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WTF is on my Mind?!

WTF is on my Mind?!

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Author, Speaker, Whistleblower and award-winning Director Mark Vicente was behind the sleeper hit “What The Bleep Do We Know?!” Several books have been written about the film’s remarkable grassroots marketing campaign, which led to its unprecedented success.

Mark was born in Johannesburg, South Africa in 1965. Taking his first photograph at age four, he quickly discovered his passion for being behind the camera. After attending film and drama school in South Africa, he began working his way up the ranks of the camera department, from Assistant to Operator to Cinematographer. His first big break came as Director of Photography on the musical “SARAFINA,” starring Whoopi Goldberg. In 1992, he set his sights on Hollywood and relocated to Los Angeles to shoot his first studio picture for Disney; “FATHERHOOD,” starring Patrick Swayze and Halle Berry. At the age of 26, he became one of the youngest cinematographers to shoot a big-budget studio picture.

Over the next few decades, he went on to shoot an additional 14 feature films and numerous documentaries, music videos and commercials. Mark soon found there were in him, untold stories he desperately wanted to express as a Director. He was driven by the conviction that tales of greatness, nobility and introspection could be exciting and financially successful.

Perhaps because of the very obvious race and class iniquities in South Africa, he found himself propelled to question certain fundamental assumptions at a very young age. Beliefs about human behavior, cosmology, religion, existentialism and mysticism. Along the way, he stumbled into a few situations where leaders with malignant pathologies (masquerading as saintly philosophers) spoke the talk of self-improvement but did untold damage to their followers... and him.

Looking back, he can now say he has been in at least two cults. His last foray into personal growth and his defection from NXIVM was chronicled in the HBO series “The Vow”. Mark and a few plucky whistleblowers exposed the criminal activities of the organization, resulting in multiple arrests and indictments. He doesn’t consider himself a cult expert, but by his own admission, “I’m an expert in being screwed over, waking up, and knowing how to spot them.” He’s got a pretty salty approach to most things and is fascinated by the myriad patterns in the human psychodynamic that create the best and the worst in civilization.

Join Mark as he unpacks a whole range of topics to do with: Psychology, Consciousness, Morality, Narcissistic Abuse, Spirituality, Cults, Propaganda, Science, Filmmaking, and Philosophy.You never quite know what you’re going to get, as it really does depend on… WTF is on his mind?!

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  • Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Keilan Part 1 "The Mission"

    Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Keilan Part 1 "The Mission"
    Apr 12 2026

    For over four years I've been documenting the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a very dark story behind the public image. This is my deep dive investigation. We've heard from Jacqueline Graham in Episodes 1 and 2. Now it's time to hear from Keilan McNeil.

    Keilan's entry point into Bentinho's world is completely different from Jacqueline's. He wasn't a spiritual seeker. He was a twenty-two year old film school dropout, isolated, angry at the system, going down conspiracy YouTube at two in the morning. Bentinho didn't offer him enlightenment. He offered him purpose. And that distinction matters - because purpose is a harder hook to see, and a harder one to let go of.

    This episode covers Keilan's arc from the first YouTube video through Egypt, Hawaii, and Italy. Along the way we meet Cory Katuna for the first time - Bentinho's right-hand woman, the person who kept the whole operation running. We also meet Allison McClarty, Bentinho's girlfriend during this period, whose story is one of the more difficult ones in the series. And we spend time on something essential to understand about these organizations - the way they take your clearest, most legitimate instincts and weaponize them against you. Every group does it. The language is always different. The move is always the same.

    As with all of them, Keilan broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story.

    Bentinho Massaro's standing invitation to appear on this podcast remains open.

    The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.

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  • Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 2 "All In"

    Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 2 "All In"
    Apr 5 2026

    In Part One, we met Jacqueline Graham, a Canadian mother of three, a lifelong spiritual seeker, and the woman who would become Bentinho Massaro's girlfriend. We watched her get drawn in: the love bombing, the pedestaling, the first cruelties, the money handed over in Panama. This episode is about what happened after she decided to go all in.

    "All In" covers the full arc of Jacqueline's time inside: the financial coercion, the manipulation tactics, a letter she was asked to sign at a monastery in the Netherlands that she probably shouldn't have, a night in Vegas she describes as one of the most degrading experiences of her life, and the slow, painful collapse that finally led her out. It ends with the two words she sent to a woman she'd never met, whose story turned out to be her own story.

