Emotional sobriety is not theory — it lives in the space between agitation and response. A dream and a real-life moment reveal what happens when I choose not to react.

What if Step One isn’t only about drinking?

In this episode, I revisit Step One from the inside—looking beyond initial impressions of character defects and toward what is really driving unmanageability, grounded in AA literature and lived experience.

What if every daily interaction is part of the game of life?

In this episode, I explore self-observation through a real-time spot-check inventory, rooted in the Tenth Step and inspired by Shakespeare and the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.

I explore a practical way of living Steps One, Two, and Three—not as ideas or slogans, but as lived experience.

Through a scene that arose in meditation, I reflect on honesty, hope, surrender, and the daily choice between self-will and allowing guidance beyond myself to take the lead.

Passages from the Big Book, pages 60 - 62, are read and reflected upon, showing how stepping out of self-direction and accepting guidance changes how life is lived, moment by moment.

This is a short, contemplative episode meant to leave space for reflection.

I explore the role of sponsorship in early sobriety, and how my guidance began to shift as my recovery deepened—from external support toward inner direction.

Through a symbolic dream and reflections on AA, the Bhagavad Gita, and the Buddha, I examine my movement from borrowed recovery toward an inner compass rooted deep down within.

This episode invites reflection on when reliance on personalities gives way to trust in the Innermost Self.

Step ten turns the attention inward and reveals what is actually operating beneath our thoughts, emotions, and actions. This reflection explores the death of the ego, the practice of daily inventory, and the importance of aligning outer behavior with inner honesty. The focus is on sincere self-observation, responsibility, and the inner work that restores clarity and integrity.

This entry is offered for those walking the path of sobriety who seek deeper understanding beyond appearances and want to see the roots of their suffering through a disciplined and esoteric lens.