Kiss Me Again

By: Garrett Leigh

Narrated by: Dan Calley

Length: 5 hrs and 41 mins

Publisher's Summary

Tree surgeon Aidan Drummond is content with his own company. He works alone and lives alone, and it doesn’t occur to him to want anything else, until a life-changing accident lands him in hospital. Then, a glimpse of the beautiful boy in the opposite bed changes everything.

Ludo Giordano is trapped on the ward with a bunch of old men. His mind plays tricks on him, keeping him awake. Then, late one night, a new face brings a welcome distraction. Their unlikely friendship is addictive and, like most things in Ludo’s life, temporary.

Back in the real world, Aidan’s monochrome existence is no longer enough. He craves the color Ludo brought him, and when a chance meeting brings them back together, before long, they’re inseparable again.

But bliss comes with complications. Aidan is on the road to recovery, but Ludo has been unwell his entire life, and that’s not going to change. Aidan can kiss him as much as he likes, but if he can’t help Ludo when he needs him most, they don’t stand a chance.

Praise for the book:

"Kiss Me Again is a deliciously tender and prickly romance about the intimacy that comes with acceptance. Ludo and Aidan accept and love each other for exactly who they are - complications, injuries, mental health issues, moods - and I loved them for it." (Roan Parish, author of In the Middle of Somewhere)

©2019 Garrett Leigh (P)2020 Garrett Leigh

Another one of my favs on audio...

I think 'Kiss Me Again' has become one of my favorite Garrett Leigh stories. I loved the hell out of this story the first time I read it and now listening to it on audio...well, I think I came to love it even more. I would have added more stars to my rating, if that were possible but sadly it is not.

Dan Calley was the narrator for this audio book and he's a new to me narrator that I'm definitely looking forward to hearing more from. For me the voices he created to fill out the image of these characters was very much in sync with what I'd created in my mind when I originally read this story so listening to the audio book was even more enjoyable for me.

At this point I'm going to borrow a couple of paragraphs from my original review of this story because honestly I could write and write and write and not express why I enjoyed this book as much as I did better than I did in my original review (I know this because I just tried and failed) so, if it ain't broke, why try to fix it...

I love stories with characters that aren't perfect...they have weaknesses, flaws, medical conditions... whatever...they're real. They're not outrageously attractive and dynamic with amazingly successful careers or simply loaded with money, etc. etc. in a word they're not perfect, they're just ordinary, everyday people...because that's the kind of characters that I can relate to the best...mostly because..."Hello, ordinary, everyday person right here."

In 'Kiss Me Again' we meet Tree Surgeon Aidan Drummond. Aidan's a loner he doesn't want his life complicated by things and people...until an accident lands him in the hospital in a bed directly across from the bed occupied by Ludo Giordano, the most beautiful young man that Aidan's ever seen. Ludo's in the hospital following surgery and to get his meds regulated. Ludo's Bipolar and that means he's not going to get better, his condition isn't going away at the best of times things will be managed.

I had more than a little appreciation for Aidan's struggles and determination to understand what being bipolar meant for Ludo and how it could impact his life...as someone who spent 15+ years working in community healthcare I found this to be dealt with in both an effective and compassionate manner.

From the first time they lay eyes on each other Aidan and Ludo connect. The connection that they share isn't a 'love-at-first-sight' connection. This is about two people who get each other they understand how the other's brain works, what makes them tick, what soothes them, what irritates them...they just get each other it's a bit of an inexplicable thing that just happens. It's like meeting someone for the first time but feeling like you've known them for years. That's how things start for Aidan and Ludo and during their hospital stay the bond that they felt when the first saw each other begins to strengthen.

'Kiss Me Again' is a story about a friendship that found it's way to love. What captured my heart the most about these two men was how they fit, how each of them wanted to care for the other not by changing them but by being able to give them strength when they were weak, by quietly filling their moments of need with strength.

From start to finish I was enchanted with the quiet and simplistic beauty that was Ludo and Aidan's relationship. 'Kiss Me Again' is about the magic of love in an ordinary world between ordinary people to create something extraordinary in their lives.

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Good Story, Great Narration

I liked the story and it was refreshing to see accurate representation of a person struggling with bipolar disorder. I liked both Aidan and Ludo and enjoyed following their love story develop. This book had few hard to listen parts, but that's the life of people who are dealing with bipolar disorder and those who love them. Narrator did a great job, he is new for me and I will keep looking out for the books he narrated. Narrator's sexy voice made this good book into a great listening experience.

Wonderful story, good narration.

I read and reviewed the ebook of Kiss Me Again back in June 2019. Now I've had the chance to listen to this wonderful story performed by Dan Calley and I loved it all over again. This is the third book I've listened to performed by Dan Calley and I'm getting used to his voice now. His tone is very pleasing; it has just taken me a few books to fully get used to his accent.

