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I Never Said I Loved You

Narrated by: Rhik Samadder
Length: 8 hrs

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'I'm in bed with my mother, in a Bangkok sex hotel. It is my 30th birthday, it is time for me to become a man, and I have grave worries about the kind of man I'm going to become.'

On an unlikely backpacking trip, Rhik and his mother find themselves speaking openly for the first time in years. Afterwards, the depression that has weighed down on Rhik begins to loosen its grip for a moment - so he seizes the opportunity: to own it, to understand it, and to find out where it came from.   

Through this begins a journey of investigation, healing and recovery. Along the way Rhik learns some shocking truths about his family, and realises that, in turn, he will need to confront the secrets he has long buried. But through this, he triumphs over his fears and brings his depression into the light.   

I Never Said I Loved You is the story of how Rhik learned to let go, and then keep going. With unique humour and honesty, he has created a powerfully rich, funny and poignant exploration of the light and dark in all of us. 

©2019 Rhik Samadder (P)2019 Headline Publishing Group Ltd

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  • markj
  • 08-11-19

Set aside some time and listen to this

I'm so glad I decided to listen to the audiobook, rather than reading this: it is deeply moving, sometimes very upsetting, and dotted throughout with touches of humour which make it both easier and more painful. The author's voice adds his humanity, his courage, his sadness. This is not a book to listen to whilst driving: it is a book for which to set time aside. It is not a book about depression, but rather an account of the ongoing attention needed by some of us in living life as well as we can, despite what seem like the odds.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 10-15-19

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I didn't want this book to end! I absolutely love Rhik's writing and use of language.

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  • Cathy
  • 10-13-19

There's hope for us all

Literally had me laughing out loud one moment and shedding tears the next. Never boring, this tale offers hope and encouragement to anyone suffering depression, and insight to those who don't.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 09-18-19

Wonderful book

Loved listening to this and didn’t want it to end. Beautifully written, funny & heart wrenching and wonderfully honest.

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  • R Williams
  • 09-05-19

Rhik rocks. Tender, heartfelt, moving, funny

Loved his Guardian articles. This book delves into his life, experiences and challenges with mental health. Listen to the end. Almost guruesque in insight and depth of thought and love and direction for a life well lived. Will be forcing this on friends and family. Loved it.

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  • Ella
  • 08-21-19

Wonderful

Heartbreaking and a tough listen at times, but beautifully written and wonderfully read, I didn't want it to end.