    Throughout this episode I've woven narration in and out of Jacqueline's account, trying to give the listener the psychological scaffolding to understand what they're hearing. Not just what happened, but why it makes sense that it happened, and why the people it happened to are not the ones who should carry the shame of it. We get into betrayal blindness and DARVO, two concepts developed by psychologist Dr. Jennifer Freyd that turn out to be an almost perfect description of how organizations like this one operate. We talk about shame -- how it's manufactured, how it's weaponized, and how it keeps people silent long after they've left. And we talk about what actually helps: connection, comparison of notes, and the decision not to hide.

    Jacqueline broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story. She did it anyway. Because she felt she had no choice.

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    The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.

    Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicente
    Website: www.markvicente.com
    Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@markvicente7
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    49 m
  • Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 1 'The Seeker'

    Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 1 'The Seeker'
    Mar 29 2026

    I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just a different face.

    For the video version of this podcast, head over to Youtube.

    My name is Mark Vicente. I'm a filmmaker and a former member of NXIVM, the cult run by Keith Raniere, who is currently serving 120 years in federal prison. I was one of the whistleblowers who helped bring that organization down. That experience was chronicled in The Vow on HBO.

    This is Inst@Guru, a new investigative podcast series going inside the world of Bentinho Massaro. Dutch. Blonde. Blue-eyed. Charming. Self-proclaimed enlightened being. Claims his penis has healing properties. Claims he's going to awaken civilization by 2035. Believes he's Ra, an extraterrestrial being in human form, here to correct a cosmic mistake.

    He still has followers. He launched a new app in 2025. The machine is still running.

    At the center of this series are three people who were inside his world, some of them deep inside, some of them for years. They call themselves the Three Amigos. Their names are Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, and Jade Alectra. All three broke their NDAs, agreements carrying significant six-figure penalty clauses, because they felt they had no choice.

    I believe them.

    In this episode, Jacqueline Graham tells her story from the beginning. Not from Bentinho... from herself. From who she was before any of this: a Canadian mother of three, a raw vegan restaurateur, a lifelong spiritual seeker who genuinely wanted to understand the deeper nature of reality. She found Bentinho on YouTube in 2013. By 2019, she was his girlfriend. By 2020, he had taken hundreds of thousands of dollars of her money.

    This episode covers how it started. The teachings. The retreat in the Netherlands. The moment she watched the women around him fall apart and told herself: "I wouldn't act like that." The love bombing. The pedestalling. The first withdrawal. And the decision, standing in a hotel room in Panama after $80,000 had vanished overnight, that she was never going to doubt him again.

    That decision is where Episode 1 ends. It is not where the story ends.

    Bentinho Massaro, the invitation remains. Talk to me. Publicly.

    CAST OF CHARACTERS link coming soon.

    Want to go deeper? Join the Patreon community, people who understand this world, who engage with the work as it's being made, and who get behind-the-scenes access, early information, and invites to special screenings. Link below.

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    The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.

    Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicente
    Website: www.markvicente.com
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Sensitive and kind as usual. Thank you for sharing such an emotional part of your experiences with us.

Great debrief!

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Listening through this podcast has felt like sitting down for a thought-provoking genuine conversation with a friend. Vicente remarkably discusses his thoughts and experience with coercive control with equally inquisitive and vulnerable nature. Upon catching up to the most present episode I found myself immediately seeking out his book for a deeper dive.

A fascinating window into his lived experience

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Coming from a background in psychology, it's fascinating listening to Mark & Mike discuss these experiences with cults. They do such a great job that it makes it easy for the listeners to understand the complex behavioral dynamics in high control systems. I wish I could sit down for coffee with these guys and continue this conversation.

Great first guest

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I always try to catch Mark on other people's podcasts, but how awesome is it he has one of his own? I especially like his exploration of how trauma has effected him (and everyone who has experienced it) in his journey as an artist/creative. Helpful insights.

So excited to find this

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Mark, thank you for sharing this insight and sending healing thoughts and love to you, Bonnie, Sarah, Nippy, India and all of the victims that are waking up and finding there way back.
Bonnie’s song is so powerful and beautiful and I can’t wait to hear more.

Exceptional.

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