Hiding Out

A Memoir of Drugs, Deception, and Double Lives

By: Tina Alexis Allen

Narrated by: Tina Alexis Allen

Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen’s audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father—a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of thirteen children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed high school basketball prodigy, she harbored a painful secret: she liked girls. When Tina was eighteen her father accidently discovered the truth about her sexuality. Instead of dragging her to the family priest and lecturing her with tearful sermons about sin and damnation, her father shocked her with his honest response. He, too, was gay.

The secret they shared about their sexuality brought father and daughter closer, and the two became trusted confidants and partners in a relationship that eventually spiraled out of control. Tina and Sir John spent nights dancing in gay clubs together, experimenting with drugs, and engaging in sex with their respective partners in public places—all while keeping the rest of their family in the dark.

Outside of their wild clandestine escapades, Sir John made Tina his heir apparent at the travel agency. Drawn deeper into the business, Tina soon became suspicious of her father’s frequent business trips, his multiple passports and cache of illegal documents, and the briefcases full of cash that mysteriously appeared and quickly vanished. Digging deeper, she uncovered a disturbing facet beyond the stunning double-life of the father she thought she knew.

A riveting and cinematic true tale stranger and twistier than fiction, Hiding Out is an astonishing story of self-discovery, family, secrets, and the power of the truth to set us free.

It would make an amazing movie!!

Love the ending... the middle... and the beginning!! Another great example of life being stranger than fiction!!

Loved this memoir.

I couldn’t put it down. It was so honest, heartfelt and inspiring to all of us who
harbor secrets but need to face them.

A beautifully written piece

The voice, the narrative, the contrast, so personal and relevant, takes you on a journey that you will not soon forget. So many of us hide our families past with the author takes us into her world, as seen through her eyes and heart. So poignant and beautiful. Tears will come easy.

loved every minute!

The narrator is the author & she bares ALL to her audience (I'm still blushing lol). The book gave me new perspectives on Catholicism & sexuality, family, hypocracy and piety, and just surviving... it really gets to the heart of what separates us and what brings us together. I will be thinking of this book for a long time. It's hard to write too much without spoilers, but let's just say I highly recommend it (especially the audio because Tina is super fun to listen to).

Fascinating!

It was hard to put down, a theme truly unique yet real. I felt I was experiencing everything the author was. Well written and well read.