My Beautiful Suicide

By: Atty Eve

Narrated by: Michelle Sparks

Length: 11 hrs and 40 mins

Publisher's Summary

Suicide is selfish. 

It tells the world that you are weak. It tells the world your family and friends have failed. It leaves them with guilt that they could have done more but didn't. It tells them they are clueless and helpless. 

I am weak, but I am not selfish. 

My suicide will not leave my family and friends with guilt and shame; it will leave them thankful that they knew me for the short time I was here.” – Cosette Hugo 

Her brother died. Her parents divorced. Her high school bully is relentless. Cosette doesn't have a lot to live for, but it isn't until she accidentally kills someone that Cosette makes the decision to take her own life. Unwilling to bring shame to her mom, best friend Mattie, or her boyfriend Chris, Cosette decides the best method of suicide is to become a victim of the local serial killer, The Poser. But every time she goes out to find him she gets attacked; her instincts take over, and she ends up killing her attackers. This quickly leads to unbearable guilt. Desperate to finish this before she gets caught or racks up more victims, Cosette does the unthinkable. 

“And when I reach my final goal, to meet my brother in heaven, and we're looking down at my victim in Hell, he will say to me ‘Well done, Cosette. What a Beautiful Suicide.”

©2013 Atty Eve (P)2018 Atty Eve

🌟🌟 5 Stars 🌟🌟

This book was recommended to me by a friend who knows my taste and I started it immediately when she described it as Cruel Intentions meets Pretty Little Liars meets Heathers... that alone had me completely intrigued. And man she was completely right, I think it was mostly like Heathers which I loved.

I hesitate to say this is YA because it's not, it just has teenage characters not teenage situations. This book was dark and twisty and I listened until I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer! It would have been one I finished in 1 day if I had started it earlier. I love when a book pulls me in and it's like an accident you can't look away from, you know the kind, the book you know your not supposed to like cause it's dark and a whole lot of messed up but you love it and want to tell the world about how good it is! I don't want to tell anything about the story in my review because these are the type of stories I think are best enjoyed when you go in blind. It ended in a cliffhanger but not one that had me screaming at the author and it probably helps that I know book 2 will be out on audio very soon! This author just moved herself onto my auto buy list with just 1 book!

The narration was perfect! Michelle Sparks really did an awesome job as Cozy & as Chris. She is the type of narrator that makes you forget your listening to someone read you a story and makes you feel like your there while it's happening.

10 of 10 people found this review helpful

Well worth the listen

I really enjoyed the story and the narrator was great. The characters were very likable and it kept you wanting to know what was going to happen. A different take on her view of how she wanted to leave this world. Cliffhanger makes you want to know what is next. Recommend this book.

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

Dark, Edgy and I Love It

OMG, I love this story. One, because when you see the cover and the title, you immediately want to know what the heck this book is about. Second, it's written really well and the author knows how to capture the attention of the listener/reader. Although the main characters are teens, the story takes me back to high school and all its drama and issues I had with family and bullying. Third, I'm a fan of dark and this story has it.

If you are/were a fan of Heathers, Jawbreaker or Pretty Little Liars, then you'll love this twisted tale about a girl who wanted to give up on life, but found out that she had a better way to cope...

Michelle Sparks did such a great job with the characters. She really tapped into the emotions of Cozy and I could hear pain, grief, sarcasm, and that teenage spirit I recognize. I can't wait to hear the rest of the series.

2 of 2 people found this review helpful

Not what I was expecting

My Beautiful Suicide was not what I was expecting. I expected a dark story, which we got, but it is so much more than that. This story is so complex that I soon myself hanging on the edge of my seat waiting for what was coming next. This book has a bit of mystery as well. Just when I thought I had it figured out, BAM! Another twist. While I guessed the whodunit at one point, I was still shocked when it was revealed. I only briefly suspected the person. While this book discusses suicide, I feel the book is much more than just that. It is about a lot of complex issues.

The narrator, Michelle Sparks, really brought this story to life for me. I will be honest, I am not sure I would have fell as in love with this story had it not been for Michelle. Her voice is pleasant as velvet, but also adds an air of mystery to the story. I really love how she is able to bring each character to life and give them their own personalities. I didn't feel as if one person was reading this book. I felt as if each character was present and I was hearing the book from each of them.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

Fascinating Perspective with a few surprises

The story point of view makes this particularly intriguing. Cosy is a character you really support from first introduction. Her story is one I would recommend to adults or YA even though I did not classify it in that manner. The teenage situation would make both audiences become fans.

Michelle did a great job with her narration adding that extra layer of emotion which I like with my audiobooks. Though i was not able to listen in one sitting, when I came back to it I was I was immediately immersed back into the story.

