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  • Having Anorexia in a Larger Body: Navigating Medical Anti-Fat Bias & Lack of Care With Sharon Maxwell @heysharonmaxwell
    Nov 24 2025
    What happens when you live with a severe eating disorder in a larger body yet the medical system refuses to see it? In this powerful conversation, Sharon Maxwell (she/they) shares her story of surviving anorexia in a fat body, advocating for herself inside medical systems that consistently denied her care, and reclaiming joy, autonomy, and embodiment after years of harm. Sharon is an educator, speaker, and fat activist who dedicates her work to dismantling anti fat bias and eradicating weight stigma in healthcare and society. Their story and activism have been featured in the New York Times Magazine, The Tamron Hall Show, The Wall Street Journal, NPR, 60 Minutes, and more. Together, we explore the realities of receiving medical care while fat, why compassionate providers save lives, how weight stigma shaped Sharon’s early life and nearly cost her her life, and why reclaiming joy becomes an act of resistance. This episode holds so much wisdom, solidarity, and truth telling for anyone in eating disorder recovery, anyone harmed by medical weight stigma, and anyone committed to building a safer world for people in larger bodies. What We Cover in This Episode Sharon’s Early Story and Reclaiming Joy Sharon shares a surprising fun fact about being a lifelong pianist and how taking jazz lessons helped them reclaim creativity after growing up in a restrictive religious cult that controlled every aspect of music, expression, and embodied joy. They describe how jazz has become part of their healing and identity reconstruction. Growing Up Fat, Undiagnosed, and Unseen Sharon lived in a fat body their entire life and struggled with anorexia for nineteen years. They went undiagnosed because medical providers only saw their body size. When Sharon arrived with obvious symptoms of an eating disorder, providers dismissed the symptoms and blamed their body. They describe how weight stigma prevented treatment and reinforced eating disorder patterns. The Doctor Who Changed Everything Sharon describes the first doctor who recognized the eating disorder and offered real compassion. That moment shifted the trajectory of their life. We discuss how rare this experience is and why truly compassionate medical care can be lifesaving for people living in larger bodies. Medical Trauma and the Cost of Weight Stigma Sharon shares painful stories about: Being denied necessary medical procedures because of body size. Experiencing trauma at gynecological appointments. Nearly dying from untreated tonsillitis because providers assumed weight was the cause rather than treating the actual condition. The emotional and financial toll of weight stigma across childhood and adulthood. We discuss how the healthcare system misattributes the financial cost of weight stigma to the O-word and how this distorts public health narratives and patient care. Eating Disorders in Larger Bodies Sharon explains how anti fat bias prevents providers from seeing eating disorders in fat patients. They highlight how common anorexia is in larger bodies and how life threatening it becomes when medical systems refuse to diagnose or treat it. How Anti Fat Bias Harms Everyone Sharon and I talk about how dismantling anti fat bias supports every person in eating disorder recovery. Recovery requires divesting from anti fat bias, reconnecting with the body, and understanding how these biases shape thoughts and behaviors across all sizes. Intersectionality and Medical Harm We explore how harms escalate for people with multiple marginalized identities, including Black patients, Indigenous patients, trans patients, and fat patients who also face racism, transphobia, or medical gatekeeping. Advocacy, Boundaries, and Medical Self Protection Sharon shares concrete strategies for preparing for medical appointments, including: Bringing notes to stay grounded when hyperarousal hits. Recording appointments for recall and safety. Bringing a support person. Taking intentional rest time afterward. Establishing boundaries and walking out when providers violate consent. We discuss how exhausting it is to prepare for appointments that should be safe and how necessary these strategies become for survival. Why Sharon Became a Fat Activist After nearly dying because of weight stigma, Sharon left the classroom to educate clinicians, providers, and communities about anti fat bias. They now work with medical systems and general audiences to deconstruct bias, build safer care practices, and illuminate the threads of anti fat culture that harm everyone. Imagining an Ideal World Sharon answers the signature Dr. Marianne Land question. Their ideal world includes accessible spaces for play, joy, rest, and creativity for all bodies. It includes medical care rooted in compassion, humanity, and dignity, and it includes ice cream for everyone with options for all bodies and needs. Who This Episode Is For This episode supports: People in fat bodies who have experienced medical trauma. ...
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  • An Open Letter to the Body: Listening to the Part That Fears Getting Better
    Nov 21 2025
