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Finding Zach | [Rowan Speedwell]

Finding Zach

For five years, Zach Tyler, son of one of the world’s richest software moguls, was held hostage, tortured, and abused. When he is rescued at last from the Venezuelan jungle, he is physically and psychologically shattered, but he slowly begins to rebuild the life he should have had before an innocent kiss sent him into hell. His childhood best friend David has lived those years with overwhelming guilt and grief. Every relationship David has tried has fallen apart because of his feelings for a boy he thought dead.
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Publisher's Summary

For five years, Zach Tyler, son of one of the world’s richest software moguls, was held hostage, tortured, and abused. When he is rescued at last from the Venezuelan jungle, he is physically and psychologically shattered, but he slowly begins to rebuild the life he should have had before an innocent kiss sent him into hell.

His childhood best friend David has lived those years with overwhelming guilt and grief. Every relationship David has tried has fallen apart because of his feelings for a boy he thought dead. When Zach is rescued, David is overjoyed - and then crushed when Zach shuts him out. Two years later, David returns home, and he and Zach must come to terms with the rift between them, what they feel for each other, and what their future could hold. But Zach has secrets, and one of them might well destroy their fragile love.

©2010 Rowan Speedwell (P)2012 Rowan Speedwell

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    Jane Chicago, IL, United States 11-17-12
    Jane Chicago, IL, United States 11-17-12 Member Since 2010
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    "3 ½ stars. I enjoyed the relationship development"

    but some parts were heavier than I was in the mood for.

    David was like a big-brother-best-friend to Zach while growing up. At age 15 Zach kisses David for the first time. Then they are separated when Zach flies to visit a relative and gets kidnaped. Now it’s several years later. Zach is alive and returns home. The best part of the story is the two of them reconnecting and beginning a love relationship. Zach has PTSD with many psychological issues. David is loving, patient, accepting, and supporting. I loved that part of the story - the relationship development. The sex scenes were well done. I liked the feel good ending and the epilogue.

    During the second half, at times I did not enjoy the drama. Too often Zach overreacted and thought he should end their relationship. Even though David told Zach he loved him and nothing about Zach’s past would ever bother him, Zach didn’t believe it or kept forgetting. Yes he had issues from his kidnaping and torture, but it was tiring to keep hearing that Zach believed no one could love him.

    There are a lot of therapy type discussions. The most common sentence in the book was “Are you ok?” Everyone is always asking everyone else that question. The answer was usually yes and a couple times crying. The parents were wonderfully supportive of both David and Zach which was a nice part of the story.

    I liked the way Zach’s five years of captivity was handled. The book starts with his rescue. Then Zach is telling or remembering what happened. Horrible things were done to him which stayed with me, but it could have been worse. I wouldn’t have wanted to be inside Zach’s head during his torture, not knowing if he would survive or be rescued. However the torture might be too much for sensitive readers.

    The author has a good writing style. It’s a good story, just a little heavier than I was in the mood for.

    The narrator Paul Morey was very good.

    Genre: gay male romance.

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    James Billings, MT, United States 04-26-12
    James Billings, MT, United States 04-26-12
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    "Surprisingly good"

    I downloaded this book on a whim and was very surprised at how well written the characters were and how well characterized Zach was.

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Donald Louisville, Georgia, United States 03-15-12
    Donald Louisville, Georgia, United States 03-15-12 Member Since 2011
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    "Overcoming the impossible..."

    The listener is drawn in as soon as the tale of Zach Tyler begins. Sympathy for the main character is a given and the descriptive writing style of Rowan Speedwell creates the horrific images that places the listener in the heart of the tale. The narration by Paul Morey added to the story and encouraged one to hope for the best. A love story with a tragic twist and an eventual happy ending, makes for an excellent read.

    9 of 10 people found this review helpful
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    Nimue Alberta, Canada 10-05-13
    Nimue Alberta, Canada 10-05-13 Member Since 2008

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    "Excellent book"

    This was an audiobook that I finished in one day, listening every chance I could.
    The story had a lot of emotional depth that was well presented. I felt like the author understood what Zach was going through and not just writing a story.
    Paul Morey did a good job of portraying sympathetic characters. The best of his performances I have listened to.
    Highly recommended. On my re-listen list.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    Amazon Customer Murfreesboro, TN, United States 04-07-12
    Amazon Customer Murfreesboro, TN, United States 04-07-12 Member Since 2006
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    Finding Zach is rare gem in contemporary fiction. It is not my intention to give a blow by blow of the plot but what captured my full attrition was the characters Zach and David. Zach has lived through hell being kidnapped raped and tortured repeatedly. The main portion of the story focuses on his recovery from the events described above and having taken a collage course that dealt with torture victims I can say the reactions of Zach to events are within the scope of the possible. The relationship Zach and David provides strength as well as much of the conflict for much of the novel. The has a way of getting inside your head. I high;y recommend this book

    5 of 6 people found this review helpful
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    MikeChgo 07-19-14
    MikeChgo 07-19-14 Member Since 2013
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    "Too many Cliches can spoil a story."
    Would you recommend this book to a friend? Why or why not?

