One. Little. Pill
My Journey from Addiction and Darkness to Purpose and Light
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Deb Lawless-Miller
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Addiction has no boundaries. Anyone can find themselves struggling. Deb Lawless-Miller didn’t fit any picture she held of what a drug addict would look like, and found it all too easy to deny that she had a problem. She became trapped in a web of lies: to her parents, her husband and child, her boss, and to herself.
This deeply moving memoir takes us through three phases of her adult life: the chase, the crash, and the choice. She brings the listener alongside her into every scene, whether it’s forging prescriptions, going through withdrawals while in a courtroom, or entering rehab—but through it all, staying connected to her bottomless well of love for her young son.
One. Little. Pill. is a gripping story of the opioid crisis at a profoundly personal level. It is a true account of resilience, recovery, and the significance of a Higher Power.
One. Little. Pill. is not only an engaging chronicle of one woman’s journey through addiction and 12-Step recovery, it’s a beacon of hope for anyone who feels alone with substance use challenges or wants to help a loved one in that situation.
Deb Lawless-Miller takes listeners through every difficult step so candidly that her eventual spiritual awakening and transformation is completely relatable. The victory of lightness, healing, and purpose becomes a real possibility for anyone who can muster a little courage to make a change, one day at a time.
©2024 Deb Lawless-Miller (P)2024 Deb Lawless-MillerListeners also enjoyed...
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