• If Only I Could Tell You

  • A Novel
  • By: Hannah Beckerman
  • Narrated by: Nicky Diss
  • Length: 9 hrs and 37 mins
  • 4.2 out of 5 stars (154 ratings)

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If Only I Could Tell You

By: Hannah Beckerman
Narrated by: Nicky Diss
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Publisher's summary

Hannah Beckerman pens a life-affirming novel that tells the story of a family divided and the secret that can possibly unite them - a must for fans of This Is Us.

A secret between two sisters.
A lifetime of lies unraveling.
Can one broken family find their way back to each other?

Audrey’s dream as a mother had been for her daughters, Jess and Lily, to be as close as only sisters can be. But now, as adults, they no longer speak to each other, and Audrey’s two teenage granddaughters have never met. Audrey just can’t help feeling like she’s been dealt more than her fair share as she’s watched her family come undone over the years, and she has no idea how to fix her family as she wonders if they will ever be whole again.

If only Audrey had known three decades ago that a secret could have the power to split her family in two, and yet, also keep them linked. And when hostilities threaten to spiral out of control, a devastating choice that was made so many years ago is about to be revealed, testing this family once and for all.

Once the truth is revealed, will it be enough to put her family back together again or break them apart forever?

©2019 Hannah Beckerman (P)2019 HarperAudio

Critic reviews

"Utterly compelling and completely heartbreaking. I couldn’t put it down." (Ruth Hogan)

"Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive about the corrosive legacy of family secrets." (Kate Eberlen, author of Miss You)

"I loved it (even though it made me cry)." (Jojo Moyes)

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I enjoyed this book! Get out the tissues! Narrator was good but her volume went up and down.

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very moving story

I couldn't stop listening. Good narration. Read with a lot of emotion. Heart wrenching at times. I would highly recommend

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Heartbreaking

It was a wonderful story even though it had a sad ending! I would recommend to read this story!!

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Captivating!

This book has all kinds of twists and turns and made me laugh out loud, gasp, cry, I think I even cursed at one point! It made me think that when we think we are protecting others, we could be altering unbeknownst situations in our future as well.

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4 heart-breaking, tear jerker, emotionally heavy, poignant, memorable, dysfunctional stars! Have tissues close at hand.

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Great story

It lured you in from the start. Couldn’t stop listening, but didn’t want it to end

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heartbreaking and breathtaking

the talented writers are those who through their stories can make you think of yourself and your life and remind you of events and fears and memories
the narrator also fills the story with emotion

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Great Book!

Not at all what I was thinking happened and when it came out I was shocked! Tear jerker!

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perfection

everything qbout this book was perfect! the story, the narration, the authors beautiful writing, soooooo good

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Narrator issues

I really wanted to like this book, but the narrator’s shrill, high-pitched voice was annoying. Her volume varied frequently and meant constantly adjusting the volume. At times she seemed to be keening or screaming (when reading Jess’ part) but instead of being moving it was irritating. The story was hard to believe and I lost interest.

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