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Publisher's Summary
“An extraordinary accomplishment.... A remarkable book that will be of great value to people who feel isolated, alienated and overwhelmed by the circumstances of their lives.” --Hubert Selby, Jr., author of Last Exit to Brooklyn
“[Stahl] is a better-than-Burroughs virtuoso.” --Thomas Mallon, The New Yorker
“Original, appalling, indelible picture of a man trying to swim and drown at the same time. Stahl has nerve, heart, a language of his own and a ghastly, riotous humor.” --Tobias Wolff, author of This Boy’s Life
“Permanent Midnight is one of the most harrowing and toughest accounts ever written in this century about what it means to be a junkie in America, making Burroughs look dated and Kerouac appear as the nose-thumbing adolescent he was.” --Booklist
A searing confessional infused with the darkest humor, Permanent Midnight chronicles the opiated abyss of a Hollywood screenwriter and his formidable climb into sobriety.
Made into a major motion picture starring Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson, Permanent Midnight is revered by critics and an ever-growing cult of devoted fans as one of the most compelling contemporary memoirs.
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WOW; Brutally Honest!
From page one gut reaching, raw and real addiction experiences of Jerry Stahl. The asks over and over- How is this man still alive? He truly has an Angel on his shoulder. Well worth the read!
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- Anonymous User
- 09-26-19
Music in the background driving me mad!!!
I've listened to a lot of audiobooks now and never heard any with a background track and to be honest I don't know if I'll be able to finish the book..... It's doing my head in!!!
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- Alfred
- 06-20-20
Don’t download this audio:
This is the worst recording of an audiobook I’ve come across. The narrator is in an echoey room and there’s a backing track for the whole book. It’s an absolute waste of money and the producers of it should be thrown out of a plane.