Below is what I wrote when I reviewed the ebook:
Kiss Me Again deals with the difficult topic of mental illness and Garrett Leigh handles it beautifully and compassionately. She didn't put any trigger warnings in the book's blurb. As much as I hate them sometimes, I think it might be wise to mention that the story has recollections of things that one of the MC's has done in the past. Things like cutting and suicidal thoughts. The other MC has a drinking problem at the beginning of the story.

Now that I've gotten that out of the way I must try to convey how much I loved Kiss Me Again. It's kind of funny to me… One of the ways I measure how much I like a book is by how much it makes me cry. Surprisingly to me, I didn't shed a tear while reading this story but I still loved it.

While this deals with very serious topics there are still some lighter moments and the story is far from being what I would consider really dark. Both Aidan and Ludo are broken in some ways but somehow, they manage to forge a friendship that turns into something much more. Ludo brings light into Aidan's dark world and Aidan helps to calm and provide stability for Ludo.

This is what I consider a slow burn story; you won't find pages and pages of hot sex. What you will find is two men who learn to care for each other and put their needs behind those of their partner.

I applaud the author for writing a story about such a difficult subject that most people don't want to talk about or even acknowledge exists. I have seen depression and mental illness up close and personal and Garrett Leigh has written a touching love story that also felt very realistic to me.

A copy of this audiobook was provided to me but my review was voluntary and not influenced by the author.

***Reviewed for Xtreme-Delusions dot com***

Hello Darkness my old friend

3.5 to 4 Blue Roses
4 Blue Flames

Narrator Dan Calley masterfully delivered a dark and depressing mm romance. So-so fucking dark! He has the perfect natural narration style or demeanor for shit like this. His unique ability to create a cumbersome milieu inside the listening experience astounds me. I want to mention his word pronunciation and breathing has slowed to a point to where I do understand him easier. (So Kudo’s for growing and getting better with each book.)

Now, for the plot itself. I’m starting with this so I can get it out of my system. This book is about a person struggling with severe anxiety disorder coupled that with bipolar disorder. (Lithium does not get adjusted according to the mood of a patient. Lithium blood levels are drawn to reach a therapeutic level and the meds get adjusted according to those levels. A higher level of Lithium, other than the therapeutic level will damage kidney functions. It does not happen in one day, it happens in 6 to 8 weeks, so Lithium does not get to be increased and decreased according to the mood level.) OK, it’s out of my system.

The love story itself is beautiful and truly inspiring, I can see that this would make a beautiful movie. The plot is gripping and it constantly felt like something bad is going to happen. Thanks to Dan Calley!

I do recommend this audiobook, there is a promise of a little ray of hope waiting for the two lovers. If you like butterflies and unicorns pass. It is deep and very emotional, and I found it very meaningful.

Happy Listening

Angsty goodness!

Overall: 4.25 Stars!

I haven't read all that many books by Garrett Leigh, although her books in the Porthkennack series are my favorites in that particular universe, but after Kiss Me Again, I definitely will be checking out her previous works. 

This book is hurt/comfort at its best, with two broken main characters dealing with some heavy issues, especially Ludo, as he was bipolar. While I don't have deep knowledge about bipolar disorder, I found the story to be well-researched, interesting and heartbreaking. I think Ms. Leigh did a fantastic job at portraying both Ludo's episodes and Aidan's desire to make things better for him. Not that Aidan wasn't on quite a journey himself, seeing as the book starts right when Aidan suffers an accident that lays him up in bed with several injuries, including a broken leg, for which he eventually needs surgery and will never be the same after. 

Aidan is gruff and closed-off from his coworkers and his cousin, a byproduct of an abusive father, and he drinks quite a bit after being let out of the hospital, feeling sorry for himself. Ludo is a bit more open, but he's very self-conscious of his bipolarity and how difficult it could be for others to be with him while he's in one of his episodes. However, they bond while in the men's ward in the hospital and they help each other, maybe not heal, but start taking better care of themselves. It's a work in progress and I loved that it was very realistic in that sense. 

It took me a bit to adapt to Dan Calley's accent. I'm more used to the US accents, and English is not my first language, so Aidan's thicker accent was harder for me. Still, Dan's performance was really good and I enjoyed it a lot. I was really impressed that he could go from Ludo's more educated accent to Aidan's so flawlessly. 

Overall, this is an audiobook (and a story) that I have no trouble recommending.

Painful and yet joyful

I’m always hesitant to read books with main characters who have a mental illness. I’ve read some truly horrific books where the inaccuracies piled up, and nothing was authentic. Where the characters were defined solely by their illness and that wasn’t even portrayed accurately. I’ve read stories where the only options are apparently suicide or a total cure. A total cure would be great, but often not realistic. If someone is suffering from depression that is treated early and is transitory, that’s one thing. If a character has severe PTSD, it’s not going to turn around because they fall in love.

