• I Have Not Loved You with My Whole Heart

  • By: Cris Harris
  • Narrated by: Cris Harris
  • Length: 7 hrs and 46 mins
  • 4.4 out of 5 stars (5 ratings)

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I Have Not Loved You with My Whole Heart

By: Cris Harris
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I Have Not Loved You with My Whole Heart is a memoir of trauma, healing, faith, and violence. At its center is the author’s father, the Rev. Renne Harris, a heavy-handed, alcoholic Episcopal priest who came out in the height of the AIDS crisis and died of HIV in 1995.

In a book rich with remembrances of the Pacific Northwest of the 1970s-1990s, Cris Harris pulls the listener through turning points in a household crowded with abuse, addiction, neglect, acceptance, and grief, as well as the healing that comes after reconciliation. In recognizing perpetrators of violence as complex people—as selves we can recognize—Harris wrestles with paradox: the keening dissonance of loving people with hard edges, the humor of horrible situations, and how humor can cover for anger. He shows how violence can mark us and courageously lays bare those marks, owning them as his own precious history, born of a fierce species of love.

I Have Not Loved You with My Whole Heart will speak to listeners whose family members came out late in life, and to those who lost loved ones in the AIDS crisis of the late 1980s and 1990s. Those with complicated relationships to faith, survivors of abuse, and anyone who has lived with family crisis will also find healing in these minutes.

©2021 Cris Harris (P)2022 Oregon State University Press
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A fun and moving read

I found this memoir moving, relatable and hard to put down. I have seldom read words this honest and poignant. Looking forward to more books by Cris Harris.

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