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How steamy is it? Hot Damn

Publisher's Summary

Would you live a lie to hold onto the one you love?

Dean and Jason are best friends, like brothers since boyhood, now architecture students and college roommates. They've always had each other's back, but when one walks in on the other with another man, everything changes. How do you explain to your best friend that he's the one you've always wanted, that until now your life has been a lie?

Desperation and shame are two dirty words that run through Jason's veins. He carries the scars from a wayward priest who stole his innocence and left him shattered. Meanwhile for years he's watched Dean pursuing woman after woman, as his own heart slowly breaks.

When their world blows apart, they learn the powerful bond between them has more fire than either understood. Can two broken souls find the light in their darkness and come together to make a whole, or will sins of the past be forever unforgiven?

©2017 Ruth Clampett (P)2017 Tantor

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ABSOLUTE GARBAGE!

Would you try another book from Ruth Clampett and/or Eric London and Iggy Toma ?

NO NOT AT ALL

What do you think your next listen will be?

A BETTER BOOK

What didn’t you like about Eric London and Iggy Toma ’s performance?

THEIR VOICES WERE EXTREMELY ANNOYING

If you could play editor, what scene or scenes would you have cut from Unforgiven?

LITERALLY ALL OF IT

Any additional comments?

I am so angry that I spent even a second listening to this book. First of all, it was literally written like a fan fiction. The most tacky, embarrassing, and unrealistic sex scenes were in almost ever chapter of this book. I'm not over exaggerating when I say this, but you could find something written like this on fanfiction.net. The author also made sure the two main characters were as sexist as possible which was obnoxious to listen to because it was so obvious that it was written by a woman. ALSO MORE THAN ANYTHING THE AUTHOR DIDN'T DO HER RESEARCH. The book is set in Salt Lake City and the only reason she picked that was because she wanted to set the book in a religious town to make it even harder for the characters. BUT HERES THE THING. I am from SLC and I am gay and I have only been welcomed with love. SLC is an EXTREMELY LGBTQ friendly place and the fact that she picked this town as the place where it is set just because of STEREOTYPES is offensive to say the least. Yes, there are Mormons here obviously but there are far more non Mormons or ex Mormons then actual active Mormons. AND the people that are Mormons are still VERY FRIENDLY TO LGBTQ PEOPLE. Honestly, theres no other way to put this but this book is tacky and offensive. If you are LITERALLY just looking for a book that has a badly written sex scene in every chapter I guess this book is for you.

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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NOT a good story

the drama is dragged out far too long. the story does not work. and is not believable. i stopped the book at chapter 16

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Great book! 💘

this book was so good. Jason is a gay man who is in love with his childhood friend Dean but he feels wrong for loving him because at an early age he was molested by his priest who told him he was sinful for the feelings he felt for boys, so he plays straight for a while. Dean who is straight doesn't know what his friend went through but he catches him one day with a man, and that just sets him on a confusing emotional roller coaster of jealousy and. curiosity about his own sexuality.
Dean can come across as a butt hole a lot in this book but then in the same breath he redeems himself by being the rock in Jason's life that he desperately needs. Jason is of course a broken man, so he has lots of weak, vulnerable times in the book.
I loved the book I could have listened to another 10hrs. I hope there's a book 2 just so I can revisit these characters, I like how Dean tries in vain to resist Jason, and how his love grows so deep for Jason. this book is worth the credit/money, and reread.

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kinda dissapointed

First of: Im not that big of a fan of audibooks with 2 narrators and I blught this one course of Iggy Toma. Sadly this book was moostly read from Deans prespective so I didnt get as much Iggy I had hoped. Not that Eric London didnt do a good job, actually suprised me. I just dont like when you get used to one persons narration and someone els do the voices different.

Now for the book... Im not one to complain about a little agnst here and there, but in this its so maxed out of agnst and missunderstandings that I found myself getting a little angry when I listened. And Dean didnt make things better with what an asshole he was to Jason when he found out he was gay. He made it out that now his life was so out of order he didnt know what to do with himself, so he go all out on being an idiot!
It was still an interesting story, just wish it had been better. Also I was hoping for a complete m/m romance but there are some m/f that Dean insist is ok, but once Jason hook up Dean explode. =__= Sigh!

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GRRRR!!!! But - It's a Keeper!

I was ready to kill Dean for over a Third of this book! But I also realized this is probably a realistic reaction for some people. Dean and Jason are an interesting and complicated dynamic. They were both really good people. I really liked Jason. It saddens me how people believe whatever the church says without any investigation or self-examination. How a parent could reject their child is beyond me. This was well worth listening to and I will listen to it again! Both narrators were good, pacing was pretty good. I am going to check into more of Ruth's writing!

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intense, sexy and at times downright scary!

i would absolutely recommend this book to anyone that likes romance novels with substance. it reminded me of Felice Stevens "Through Hell and Back Series" which you will like if you enjoyed Unforgiven and vice versa. Chapter 50 was a nail biter and it nearly overwhelmed me emotionally.

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  • HUFFLEPUFF
  • Lansdowne, PA, United States
  • 07-20-17

Weak and lame

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

No. I do not like drug use and codependent relationships. Jason needs help and bring in a relationship with a person who does not know who he is just adds to his mental issues. If I were Dean I would feel extremely trapped.

Would you ever listen to anything by Ruth Clampett again?

Not if she continues to write about weak subjects with no substance. Having only a physical connection is not enough.

What does Eric London and Iggy Toma bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you just read the book?

They were the best part of the book.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

Nothing. I was pissed the majority of the book. The sexual abuse and self loathing was too much. I feel the book had too much stuff.

Any additional comments?

If it was about a strong love over coming obstacles in the past I would have enjoyed it more. Dean is the dumb jock who I could not like no matter how much I tried and Jason was a needy, winey and mentally and emotionally abused man who should have gotten help before getting into a relationship with and immature man.

5 of 8 people found this review helpful

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Maybe worth a credit.

It reads like it used to be a fanfiction. So much that I think I can guess the fandom.

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Bff to lovers

I was not a fan of Dean in the beginning. He could never really seem to see Jason even though they were almost inseparable. But he too comes around and becomes a better friend to Jason. I loved the ending. The narration was super great. I will always be the biggest fan of Iggy Toma. I melt when he speaks!!!

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What a ride!

Wow! What a book. Jason and dean have been friends since they were little. There relationship turns romantic, and hold on because it is a ride. There were happy moments, sad moments, and down right hot 🔥🔥moments. I couldn't put the book down! As for the narrators they nailed it! They both did a awesome job!! I can't wait to read more by this author !!!!

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  • Mags Esporlas
  • 06-06-18

Seems very unrealistic..

Finished the book but felt like the relationship between the two characters was rushed and underdeveloped. I think considering their age however I wouldn't expect a more dramatic complication or obstacle to overcome. It however still felt quite shallow.

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  • 10-16-17

Odd voices

Story was good. The narrators voice was a little distracting especially when doing female voices.