I’m grateful that he has found some semblance of help for his depression, however This application is not biblically accurate. In one place he specifically talks about why churches do not except the LGBTQ community. He says he does not see any reason why you can’t except them fully and 100% in marriage as pastors with no holds. The reality is he ignores. Clear scripture Meaning he either doesn’t know the word of God fully or he chooses to ignore some of it. Either way this paints everything else he says in this book. I really wished I could recommend this book but I just cannot.