    In this solo episode, Dr. Marianne Miller, LMFT, speaks directly to the body that carries fear, memory, and longing for safety. Through a poetic open letter, she explores why recovery can feel unsafe even when life begins to stabilize. Instead of treating fear as resistance, she reframes it as communication and wisdom. In this episode, she invites listeners to move from fighting their bodies to listening to them. Dr. Marianne explores how trauma, neurodivergence, and systemic oppression live in the body, and how tenderness can become a bridge between fear and trust. It is not a set of instructions. It is an act of witnessing. Why This Episode Matters Many people in eating disorder recovery are told that getting better should feel empowering. But for those whose bodies have been sites of trauma, shame, or disconnection, recovery can feel unbearable. This episode reframes that discomfort as an intelligent response from the body, not as failure or lack of willpower. By turning recovery into a dialogue instead of a demand, listeners learn how to approach healing at the pace of safety. Dr. Marianne shares how fear is not the opposite of progress but a sign that the body is asking for gentler evidence that the world can hold it safely. Her trauma-informed, neurodivergent-affirming, and liberation-based approach helps listeners replace control with curiosity and build trust with the body through compassion. Key Topics Covered In this episode, Dr. Marianne reflects on: The nervous system’s memory of trauma and how it interprets safety Why the body resists calm and how to rebuild trust slowly The grief that comes with letting go of control and perfectionism How sensory sensitivities and neurodivergence affect recovery pacing The intersectional realities that make safety harder for fat, queer, trans, BIPOC, and neurodivergent people What it means to redefine “getting better” as coming home to yourself Listeners will come away with a new way to understand their bodies. They will learn that healing does not require pushing through fear but learning to listen to what fear is trying to protect. Who This Episode Is For This episode is for anyone who has ever felt frightened by their own progress in recovery. It will resonate with: People in eating disorder recovery who feel ambivalent about healing Neurodivergent listeners who experience overwhelm or shutdown during recovery Fat, queer, trans, and BIPOC individuals navigating systems that equate safety with conformity Clinicians and caregivers who want to understand the embodied realities of fear and healing It is also for those who need permission to slow down, to stop performing readiness, and to honor the body as a partner in recovery rather than an obstacle. Content Caution This episode includes discussion of eating disorder recovery, body distrust, trauma, and the emotional experience of fear during healing. It also references restriction, bingeing, and body-based distress without graphic detail. Please take care while listening. Pause or return to the episode later if it feels overwhelming. You are encouraged to have support in place as you engage with this material. Related Episodes How Childhood Trauma Shapes Eating Disorders & Body Shame (Content Caution) on Apple & Spotify.Perfectionism, People-Pleasing, & Body Image: Self-Compassion Tools for Long-Term Eating Disorder Recovery With Carrie Pollard, MSW @compassionate_counsellor on Apple & Spotify.Why Letting Go 0f Restriction Feels Unsafe in Eating Disorder Recovery on Apple & Spotify. Learn More and Get Support To continue exploring how to build safety with your body, visit drmariannemiller.com. There you will find: The ARFID & Selective Eating Course, a self-paced program offering sensory-attuned and neurodivergent-affirming tools for individuals and caregivers. The Binge Eating Recovery Membership, a space for ongoing support, education, and compassionate community that moves beyond diet culture. Blog posts, podcast episodes, and free resources on trauma-informed, consent-based, and liberation-centered recovery. Each offering is grounded in curiosity, respect, and collaboration.
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  • Unmasking in Eating Disorder Recovery: What Neurodivergent People Need to Know About Safety & Healing
    Nov 19 2025
    What happens when your survival strategy becomes the thing standing between you and full recovery? In this episode of Dr. Marianne-Land: An Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, Dr. Marianne Miller explores how masking and camouflaging shape the lives of neurodivergent people living with eating disorders. Through a trauma-informed, neurodivergent-affirming lens, she unpacks how chronic masking affects body trust, executive functioning, and safety in recovery. This conversation goes beyond the surface, offering insight into the deep intersection between identity, safety, and healing for autistic and ADHD people navigating disordered eating. Why This Episode Matters Masking, also known as camouflaging, is often praised as adaptability, but for many neurodivergent people it is a survival response that comes at a high cost. When you spend years performing normalcy, you can lose touch with your body’s natural rhythms, sensations, and needs. This episode reveals how masking contributes to disordered eating patterns and burnout, and why many neurodivergent individuals struggle to connect with hunger, fullness, and safety cues. Dr. Marianne explains how unmasking can become an essential part of recovery when it is grounded in safety and choice. She also highlights the collective responsibility of clinicians, families, and communities to create environments where authenticity does not come with punishment. Key Themes Covered What masking and camouflaging look like for autistic and ADHD people How chronic masking disconnects you from body cues and emotions The relationship between executive function burnout and chaotic eating Masking inside therapy and recovery spaces How unmasking becomes a healing process when safety is prioritized The crucial role of neurodivergent-affirming, sensory-aware support The realities of intersectionality and why unmasking is not equally safe for everyone The Big Intersectionality Caveat Unmasking can be freeing, but it is not always