Gray's Shadow

Kings of Hell MC Series, Book 4

By: K.A. Merikan

Narrated by: Joel Leslie

Length: 15 hrs and 35 mins

Publisher's summary

There can be no shadow without the man to cast it.  

After losing his twin brother, Gray has devoted his life to the Kings of Hell MC. He will do anything to protect his family and that means anything.  

Even sell his own shadow to the devil. 

Following a fire that left him without one arm, Gray feels pushed to the sidelines. In order to prove to his club that he is still capable of completing dangerous tasks, he will have to team up with the strange creature from the Other Side. Tall, inhumanly strong, and menacing despite the handsome exterior, Shadow is just the tool Gray needs.  

The moment Shadow lays his eyes on Gray, he wants to crawl under Gray's skin and make the human his.  

Gray on the other hand isn't willing to get attached to a monster destined to do the devil's bidding and disappear once his time is up. Rejected, Shadow has to do everything in his power to convince his human that they belong together.  

But as the clock ticks away precious minutes of Shadow's existence, Gray will have to choose between his loyalty to the Kings of Hell MC and responsibility for the creature he brought into this world.  

Contains mature themes.

©2018 K. A. Merikan (P)2019 Tantor

Love It

I was happily surprised by this series. The narrator is really good. I felt like I could have fallen in love with Shadow. He was so sweet and innocent and he was trying so hard to learn. He let his emotions show and wasn't afraid to do so. My favorite moment in the book came when Shadow showed Gray how much he loved him when he took control when Gray had trouble doing what the Club required (trying not to give anything away). I dare anyone to not fall in love with Shadow at that moment. Hearing the vulnerable sides of these bad ass guys is a plus for me. You won't waste your credits by getting the series.

unfair to grey

after reading all books I felt the punishment to grey was unjust, looking back at all the couples and the mistake they all made by keeping secrets and worshipping a serial killer ect grey did more than any one there and was treated harshly even though he and shadow got the egg.

Smart writing

*Spoiler Ahead*


I understand why people are upset about what happened to Grey and Shadow toward the end. But think about if they didn’t get punished and was instead letting off with just some heated argument and quick understanding. First it would be less enjoyable without the emotional rollercoaster. And having his hand injured it makes shadow part of the club now, making that sacrifice is almost like to prospecting, knight even said so. Imagine if there’s no major consequences, the reader wouldn’t really feel like they are still the underdog couple in the club, the whole “us against the world” sentiment, as ridiculous as it is, still have emotional draw for me. Overall I still very much enjoy this book, maybe even better than the other ones. Some of the crazy scenes in there are just the right amount beyond imagination for the me to feel the magic. Highly recommend it.

Reviews had me worried

I normally don't read reviews of trusted authors/series, I like going in totally blind. However I accidentally skimmed a few and was tempted to skip this book or put down the series. I am SOOOO glad I didn't. First of the Shadow's character is so unique and charming he alone was worth reading. Gray's attitude towards him at first may seem cruel, and a bit melodramatic but I think it was so incredibly real. He didn't understand Shadow and was (rightly) afraid of him and being influenced by those around him. While Shadow was desperate and confused it just makes sense! and I legit cried.... like several times. !!!!SPOILER!!!!! So many people complained about the clubs reaction to certain events at the end of the book, but come on y'all THIS IS AN OUTLAW MOTOR CYCLE CLUB WITH TIES TO A FREAKIN DEMON. You cross the club and you will be punished. Justified actions or otherwise. Frankly, -and here is my unpopular opinion- Shadow and Gray were let off EASY. Gray and Shadow's actions were selfish, and YES I believe that Gray made a few human decision. But he totally chose one person over the world as they know it. Which is why I love these Authors so much. They make mistakes, they act selfish and disregard the big picture sometimes because they are flawed. I can understand why people are upset, because I mean in the same situation could you imagine Beast not making the same choice as Gray if it were Laurent?

The best so far

Listening to this book is probably the most emotional I've gotten through out the entire series so far.

I felt both terrible, disgusted, light hearted and sad getting through this. The author is so good at portraying how these characters are feeling and on their internal relatable conflicts.
The romance is so addicting that i just cant stop listening and constantly want to know more.

I highly recommend if you're this far in the series, this book is probably my favorite so far. Much more innocent, pure and less lusty then the prior books. The differences between all these characters and their relationships is so fun to keep following.

Team Shadow

First off Joel Leslie’s narration was on point and made the story come to life. There were parts of the story that I wished were explained more. I loved Shadow. I really felt for him on how Gray treated him. I’m not gonna lie, it made me tear up a little. Overall, I was very satisfied with the story. I think this might be my favorite in the series. In K.A. Merikan’s books, I really like how you don’t see where the story is going to go next. The story ideas are so original and dark and twisty and sexy and not angsty.

I Absolutely love Grey and Shadow

Greys Shadow is the 4th installment of Kings of Hell MC and it's just as good as the rest of the series. Shadow had my heart from his first appearance. He's just so sweet and innocent , even if he can RIP a person's head from its body. I've loved Grey since the beginning so it hurt how he treated shadow at first but it's understandable considering his personality. After Shadow broke through his barriers though he was completely smitten and so was I. I absolutely love this series and reccomend it to anyone who's into dark and sexy MM romance.

Deeply emotional creeptastic fiction!

Merikan’s series gets even stranger (in a good way) as Gray makes a pact with the creature of the house. His shadow must inhabit the body of someone long dead and ‘feed’ the trees for 3 consecutive moons. The imagination and character building in this story is fantastic. We see the quiet, introverted, almost reclusive yet lethal Gray’s innermost thoughts, feelings and fears change through the book with the introduction of his personified shadow. Loss of his arm mimics the pain of losing his twin several years previous. What I initially thought as creepy and unbelievable soon became a very unique and interesting twist on reality. Shadow’s personality, thoughts, feelings, depth of physical and emotional growth are stunningly presented. I’m not one for much angst, but in the beginning of the book he was quite a hand-wringer. He settled down, but those hormones and churning need to be one with his person again made the chemistry off the charts in a way you don’t normally see in creeptastic fiction. The story verges on being so intimate one could almost call it sappy, if not for the bold innocence of Shadow’s simple statements of love. By the end of the book, I was totally routing for Shadow and Gray, the world be damned- literally! Joel Leslie is awesome- puts just enough whine into Shadow’s lightly British accent when needed, but not so much as to make you want to go mad. The un-bodied version of Shadow’s voice is sufficiently chilling and shudder-worthy. Each of the club members has their own personality and voice, kept true through the series- something very few narrators do well, but Leslie exceeds all expectations!

Still enjoying

This was my least favorite of the series - the cruelty was a bit much - I know this genre has a heaping of it - and it being hard to listen to - kept telling me - the author did really an amazing job with writing—because I was getting in my feelings for poor long suffering Shadow:) xoxo - Overall - in a series not every book will grab you -BUT!!! I do recommend this installment- you get to continue to see your previous favs - AND it has great MC and steamy action!!!

Ridiculously entertaining

Where does the authors get their fantastical imaginations from? The story is so absolutely well done its believable. The lines between reality and fantasy is so well woven I’m already saddened by the knowledge that this series is coming to an end.