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Hiding Out

A Memoir of Drugs, Deception, and Double Lives
Narrated by: Tina Alexis Allen
Length: 9 hrs and 49 mins
4 out of 5 stars (67 ratings)
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Publisher's Summary

Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen's audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father - a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of 13 children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family by running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed high school basketball prodigy, she harbored a painful secret: she liked girls. When Tina was 18 her father accidently discovered the truth about her sexuality. Instead of dragging her to the family priest and lecturing her with tearful sermons about sin and damnation, her father shocked her with his honest response. He, too, was gay.

The secret they shared about their sexuality brought father and daughter closer, and the two became trusted confidants and partners in a relationship that eventually spiraled out of control. Tina and Sir John spent nights dancing in gay clubs together, experimenting with drugs, and engaging in sex with their respective partners in public places - all while keeping the rest of their family in the dark.

Outside of their wild clandestine escapades, Sir John made Tina his heir apparent at the travel agency. Drawn deeper into the business, Tina soon became suspicious of her father's frequent business trips, his multiple passports and cache of illegal documents, and the briefcases full of cash that mysteriously appeared and quickly vanished. Digging deeper, she uncovered a disturbing facet beyond the stunning double life of the father she thought she knew.

A riveting and cinematic true tale stranger and twistier than fiction, Hiding Out is an astonishing story of self-discovery, family, secrets, and the power of the truth to set us free.

©2018 Tina Alexis Allen (P)2018 HarperCollins Publishers

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Self-indulgent crap

What would have made Hiding Out better?

The only thing I could think of to make this better is if it were never written.

Would you ever listen to anything by Tina Alexis Allen again?

No. Obviously writing is not her forte

How could the performance have been better?

had it not been "performed"

If you could play editor, what scene or scenes would you have cut from Hiding Out?

The normalization of adults having sexual relationships with children.

Any additional comments?

The way the author, (and I use that term loosely) talks about the encounters with her 27 y/o teacher when she was 11-12 years old do not depict a "relationship" as she puts it - it's child abuse. It's an adult molesting a child. And trying to make it anything other than a deplorable act is in itself, deplorable.

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loved every minute!

The narrator is the author & she bares ALL to her audience (I'm still blushing lol). The book gave me new perspectives on Catholicism & sexuality, family, hypocracy and piety, and just surviving... it really gets to the heart of what separates us and what brings us together. I will be thinking of this book for a long time. It's hard to write too much without spoilers, but let's just say I highly recommend it (especially the audio because Tina is super fun to listen to).

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A beautifully written piece

The voice, the narrative, the contrast, so personal and relevant, takes you on a journey that you will not soon forget. So many of us hide our families past with the author takes us into her world, as seen through her eyes and heart. So poignant and beautiful. Tears will come easy.

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Fascinating!

It was hard to put down, a theme truly unique yet real. I felt I was experiencing everything the author was. Well written and well read.

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this is a very interesting book

this is a very interesting book. it is my first audiobook and I enjoyed every second of it.

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Sorry I listened.

It’s the story of a woman who outed her dad, which completely destroyed her family. Kind of devastating.I realize that her dad should have it outed himself. But she still chose to do it for him. The whole thing made me uncomfortable.

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Not a fan.

I was thinking this book would be exciting and thrilling... The voices aren't very pleasant and honestly it was boring. There was nothing at the beginning that really made me want to continue with it, so I didn't finish the book. Maybe I should have given it another chance.. but the dang voices is really what got me.

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Loved this memoir.

I couldn’t put it down. It was so honest, heartfelt and inspiring to all of us who
harbor secrets but need to face them.

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Book was all over the place...

I finished this book because I kept waiting for that great moment that never came. A lot of loose ends. A lot of unanswered questions.

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Didn't finish!

At times it seems that she is writing the book to tell her story but it ends up that most of it is just pornographic descriptions of her gay encounters. Would love to have heard just her story with out all the vivid descriptions.

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  • 01-06-19

Interesting

An interesting and involving story but Tina's audio narration let it down, especially her very annoying voices of her father, her lovers and other people. Also, I wish she chose the brave option and did not try at the end of the book to glorify ger father as throughout the pages he came across as a hypocrytical tyrannical bully who never managed to built up meaningful relationships with any of his thertreen kids.