safe. For people living at the intersections of multiple marginalized identities, such as people of color, fat people, queer and trans individuals, and those with disabilities, authentic self-expression often carries real risks. Systems rooted in racism, fatphobia, ableism, and heteronormativity still punish difference. In this segment, Dr. Marianne offers guidance on how to navigate those risks without self-betrayal. She invites listeners to think of unmasking as a gradual and relational process rather than a demand for constant transparency. Authenticity must coexist with safety, and strategic masking can be a legitimate survival tool. Recovery is not about abandoning the mask everywhere; it is about finding and creating spaces where the mask can come off without harm. Who This Episode Is For This episode is for: Neurodivergent adults and teens in eating disorder recovery Autistic and ADHD individuals struggling with food, body image, or ARFID Therapists seeking to provide neurodivergent-affirming, sensory-informed care People navigating multiple marginalized identities who feel unsafe unmasking in treatment Parents and partners who want to better understand masking, executive functioning, and sensory needs in eating behaviors Content Caution This episode includes discussion of eating disorder behaviors, masking fatigue, and systemic oppression. Listener discretion is advised, especially if you are in early recovery or working through trauma related to identity or body shame. Related Episodes Autism & Anorexia: When Masking Looks Like Restriction, & Recovery Feels Unsafe via Apple & Spotify.Recovering Again: Navigating Eating Disorders After a Late Neurodivergent Diagnosis (Part 1) With Stacie Fanelli, LCSW @edadhd_therapist via Apple & Spotify.Stuck on Empty: Autistic Inertia, ARFID & the Struggle to Eat via Apple & SpotifyMinding the Gap: The Intersection Between AuDHD & Eating Disorders With Stacie Fanelli, LCSW @edadhd_therapist via Apple & SpotifyOur Personal Neurodivergent Stories via Apple & Spotify. Learn More and Get Support If today’s episode resonated with you, explore Dr. Marianne’s ARFID & Selective Eating Course, a self-paced, neurodivergent-affirming resource that supports sensory-based eating, autonomy, and compassion in recovery. Learn more at drmariannemiller.com.
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  • Healing Binge Eating Disorder: One Woman’s Journey Toward Body Trust & Food Freedom With Dr. Michelle Tubman, M.D. @wayzahealth
    Nov 17 2025
    What happens when a physician, trained to prioritize science and performance, discovers that her own healing requires compassion, spirituality, and trust in her body? In this powerful interview, we explore one woman’s story of recovering from binge eating disorder while navigating the pressures of medicine, diet culture, and systemic weight bias. You’ll hear how early messages about food and scarcity shaped her relationship with eating, how medical training reinforced body shame, and how she ultimately reconnected to herself through self-compassion, intuitive eating, and body trust. This episode offers both a deeply personal narrative and a professional perspective on how healthcare can move toward weight-neutral, compassionate care. Key Topics Covered How childhood scarcity and fear can shape lifelong eating patterns The pressures physicians face to conform to body ideals in medicine How chronic stress and sleep deprivation in residency can trigger binge eating Why self-compassion—not willpower—became the turning point in recovery What it takes to unlearn diet culture within the healthcare system The rise of GLP-1 medications and how they complicate conversations about body autonomy Healing the disconnect between professional identity and personal recovery Building a weight-neutral, compassionate approach to health and wellbeing Who This Episode Is For This episode is for anyone who has struggled with binge eating, body shame, or internalized weight stigma—especially those in helping professions. It’s also for clinicians, therapists, and healthcare providers seeking to understand how medical culture perpetuates harm and how to bring more compassion into patient care. If you’ve ever felt like your professional role or perfectionism made recovery harder, this episode will remind you that you’re not alone—and that healing is possible, even in systems that don’t always make room for it. Why This Conversation Matters In a world where doctors are often seen as immune to body image struggles, this story reveals how deeply systemic fatphobia and diet culture reach—even into the halls of medicine. It challenges the myth that knowledge alone heals disordered eating and instead centers nervous system safety, self-compassion, and intuitive wisdom as the foundation for recovery. Resources Mentioned Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch Reclaiming Body Trust by Hilary Kinavey and Dana Sturtevant Wayza Health (wayzahealth.com)--Dr. Michelle's website Research on GLP-1 medications and long-term outcomes Center for Body Trust Related Episodes When Doctors Harm: Medical Weight Stigma & Eating Disorders on Apple & Spotify.Fat Vulnerability & Our Eating Disorder Recovery Stories on Apple & Spotify.Challenges of Weight-Loss Surgery & Medical Anti-Fat Bias on Apple & Spotify. Learn More and Get Support If you or someone you love is navigating binge eating, emotional eating, or recovery after years of dieting, visit drmariannemiller.com to explore specialized support. You’ll find resources for binge eating recovery, ARFID support, and neurodivergent-affirming therapy and courses.
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  • From Shame to Support: Healing Night Eating Syndrome With Executive-Function & Self-Compassion Tools
    Nov 14 2025