    I would recommend it to someone who was looking for something to listen too that wasn't too challenging


    What was the most interesting aspect of this story? The least interesting?

    The plight of the main character was intriguing, but it the storytelling did more telling than showing. I wish fewer m/m romances relied on the horrible tragedy cliche and this one certainly does. A lot of the dialogue is predictable and it is achingly apparent that the author knows the mechanics of gay sex, but she doesn't quite get the passion one hopes would be present in a reuniting of old friends who become lovers.
    The least interesting thing though was the lack of development Zack gets to experience in the book. It is obvious he was never fully broken by his experiences and torture from the first chapter when he frees himself. We see it again and again but we are constantly told he isn't healed yet. This give the author artificial obstacles to overcome. Even when the pair finds a certain peace, we don't get enough of that in favor of conflict.


    Did Paul Morey do a good job differentiating all the characters? How?

    He did to a point. Sometimes a male voice, one as deep as Morey's doesn't do a convincing woman be he certainly made them unique. But that is the ONLY flaw in his reading. He made some pretty flat dialogue fairly interesting. that's a mark of a professional.


    What would have made this romance irresistible?

    The fact that Zack does not ever allow his "always and forever" to reverse roles EVER in the book leaves me cold. He hasn't healed not even when being loved and cherished. That would have given me a complete story. This one feels unfinished. Complete love making would have been preferable. Not every m/m relationship is about dominance and submission. That fact that David gives up this role and never questions it is not very realistic.


    Any additional comments?

    Maybe women need to think that two men must suffer and they must fight physically with one another, but that isn't true. Some m/m relationships never require physical violence to get stronger. Some m/m relationships start and end in love not torture. A few do, but they are not as frequent or as heart rending as this story makes them out to be. The plot is easy to follow, and it isn't bad, I just wish the author had trusted her characters to tell the story a little more and relied less on bullet points to hit. I wanted to love this story, it certainly has all the parts it needs to be amazing. But somewhere it became a plot point counter instead of the story it had the potential to become.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    AMC Carlisle, IN, United States 05-16-12
    AMC Carlisle, IN, United States 05-16-12 Member Since 2008
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    Would you listen to Finding Zach again? Why?

    I will definitely listen to Finding Zach again! Although there are definitely some difficult issues in the book, they were handled beautifully! This is one of the best listens I've experienced so far!!


    What other book might you compare Finding Zach to and why?

    I think the only book that comes to mind would be Promise Rock by Amy Lane. The characters are flawed in similar ways and you pull for them just the same.


    What does Paul Morey bring to the story that you wouldn???t experience if you just read the book?

    The narration was flawless throughout. Nothing is more distracting than listening to a serious heart-wrenching scene to hear a word mispronounced. It's very difficult to overlook.


    Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

    I did my best to listen to this all at once. It's THAT good.


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Rob 09-24-12
    Rob 09-24-12
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    Would you try another book from Rowan Speedwell and/or Paul Morey?

    I find I have little patience for dime store romances gay or straight. I get tired of dialogue that seems purposely mundane and pointless. Example: "What's wrong Zack?" "I dunno..." now repeat that every chapter a dozen times.


    What was most disappointing about Rowan Speedwell’s story?

    The constant "one step forward, two steps back" exchanges between the two principle characters. Toward the end I was skipping chapters just to get this torture over with. I didn't care any more.


    What three words best describe Paul Morey’s voice?

    Just one - competent.


    What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?

    If the unexamined life is not worth living the OVER examined life is certainly not worth listening to...


    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Irene 12-03-12
    Irene 12-03-12 Member Since 2010

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    If you could sum up Finding Zach in three words, what would they be?

    Wonderful, scary and difficult.


    What was one of the most memorable moments of Finding Zach?

    When Zach realizes that he can be as strong as he needs to be.


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    At the very beginning.


    Any additional comments?

    I don't do spoilers.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
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    Harry Seattle, WA, United States 09-10-12
    Harry Seattle, WA, United States 09-10-12 Member Since 2008
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    "Very compelling story, characters, with redeeming"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    Yes. Sexy, romantic, socially aware, a parable for any age.


    Who was your favorite character and why?

    Both Charles and Tristan. Who wouldn't love them, or have compassion for them?


    Did the narration match the pace of the story?

    A little self-conscious about its research, but who cares. I thoroughly enjoyed it.


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    Yes, several.


    Any additional comments?

    I'd like to know or BE the main characters. lol

    0 of 1 people found this review helpful
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