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Lights On, Rats Out
- A Memoir
- Narrated by: Cree LeFavour
- Length: 10 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Release date: 08-01-17
- Language: English
- Publisher: Blackstone Audio, Inc.
- Whispersync for Voice-ready
Regular price: $24.47
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Publisher's Summary
As a young college graduate a year into treatment with a psychiatrist, Cree LeFavour began to organize her days around the cruel, compulsive logic of self-harm: With each newly lit cigarette, the world would drop away as her focus narrowed on the fierce, blooming release of pleasure-pain as the burning tip was applied to an unblemished patch of skin. Her body was a canvas of cruelty, each scar a mark of pride and shame.
In sharp and shocking language, Lights On, Rats Out brings us closely into these years. We see the world as Cree did - turned upside down, the richness of life muted and dulled, its pleasures perverted. The heady thrill of meeting with her psychiatrist, Dr. Adam N. Kohl - whose relationship with Cree is at once sustaining and paralyzing - comes to be the only bright spot in her days.
Lights On, Rats Out illuminates a fiercely bright and independent woman's charged attachment to a mental-health professional and the dangerous compulsion to keep him in her life at all costs.
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- Jessica
- 08-06-17
Good but distant
Beautiful writing. Very focused on the relationship with the therapist, which was interesting. There was a certain distance to it that I can't put my finger on. She would describe emotional motives in abstract ways. I like the book and it's worth the listen, but it lacked a certain depth that these types of memoirs typically have for me.
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