    What if your nighttime eating isn’t a failure of willpower—but your body’s way of asking for safety, nourishment, and rest?

    In this solo episode of Dr. Marianne-Land: An Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, Dr. Marianne Miller explores the misunderstood world of Night Eating Syndrome (NES)—a condition that often hides behind shame and silence. Rather than framing night eating as a “bad habit,” Dr. Marianne offers a compassionate, neurodivergent-affirming lens that reveals what your body and brain are truly communicating when nighttime hunger takes over.

    She unpacks how executive-function challenges, sensory processing differences, and disrupted circadian rhythmscan contribute to Night Eating Syndrome. You’ll learn how to distinguish between waking up at night to eat versus staying up late and bingeing, and why that difference matters for healing.

    Dr. Marianne also shares practical ways to support your body’s natural rhythms using executive-function tools—like creating transition meals, supporting sensory needs, and building low-lift nourishment systems that actually work with your brain. Finally, she offers self-compassion strategies that help calm shame, regulate the nervous system, and restore trust in your body’s signals.

    Key Topics Covered
    • What Night Eating Syndrome really is—and why it’s not a moral failure

    • The role of executive-function fatigue in late-night eating cycles

    • How neurodivergent people may have different hunger and sleep patterns than neurotypicals

    • Practical, low-lift tools to support nighttime regulation and nourishment

    • How to distinguish between Night Eating Syndrome and binge eating

    • The importance of self-compassion and curiosity in healing the shame cycle

    Who This Episode Is For

    This episode is for anyone who finds themselves eating late into the night and feeling stuck in shame or confusion afterward. It’s especially for neurodivergent adults, trauma survivors, and anyone who struggles with inconsistent eating or sleep patterns. Clinicians who work with eating disorders, ARFID, or binge eating may also find this episode helpful for supporting clients with neuroaffirming and compassion-based approaches.

    Content Caution

    This episode discusses eating disorder behaviors related to Night Eating Syndrome and binge eating. Listener discretion is advised. Please take care of yourself and pause if you need to.

    Related Episode on Night Eating Syndrome
    • Night Eating Syndrome on Apple & Spotify (my most popular podcast episode of all time!)
    • Why Am I Eating at Night? Understanding Night Eating Syndrome in Your 30s, 40s, & 50s on Apple & Spotify.
    Learn More and Get Support

    If Night Eating Syndrome or binge eating feels familiar to you, support and recovery are possible. Inside my virtual Binge Eating Recovery Membership, you’ll find a self-paced, compassionate space to explore the roots of your eating behaviors while building executive-function skills, sensory supports, and self-trust.