Great character development by Atty and I suspect the same will be true with Volume 2. It was easy to relate some of the drama back to young people I know or knew when I was in high school.

The cliffhanger aspect will certainly make me consider Volume 2 when it is released. I think this series will get even stronger over time.

Bring on Volume 2.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

Twists & Turns Abound

I was completely floored by the storyline and the amazing narration. I even found myself backtracking just to ensure that the things I heard throughout the storyline had really taken place. Well-written with incredible characters and I must tell you that I was completely glued to this audiobook. The twists and turns that occur within this fast-paced story will blow you right out of the water and I highly recommend that you listen to this.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

My Beautiful Suicide

Wow! At first, I was mad at the adults in this book, because I wondered how blind could they be to Cosette's pain. One thing this book teaches is that one can look whole on the outside, but be breaking down inside. It's the story of a girl who decides to stand up for herself, and not in the way that some may think; a girl who is broken inside and all of her the hurt spills out in a dangerous way.


I loved it! It was gritty, emotional, and for me, a bit sad. How does one get to the point of deciding to end their life or to the point where they feel they can't tell you that they stopped something horrific from happening. I was rooting for Cosette. I could feel her turmoil. I was scared for her. Michelle Sparks' narration made me feel like I was Cosette. Her narration allowed me to see and feel everything that was taking place. When Cosette's mom was telling her about Hilda, I actually felt my heart beating fast, as she tried to pretend that she didn't care. I wanted to cry. This will make a wonderful movie.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

Great Book!!!

I really, really enjoyed this book! The narrator was great and the story kept me wanting more. So much of this story went completely different than what I was predicting. Big cliff hanger so I am now off to book 2!!!

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

A DARK AND TWISTED RIDE INDEED...

This was a great audiobook! I love dark & twisted, and found it highly entertaining! It's about a girl in high school that doesn't have a lot to live for (in her view) but keeps going, until an accident that changed everything. Now she's torn between suicide, becoming the local serial killer's next victim , and killing again.

What a fascinating listen, I was captivated and enjoyed the whole thing from start to finish. Well written and beautifully narrated. Really great, and can't wait to listen to more in the series! Enjoyed it a lot :)

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My Beautiful Suicide Series, Volume 1 review

Where does My Beautiful Suicide rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

High among favorites. It's something I'd listen to again. It's really interesting.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Cosette.

What about Michelle Sparks’s performance did you like?

She really told the story well, in particular, the main character, Cosette.

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

Yes.

Any additional comments?

Five stars.

You should be able to manoeuvre a bathroom by now.

Life was miserable for Cossette Hugo. Her older brother, Victor, had come back a hero from Iraq when she was just 13, only to be killed by a motorist texting on his mobile phone not long after. Cossette had loved and admired her brother and missed him terribly. Her parents had split up then, his father leaving to marry a blond bimbo named Tawny, taking the house, the money and pretty much everything else apart from her, forcing his mother to work double shifts at the hospital to simply pay the bills of both of them. But it meant she didn't see her mum much. To make everything even worse, now over two years later, a gorgeous looking girl named Hilda Dyson, was making life at school unbearable with her bullying attacks which terrified Cossette and left her bruised and in trouble with the Principal.

Cossette's only constant pleasure was the company of her Christian friend, Matty, and her kind and generous family, and running through the streets at night: a possibly dangerous occupation now, given the serial rapist killer who has been operating in the town. She wished she were dead but suicide is weak and cowardly and also selfish: she couldn't do that to her mother. Then suddenly things became even worse for her. And she developes a crazy plan.

My Beautiful Suicide is an unusual book which begins as a fairly normal story with one teenage schoolgirl with such a lot going for her but unable to see past her daily terrors, to something else entirely. Well written, it makes for compulsive reading as Cossette's life spirals out of control in her quest for the perfect suicide whilst, at the same time, actually provides her with reasons to stay alive. The main protagonists, and Cossette and her school lunch time friend, the athletic Chris, are quite well drawn and the book becomes a mix of incipient romance, Christian advice from ever patient and loyal Matty, terrors and disgust of a personal kind, a murder mystery (not hard to see the resolution of the who-dun-it?) anger problems and alienation, and very frequent baths. The story line is compelling, keeping the reader's interest alive, like Cossette herself, throughout.

The book is greatly enhanced by the performance of Michelle Sparks, who slightly breathy and youthful voice is the perfect foil for Cassette, who is relating her story in the first person. Ms.Sparks reads with emotion, good intonation and expression and even also gives seperate, if only slightly different, voices to the other protagonists. Even the longer than expected pauses between chapters encourages a tension. Hers is a performance which really carries the story forward.

An easy read if not always comfortable, it is not a book for young people despite the protagonists ages, given the content covered. But recommended for more adult readers who enjoy reading about the darker aspects of the mind and of the world itself.