As someone with diagnosed bipolar, I am truly appreciative of authors who do the research and accurately portray the illness. I understand each person’s experience is different, and mine won’t mirror each character’s, but there is an authenticity that can ring true when the author has done the work.

Garrett Leigh had obviously done the work from her book Kiss Me Again. I loved this book. The story was great, but the characters pulled me in and held my attention.

Aidan lives a simple life. He’s an arborist who spends his days amongst the trees he loves. He’ll head to the pub for a pint, but other than that, he’s a solitary soul. Man, could I relate to that. Doing something I love and then coming home to be alone at the end of the day. He seemed quite content with his life until it all went sideways. An serious accident lands him in the hospital where he’s incapable of doing anything except enduing the pain, and wanting to get out as soon as he can. He’s facing a huge uphill battle to return to some semblance of normalcy – if it’s even possible – but he has his faculties about him, so that’s something.

Ludo is in the hospital because they need to fix a previous physical injury. The doctor is also monitoring his meds, ensuing compliance. Ludo doesn’t like the side effects, so he’s not always taking the dosage he needs. I can understand that. Drugs meant to stabilize the mind can have side effects that, in that moment, feel worse than the illness. Plus, when you’re feeling better, your mind tells you that you no longer need the drugs. Society also often sends that message. If you just have a better attitude, you won’t need the meds. Ludo is lucky he has a good team behind him. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t have setbacks.

While the two men are in the hospital, they cross paths. Ludo is, ironically, the more lucid of the two and he takes it upon himself to help the cute man who can’t do anything for himself. The nurses aren’t pleased, but Aidan finds this younger man fascinating. He’s appreciative of someone who knows how things work, since he’s never spent time in the hospital. One day, though Ludo is gone. Aiden figures he’ll never see the man again and it seems like that’s that.

Of course they do cross paths again, only it’s a few months later. Ludo is fairly stable on his meds, and Aidan is on his way to recovery. Once they make the connection, things move from there. This is a slow burn book, as it needs to be. Aidan worries about upsetting Ludo and is willing to take all the time in the world. He just wants to spend time with the younger man. As for Ludo, he has his mind to contend with:


Deja-vu often haunts me. Keeps me awake at night. Takes my days with doubt. But I like it with Aidan. It’s as if there are whole parts of our friendship that might come back to me later. Like shoring up my stash of medication for a rainy day.

I don’t need space. But that’s not true. A valium and a top-up dose of him hasn’t changed the fact I’m frightened of how much I like him. “I’m sorry,” I say instead.

“It’s okay,” he says. “You don’t owe me your time. I was just worried in case you needed me.”

I start to say that I don’t need him – that I can’t need anyone ever, but that’s a lie too, because I do need him. I needed this. The quiet conversation that doesn’t have to make sense. “Sometimes…sometimes I get a bit lost in my own head. I’m scared of things I like in case I lose them.”


I understand that battle. When things are going well, you wonder if it’ll end or if this will be the new normal. You wonder if maybe this time it’ll work out. You wonder if you can be stable enough to have a normal relationship.

This book offered no easy solutions, which I appreciated. It was a journey of exploration where Aidan is taking time to get to know Ludo, and Ludo is learning how to let someone in. He’s been alone for a long time and isn’t used to getting help from anyone except his medical team. Allowing Aidan to see him when he’s manic is a huge deal. Accepting Aidan’s help is something he probably never envisioned doing. But sometimes we meet the right person at the right time and everything falls into place. Even those of us with a mental illness deserve love and happiness.

On that note, I want to move to the narrator, Dan Calley. I’ve listened to a number of Dan’s books and I have to say I’m enjoying his performances. He has a deep and resonant voice that works for these men. He differentiates the characters perfectly and gives each a slightly different accent. For some listeners the differentiation may be too subtle, but it worked for me. Plus, I love Brits.

This book was the real deal for me. I was pulled into Ludo and Aiden’s worlds quickly and my attention was held. I’m glad I listened and I look forward to more from both Ms. Leigh and Mr. Calley.

Wonderfully real and genuine

Garrett Leigh writes wonderfully down to earth stories. Ones that feel so real and genuine I can’t help but be pulled into them. It was the same with Kiss me again. I had to keep listening to know how the seemingly mismatched Aiden and Ludo find their way. This story does not hold back. It gives the reader a glimpse into all the human frailties both of them have. I was sorry when the story ended. Dan Calley is fast becoming my choice for any British based story. His voice has the smoky grittiness to it that makes the characters three dimensional to me.