    Learn more at drmariannemiller.com.

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  • Relapse in Long-Term Eating Disorders
    Nov 12 2025

    Why does recovery from an eating disorder feel so fragile, even after years of hard work? In this episode of Dr. Marianne Land, Dr. Marianne Miller unpacks the realities of relapse in long-term eating disorder recovery—what causes it, how to navigate it, and why recovery doesn’t stick in a culture that constantly reinforces shame, anti-fat bias, and unrealistic expectations of healing.

    Episode Overview

    This eating disorder relapse podcast episode explores the complexity of staying recovered after years or decades of healing. Dr. Marianne explains how relapse is not a personal failure but rather an opportunity to understand what your body and nervous system are communicating. Through a neurodivergent-affirming and body-liberation lens, she breaks down why recovery ebbs and flows and how you can rebuild stability with compassion instead of judgment.

    Listeners will learn what it really takes to sustain long-term eating disorder recovery, how trauma and stress can reignite old coping mechanisms, and how to approach relapse as part of the process—not the end of it.

    Key Topics Covered
    • The real meaning of recovery and why “staying recovered” forever is an unrealistic expectation.

    • How the nervous system and trauma memory create vulnerability to relapse.

    • Why life transitions, burnout, and chronic stress often trigger eating disorder relapse.

    • How anti-fat bias, weight stigma, and cultural messaging undermine sustainable recovery.

    • The unique challenges of neurodivergent eating disorder recovery and how to meet sensory and executive-function needs.

    • How to rebuild body trust after relapse through curiosity, safety, and self-compassion.

    • Practical tools for sustainable recovery strategies that evolve as your life changes.

    Who This Episode Is For

    This episode is for anyone living with a long-term eating disorder who feels discouraged by relapse or fears they are “backsliding.” It’s also for therapists, dietitians, and family members who want to understand why recovery doesn’t stickfor everyone—and how to provide affirming, compassionate support.

    Why This Episode Matters

    In a world where recovery is often portrayed as a linear journey, this episode challenges that myth. Relapse in long-term eating disorder recovery is common, but few people talk about it without shame. Dr. Marianne brings honesty, education, and hope to a topic that deserves care.

    Relapse is not failure, it’s feedback. And when you learn to listen to what your body needs, you can rebuild a recovery that truly fits your life.

    Related Episodes on Long-Term Eating Disorders
    • Orthorexia, Quasi-Recovery, & Lifelong Eating Disorder Struggles with Dr. Lara Zibarras @drlarazib on Apple & Spotify.
    • Navigating a Long-Term Eating Disorder on Apple & Spotify.
    • Why Eating Disorder Recovery Feels Unsafe: Facing Ambivalence in Long-Term Struggles on Apple & Spotify.
    • Perfectionism, People-Pleasing, & Body Image: Self-Compassion Tools for Long-Term Eating Disorder Recovery With Carrie Pollard, MSW @compassionate_counsellor on Apple & Spotify.
    Learn More and Get Support

    For more on long-term eating disorder recovery, ARFID, binge eating, body trust, and sustainable recovery strategies, visit drmariannemiller.com.

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  • Food Allergy Anxiety & ARFID: When Safety Fears Shape Eating & Family Life With Tamara Hubbard @foodallergycounselor
    Nov 10 2025

    Can anxiety about food safety quietly shape the way an entire family eats, lives, and loves?

    In this episode of Dr. Marianne-Land: An Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, Dr. Marianne Miller, LMFT, talks with Tamara Hubbard, LCPC, founder of The Food Allergy Counselor and The Academy of Food Allergy Counseling. Together, they explore how food allergy anxiety can affect both children and parents, sometimes leading to ARFID-like eating patterns and significant emotional distress.

    Tamara shares her journey from being a parent of a child with a peanut allergy to becoming a national leader in the field of food allergy mental health. She discusses how chronic fear and misinformation can cause families to become trapped in cycles of hypervigilance and restriction. She and Dr. Marianne also examine how therapy can help families move toward flexibility, autonomy, and connection at the table.

    Listeners will hear how Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) and values-based approaches support parents in balancing safety with freedom, and how addressing anxiety can improve both emotional well-being and quality of life.

    Key Topics Covered
    • The difference between food allergies and food intolerances and why accurate understanding matters

    • How food allergy anxiety can spread through families and mimic ARFID symptoms

    • The role of parental fear in shaping a child’s own food relationship and daily life

    • The risks of restriction-based medical advice, including some functional medicine practices

    • How ACT and mindfulness tools can help parents tolerate fear and stay connected to their values

    • Ways to calm the fight-or-flight response and reduce hypervigilance around food and safety

    • Why collaboration between therapists and allergists creates stronger, safer support for families

    Who This Episode Is For

    This episode is for parents and caregivers who want to understand how food allergies, anxiety, and ARFID intersect in family life. It is also for therapists, dietitians, and healthcare providers who want to learn how to support families with evidence-based, trauma-informed, and values-driven care.

    Food Allergy Resources Mentioned
    • Book: May Contain Anxiety: Managing the Overwhelm of Parenting Children With Food Allergies by Tamara Hubbard, LCPC (Johns Hopkins University Press, 2025)

    • Website: The Food Allergy Counselor for educational articles, therapeutic resources, and directories of food allergy-informed therapists

    • Organization: The Academy of Food Allergy Counseling for clinician training and professional community

    • Article: Allergic Living Magazine Airline Allergy Travel Guide for details on how major airlines handle food allergy policies

    • Advocacy Resource: No Nut Traveler by Leanne Mandelbaum, advocating for safer air travel for people with food allergies

    • Therapeutic Framework: Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) for managing anxiety and values alignment

    • Cultural Reference: We Can Do Hard Things by Glennon Doyle as a reminder of resilience and self-compassion

    Content Caution

    This episode includes discussions of allergic reactions, anaphylaxis, and eating challenges. Please take care while listening if these topics may feel activating or distressing.

    Learn More and Get ARFID and Selective Eating Support

    Visit ARFID and Selective Eating Course. This virtual program provides a compassionate, neurodivergent-affirming framework that helps families and clinicians create safety, flexibility, and understanding around food.

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  • The Truth About "High-Functioning" People With Lifelong Eating Disorders
    Nov 7 2025

    Do people praise your discipline while ignoring your struggle with a long-term eating disorder?

    In this solo episode of Dr. Marianne-Land: An Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, Dr. Marianne Miller, LMFT, unpacks the cultural myth of the “high-functioning” eating disorder and explores why so many lifelong eating disorders go unnoticed, untreated, or mislabeled as willpower or success.

    Episode Overview

    So many people live for decades with an eating disorder that never fully goes away—because the world keeps rewarding them for being productive, disciplined, or “healthy.” Dr. Marianne explains how functioning can become a form of masking, how trauma and safety patterns reinforce chronic disordered eating, and why recovery often requires dismantling the very systems that taught us to perform instead of rest.

    This episode brings honesty and compassion to those who have felt unseen by treatment models that only recognize crisis, and validation to those who have carried invisible pain behind competence and control.

    Key Topics Covered
    • What “high-functioning” really means and why it’s a harmful label

    • How lifelong eating disorders become normalized and overlooked

    • The hidden costs of functioning and perfectionism

    • Trauma, safety, and why control feels protective

    • How privilege shapes who gets labeled “high-functioning”

    • Recovery pathways for long-term and late-stage eating disorders

    • The difference between surviving and actually living

    Who This Episode Is For

    This episode is for anyone who has lived with chronic disordered eating, for those who have been told they “don’t look sick,” and for clinicians seeking to better understand the quiet suffering that hides behind high performance. It’s also for neurodivergent listeners and those in larger bodies who have felt unseen in traditional eating disorder spaces.

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    Learn More and Get Support for Lifelong Eating Disorders

    You can explore therapy, coaching, and recovery resources at drmariannemiller.com.

    If you’re ready to deepen your healing, check out Dr. Marianne’s virtual, self-paced ARFID and Selective Eating Course, designed to support autonomy, sensory needs, and manageable recovery.

    You can also follow Dr. Marianne on Instagram @drmariannemiller.

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